Day 74

Evening

After a couple of minutes, I was able to hold my endless tears back and regain my composure. I had wrapped my arms around him after that with my forehead rested against him. I felt to tired to fight myself and gave into my urges."Can we return to your castle now?" I ask.

"Alright. But can we dance to just this one song? We can stay just like this."

"That'll be fine."

It probably looked a lot less romantic than it felt. A girl who suddenly gave into her overwhelming emotions and had a breakdown, cries and ends up holding onto someone like a child. My stuffy face and ruined make up was by all means looking horrible. And I didn't need to see my face from the mirror to know that.

My arms were around Rowan, and his arms around me. I couldn't think straight enough to identify the music I was hearing, but it was a soft melody. I wonder if I gathered unwanted attention with how I was sobbing earlier. Would people be looking at us now while thinking 'why is such a gorgeous man dancing with that wreck of a girl?'

As of now, I don't give a damn.

"I'm horrible aren't I." The prince says softly, his voice filled with regret. "I promised to marry you but I couldn't protect you. The first time and almost the second. I even failed to realize how much it affected you."

"It isn't your fault."

"I don't care. I feel responsible either way."

"Then stop feeling responsible."

"It's not that easy. You'd know that if you ever felt the need to protect someone dear to you. If you've lost someone dear to you because you were too weak."

He certainly isn't wrong. I've never been in the position he's in. To watch the person he loves lose her memories and never be able to regain them. And watch it almost happen for the second time. "I'm sorry. I was being insensitive."

"You can make up for it by staying like this for longer than just one song. Maybe three? Ten?" Rowan said in a joking manner.

"I'm too tired for that. Maybe some other time."

"Oh? Some other time?"

Even though I wasn't looking at his face, I could see the smirk plastered on it whenever he goes and says something that way. "Yeah."

"Some other time like tomorrow?"

"Not that soon."

"I see."

The song soon finished. Prince Rowan and I parted from my the way we held each other, and he was looking at my stuffy face. It felt embarrassing but embarrassment was too tiresome to manifest.

"You look tired." He tells me. Well obviously. I roll my eyes.

"We should head back to our rooms then and get ready to leave."

"I'll inform prince Lichter of our untimely leave then."

"Okay."

Rowan bends down in front of me, we were almost at eye level. Was he examining my face? Please no. Not when I look like this. The eyeliner has probably run down making me look like a psycho ex girlfriend.

He leaned in closer and placed a kiss on my forehead. "I won't take long with prince Lichter."

"Yeah..."

Rowan left to go find prince Lichter while I stood there tiredly processing how that sly man kissed my forehead like it was nothing. I guess I didn't dislike it.

I struggled to get out of this heavy gown, dropping it too the floor while I stepped out of it to feel freedom against my skin. For a bit, I wouldn't mind walking around the room half nude.

Entering the washroom, I look at my face on the mirror in front of the sink. Suprisingly the eyeliner hasn't ran down my face, but my eyes were puffy and I looked pale.

I didn't just look tired. I looked like a vampire has sucked out my entire life span. I turned the tap on to wash the makeup off of my face, then left the washroom to gather my things as well as put on clothes. A simple and comfortable plain white top and silk pants.

"Ah, the music box." The gift the prince gave me was just sitting by the bed, and so was that small memorabilia of the two of us. Since they might get crushed if I put them in one of my bags, it's best I just hold it until we return to Elleris.

"Risselle my love, are you ready?"

I hurry to the door and open it, there Rowan stood waiting for me with his guards to help gather my things. "Yep!"

"Time to go home then."

Home huh... Well I guess the castle is my home now.

"It's only been a few days yet it's felt like weeks."

"Indeed. It always feels that way when I have to leave the castle for my duties."

"You're a good prince, Rowan."

"This time you said it while not having a fever. My bride has grown quite soft for me."

"Doesn't the same go for you? You were quite a jerk to me at first. Like that time you said you'd marry me just to shut the king up."

"That was quite overboard, I admit."

"Right? Anyway I like the way we are now far better."

Except the way we are now... Is much like new lovers. Oh my oh my, what to do with myself.