I wake up to sunlight streaming through a window. I sigh and close my eyes before I remember where I am. I yelp and sit up. Fear goes down my spine as I swing my legs over the side of the bed and walk out of the room.

Beta Paul is sitting at at a coffee table staring at a pack file. When I walk in his eyes fly to mine. "Hey." I manage to say, the back of my throat dying from thirst.

"Hey, sit down." He motioned to a spot across from him. On the table is mug of coffee and eggs and bacon. I walk over and sit down taking a bite of the bacon. "So, Cici. Alpha Ash wants me to brief you on some stuff about the pack." He says. My eyes meet his and I got a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach.

"Your father already shared with us that you've lost your wolf." He says. I nod and drop my gaze. "Listen, Cici, to be honest with you the Alpha doesn't want a burden on the pack, I don't think you can stay here. You're not fit for a wife or for much else in the duties we expect of our members." The second he said those words my whole world came crashing down.

"W-what?" I cry out.

"As you know there aren't a lot of women in this pack. The ones who are though are strong and independant," I make my eyes go blank to stop myself from completely braking down in front of Beta Paul.

"Ok." I say. Paul gives me a sympethetic look.

"I'm sorry, but from this point on you can either go back to your father or you're a rougue." He says, than he gets up and leaves.

I lay down on the sofa feeling numb. I'm going to die. I'm going to die. My father will kill me. Tears continue to steam down my face. "My father will kill me if I return and I'd rather kill myself than be a rougue." I say to myself before stumbling into the bathroom. I pull open the medicine cabnet and grab whatever pills I can find. I pop the caps to the bottles open. Before I swollow the pills I go and find a pen and paper in the kitchen.

Dear Beta Paul,

Thanks for breakfast and for the truth. My father said that if he saw me agian he'd kill me and I'd rather me dead that be a rougue.

Thanks and goodbye.

Cici.

I walk over to the sofa and dump the pills in my hand. Wolf's heal fast but I don't have a wolf so I'm essentially human. Taking a deep breathe I pour the pills in my mouth and swallow. About an hour passed. "What have you done" I hear a voice... I look around frantically, than I realize, its my wolf. I gasp and start to try to bring up the pills, I choke and splutter but it's too late, 'she wasn't there fast enough' I thought as I saw everything fade to black. Just as someone burst through the door. He smelt perfect, like vanilla and buttercream were filling my senses and I let out a happy sigh and it helps me float away peacefully.

"Still too late." I mumble.