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"happy birthday man !"

Jack said giving me a hug.

He smelled like alcohol and weed.

jack literally smelled like if there was a fucking party inside of him.

"Yoo you fucking reek"

Jack let go and sniffed his armpits.

"Probably cause I didn't put deodorant on !" He shouted through the loud music.

That was obviously not what I meant but ok.

I gave him a fake smile and just walked through the crowded house.

I didn't even know half of these people, Millie literally invited everyone she knew.

Some of my friends were here.

Like Josh, Lucas, Aubrey, joe etc.

But I haven't seen them yet.

And all of these people were making me feel uncomfortable and claustrophobic.

I just wanted to scream from the top of my lungs and tell them to get out.

I literally told Millie I didn't want a huge ass party but as always she didn't listen to me.

Pamala was talking with some people, as well as Gaten, Sadie, Caleb, and Noah.

I felt alone...even though I wasn't.

I started getting sweaty and my hands started to shake.

My anxiety was through the roof and I felt like bursting into tears.

The loud music was starting to sound like if I was underwater.

I can't.

I can't.

I can't do it.

I quickly got up from the empty couch and just pushed my way through the people who were conversing with one another like they do at normal parties.

"Excuse me" I said as I walked past the drunk girl.

I needed to be with y/n...

I couldn't handle all of this.

I ran up the stairs and quickly walked down the long hallway and entered my room.

I closed and locked the door wanting to be alone for a while.

I sat on my desk and opened up my computer.

I harshly pressed on the keyboard and typed in my password.

"Hurry up.." I said as I grabbed my lip from how anxious I was.

Once the password was correct I immediately went to my contacts and scrolled down to find her contact name.

She was under the

Once I found her contact name I pressed on it.

💞🍝

"Please pick up..." I whispered

I let out a sigh of relief but that still didn't stop my hands from shaking.

"Hey Finn" she said as her face popped up on the screen.

"hey..."

"Everything ok ?" She asked softly

Her voice somehow relaxed me making me feel like everything was ok.

"Why aren't you at your party ?"

I let out a shaky breath and broke down crying.

"Finn...what's wrong ? Tell me"

"I need you" I say looking at her face

"I don't feel ok, I feel sick to my stomach there's just to much people down there and I hate it so much"

Y/n let's out a sigh as well and speaks up.

"Finn listen to me..."

"I want you to calm down for me..."

"HOW I CANT !" I shouted.

"Finn just take a deep breath in and out"

"Y/n-"

"Finn"

"Just do as I say"

"ok."

And so I did.

I took deep breaths in and out and that somehow relaxed me.

But it wasn't enough.

I still felt panicked.

"Ok now I want you to grab a pencil.."

"What ? Why-"

"Just do as I say you dumbo !" She giggled

I swear when I tell you that her giggle made all of my worries and panics go away.

I grabbed a wooden pencil from my pencil cup (I like to call them that leave me aloNe) and showed it to her so she could see that I had it.

"Ok now I want you to count from 10 to 1 and when you're done break the pencil in half" (I do this it works for me)

"Take a deep breath...and count"

I took a deep breath as told and began to count.

"10"

"9"

"8"

"7"

"6"

"5"

"4"

"3"

"2"

"1"

soon I heard a snap.

I opened my eyes and saw that the pencil was in half.

"Feel better ?"

I actually did.

"Yea."

"I feel more relaxed and calm"

Y/n smiled and slightly bit her bottom lip.

"alright well, you should get going to your party no-"

"No !" I shouted

"I mean no, I don't want to stop talking to you"

"Please don't go..." I whispered

Y/n was silent and had her mouth slightly opened.

"I want to spend my birthday in here with you...I rather share it with someone who actually cares about me"

She chuckled and scratched her forehead.

"Finn, I'm not the only person who cares about you...you have amazing friends who did this party just for you and the people who love you literally took the time out of their day and attended the party..." she smiled

"I wish you were here with me right now..."

Y/n chuckled but then her face changed...

Like if she had an idea.

"Hey Finn...Uh"

"What ?"

