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A hand smacks me in the face, my body falls to the floor, "please stop," I sob, Ryder grabs me by hair, I wince as he pulls me up to his face, "you're a fucking slut you know that," I knew that was not a question.

I'm a slut.

He drops me on the floor as hard as he can, I shut my eyes crying softly, he flips me over and unbuttons my pants. Fear took over my body. "No, please don't do this," I try to get away from him, but he grabbed me by my throat cutting of my air, I choke, "it will be over if you stop moving," I sob out, "don't do this again," I can't go through this again.

My body burns trying to fight him from taking off my clothes.

But my clothes are already gone.

I cry for him to stop but he never did.

I was all alone, no one was in the house, but I still yell out for help. He ended up banging my head on the hard floor nocking me out.

But I can still feel what he did to me.

Fear ran through my body. I was helpless, I was always helpless with him.

I couldn't fight, scream, get help, I could do nothing except let him do what he wanted to do with me.

I feel my body being shook awake, I gasp awake.

I come face to face with Damon, "shit, angelo, I couldn't wake you up," my eyes are teary, "h-he was here," I gasp looking around, "no he not, no one's here," Damon put's my face in his neck, I smell his leather and his rich cologne.

I sob, he runs his big hand up and down my back, "i's ok angelo, your same," he breathes in my ear, "I'm scared," I ament, "I know, but your safe with me," he kissed the side of my head, "can I sleep with you?" I ask, I pull my head out of his neck waiting on his answer, "sure," we stand up, I get out of the couch and go to his room. When I get in his bed, he just looks at me, "I'll be sleeping downstairs," he starts to walk away but I stop, "stay with me," I pull him into the bed.

He looks at me with wonder in those grey eyes, "you sure?" I nod, "yes," I spoke softly, I place my head on the pillow, "goodnight," I mutters before falling asleep.

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The next morning Damon was not in the bed, I forced myself out of bed and go to Nev's room. "Why were you in Damon's room?" I friend asked, "I had a nightmare last night and he took me to his room," I answer, I see a frown on her lips, "him?" She already knows about Ryder, I nod, "yes," I reply.

She comes over to me and gives me a hug, "I'm sorry baby," she mutters, "it's fine it was just a nightmare," I scoff, "me and you both know that it was not just a nightmare," she's right, it was a flashback.

A horrible flashback.

I sniff, and pull away from her, "I think I'm going to go train," I tell her, "Ok, don't too worked up," I smirk, "I'll try my best," I wink, she chuckles. I put on a black sports bra and a Nike short. I go to the training room and start to punch the bag.

After he had his way with me, I lay in a corner of the room, I curl my naked body in a ball.

I see him come back into the room, my eyes widen in fear, "ready to go again?" He unbuttons his pants, "no," I scream, he comes over to me and pull on my leg, "stop!" I scream, he smirks.

I use all of my muscles to kick my leg hitting him in his face, I smile, "you bitch," he holds his probably broken nose, I get up and run, I don't care that I'm naked, I just want to get out of here.

But I feel a hand grab my leg, "no," I cry, I fall, he turns me around, "you bitch, I'm going to kill you," he wrapped his hand around my throat, his thumb pressed on my esophagus. I choke, gasping for air. My brain goes foggy.

I can't die.

Not like this.

I grind my teeth and dug my nail into his right eye, he lets go of my throat where I can breathe, he cries out, blood goes down my finger as I dug my nail into his eye more. I flip over and get on top of him, "you hurt me for two years, rapped me, abused me," I lean closer to his ear, "I will never let that happen again," I pause, "if I ever see you again, I will kill you," I take my nail out of his eyes, which had blood all over my thumb.

I use all of my strength left to punch him, knocking him out cold. Blood goes all over his face, I feel some kind of relief, seeing his blood on my hands, overpowering him.

I feel good.

"Alaska?" Bella's voice yells in my ear, tear go down my face, "shit, are you ok?" She pulls me in her arms, but I push away, "yea, I'm fine," I clear my throat, "no you're not, the last time I seen you like this is when you had a nightmare about..." she trails off. Then her mouth opened, "please don't tell me you had a flashback of him," my bottom lips wiggles, "aw, Al," this time I let her pull me into a hug.

I let out a cry, "Bella, I have to tell you something," I sniff, she sights like she knows what I'm going to say, "he sent me a text last night." I tell her, looking up at her, "what if he knows where I'm at?" I start to panic, Bella closed her eyes, "Alaska, he does not know where you are he just tormenting you. Don't let him get to you," she runs ger thumb over my damp cheek.

She's right.

I sniff, wiping my eyes, "your right," I smile, she smiles back. "Um, Al, we will get him I promise," she holds up her pinky finger, "even if I have to die doing it, we will get him," I twist my pinky finger with hers, "no, you will not die, if anything I will die getting him," she shakes her head, "then I guess we will both die," I smile, "love you," I tell her softly, her face softens, "I love you too."

Me and Bell goes to the kitchen, "you want something?" Bella asked, "sure," I relay, then she opens the freezer, and pulls out a pizza box, "it's the only thing that I can fix without burning the house down," I snicker, "yeah that's good," I bite my bottom lip, "do you know where Damon is?" I ask, playing with my fingers. Bella turns around, "I'm his office," I nod, "I'll be right back," I get off of my chair and walk to his office.

I knock on the door, "come in," his rich deep voice shakes me to my core. I open the door and walk in. He lifts his head up, his face softens when he sees me, "you doing better?" No. "Yes, much better," I lie, "don't lie to me Alaska," his jaw locks, I scoff, "I'm not lying," I roll my eyes, Damon stands up from his seat, "I can always tell when you lie, angelo," (angel) he comes closer to me.

My body immediately gets hot, "mm, can you?" my eyes go down to his lips, "yep, I can also tell when you want me without saying it," my cheek get hot, I clear my throat and drops my head, "Um, Bella is making pizza I'm going to," I point back to the door, "yea, bye," I trip over my words. He chuckles and goes back to his seat, I walk out of his office and go back into the kitchen.

"So, how did it go?" Bella wiggles her eyebrows, I flip her off, "otvali," (fuck off) she sticks her tongue out, "mommy why are you sticking your tongue out?" Kat comes in the room, "she's just licking my-" she cuts Ares off, "I swear to God if you finish that sentence I will kill you," she glared at Ares. He just smirks.

Kat look confused, "I'm confused," she mutters and walks out of the kitchen.

Bella takes the pizza out of the oven and puts in on the bar, "it's hot," Ares started to reach for one but Bella smacks his hand away, he rubs his hand, "ow," he muttered, "your not getting anything," Bella walks out of the kitchen, Ares followed her, "and your sleeping on the couch tonight," she yells, "no amore, I did not mean what I said," he groans.

I laugh and start to eat the pizza.

I got to stop thinking about him...

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