remember when i said that i wasn't gonna drink again? i lied.

i was feeling extra lonely tonight because if you didn't know, Trinity was spending all night with her boyfriend and Kékéli was with Elom at a party.

so, i was alone. and drunk. two horrible combinations. but, just not as drunk as last time.

so, i called the only person that would be accepting of me and said to hit them up when i was ready to be when them again.

so, long story short. Zion's currently knocking at my door and since i was that texted him, i sort of have to open it.

i walked over to the door and opened it wide to see a pretty nervous Zion. "i got your text. is there a certain reason you texted me?" he asks and steps inside as i shut the door behind him.

"i-i honestly don't really know. i guess i'm just a little lonely and all my true friends are out having fun while i sit in here, watch netflix, and load up on carbs." i explain and shrug, walking back over to the couch and sitting down. and in that moment i think he could tell that i didn't text him because i was ready for a relationship with him again, but more like i was missing a relationship with him.

"well, i guess i'm glad you called me because i felt the same." he said with a small laugh and sat down beside me, then noticing the bottle of alcohol on the coffee table and he sighs.

"or you were drunk." he says and i shrug, looking around in embarrassment, "so, what do you want us to do?" he asks and chuckled.

"Caleb. i really fucking miss you." i suddenly admit and it takes him by surprise. i know i had been acting awkward and blunt ever since he arrived, but i dont how to act around him as his ex. because i don't wanna be his ex. i wanna be his.

then, he took me by surprise this time and he kissed me. but, it was a softer kiss then all the last times. i kissed him back and he cupped my face in his hands. as we parted and he set his forehead on mine, i smiled. i had barely even smiled more than twice over the past almost two months.

god, am i horrible as moving on. but, i didn't want to. i used to think that we were meant to be. he was the one i would have a family with. it was all him.

then, i moved closer to him and he faced me as i kissed him again and i kept kissing him until it got deeper and we parted yet again as the liquor hit me in a flash and i got really drowsy and tired, Z could tell.

i slowly let my head fall into his lap and i started drifting off into sleep as he ran his finger through my hair and held me close against him.

and god i wish we could

stay like this

will it finally be time for them to get back together? on the nineteenth part? or do you think there's more to their story? 😏😘

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