based off the song by paramore

also can we talk about how shawn turns 19 in seven days, like where did the time gooo?? btw my shawn imagines book gets published on his bday (self promo ok bye)

okAY BUT IDK WHAT THIS IS

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she lay in my bed, her stuffed animals and blankets covering the edges of her purple twin bed.

it was twelve am and she had never stayed up that late. but it was near impossible to sleep when she could barely hear herself think.

the five year old held onto that stuffed bear so tightly.

her parents were screaming again. she knew their relationship was coming to an end.

she wrapped herself in her butterfly duvet and walked through the dark hall. the yelling and screaming was finally over, yet the pain wasn't.

she peaked her head in the door and saw her mom swearing to never fall in love again.

her mother was sprawled out on the kingsized bed with her blanket clutched tightly in her arms.

her sad eyes shifted to the fragile girl standing at the door. "y/n, dear, come sit." she told her daughter, wiping the mascara from under her eyes.

the girl sat next to her mum on the bed and watched as she tried to hold herself together.

"don't fall too easily... you'll end up broken." she whispered, trying not to cry too much.

y/n nodded her head and got up to grab a snack.

she saw her father leaning against the island with a beer held up to his mouth. he cursed at the wind. he broke his own heart.

that night the little girl promised herself to never fall in love if it didn't exist.

he's so different. how gentle and kind he is. how he holds the door for me, compliments me even in my worst times.

he's the only exception.

my phone rings. i pick it up and read caller id.

"hey c/n." i say, happily. "y/n, do you want pizza or spaghetti and meat balls?" he asks.

"spaghetti, i haven't had that in forever. not to mention we just had pizza last night." i say, giggling lightly. "and the night before that." i add.

"okayyy i get it. i'll be home soon." he pauses. "i love you." he says, making me smile. "i love you too." i reply, ending the call.

i used to think i was okay alone, but now i don't know what i'd do without c/n.

i guess he changed my mind.