"You wanna do phone sex ?" She says as she bit her lip seductively

I immediately choked on air and started coughing uncontrollably

"w-what ?" I say as some coughs left my mouth.

"what you heard...you wanna get freaky ?" she started to play around the straps from her spaghetti shirt.

"I'm fucking messing with you !" She laughed.

I. AM. DEVASTATED. !

"Bitch I know you got a fucking Bonner, don't even try to hide it" she laughed

"Fuck. Off !" I chuckled.

Y/n bursted into laughter making her cha cha bingos jump.

She soon stopped and she just looked at me confused.

"What you weirdo ?"

"Laugh again !" I say

"What the fuck ? Why" she giggled

I didn't answer but just stared at them.

Her eyes followed mines and she looked down at her chest.

"FINN STOP IT YOU HORNy FUCK !" She said as she quickly hugged her chest.

"AWW YOU FREAKING TEASE I HATE YOU !" I groaned

"Shut uP you fucking love me"

"nope, on the contrary I hate your stinking guts"

Y/n laughed but nothing happened with her melons..cause she was obviously holding them.

"hmm, maybe as a birthday gift we can do the squanch..."(rick and Morty anyone ? No ok)

Y/n gasped and looked shocked

"Finn what has gotten into you !" She smiled

"you made me like this..."

"Literally less then 5 minutes ago you were crying and now you're horny !" She laughed

"but..."

"But what ?" I say as I raised my eyebrow with a devilish smirk

"You better wrap your willy before you get silly !" She giggled.

"So what you're saying is that we will ?"

She looked around the room and bit her lip.

"I'm not saying that...all I'm saying is you better wrap it before you tap it"

"I'm talking in general man...I'm not specifically talking about us" she licked her lips

That made me get weak in the knees.

"So are we just going to ignore the fact that we're talking to each other as If I don't have a damn boner ?" I laughed.

"I guess so..."

"I bet my pinkie toe is bigger than your dick bitch !"

"Nah, I measured it"

This left y/n with a disgusted face but she look intrigued.

"alright what'a your size"

"It's bigger then my middle finger and we both know I have pretty long fingers" I winked.

"Your fingers are gross." She chuckled

"is It weird that I don't feel uncomfortable?.."

"Nah, you're my girlfriend not some stranger"

She only hummed in response and did circles in her chair.

"Anyways don't you think people are starting to wonder where you're at ?"

"Nah...nobody even knows I'm gone" I chuckled

"Ahh, gotcha"

"why you got something better to do ?" I asked curious

"Uh yea...eat watch Netflix and sleep" she shrugged

"Is that way more important than me ?" I pouted.

"uh, is that a trick question?"

My pout turned into an o shape

"Kidding..."

"It's obviously way more important than you will ever be !" She said seriously

"Fuck you man"

"What time ?"

"NO ! WE ARE NOT DOING THIS AGAIN !"

She laughed and clapped her hands.

"You already made me get a damn boner which fucking hurts by the way-"

"Then go bear your damn meat into a sock jeez !" She says.

"Y/n, man I really hate you for teasing me"

"Bitch I didn't fucking tease you. You just fell into my trap"

"Anyways I hate to be a draggg but I gotta sha leave"

"What the fuck why ?"

"Cause I have a date !"

"OH HELLLLL NOOO !"

"NOPE TELL THAT BASTARD YOU ARE NOT GOING" I say some what as a joke and some what serious

"Babe chill...I have a date with Netflix"

I looked at her seriously as she laughed right through the screen.

"By the way, did Noah do anything stupid ?"

I shrugged into my seat and shook my head no.

"Well no, why ?"

She stayed frozen and bit her thumb

"No reason just asking..."

I puckered my lips and nodded

"Ok..if you say so"

"Ok well I really need to go now I have to get ready for this dinner with my dad and brothers...I'll call you tomorrow ok ? Bye you frog happy birthday have fun at your party and please don't do anything stupid be warned cause Noah is watching your every move and he will tell me EVERYTHING and not miss out on any details!" She says pointing at me with all seriousness.

"Bye take care my spaghett !"

She giggled and ended the call leaving me officially by myself with my damn bonner in my room.

"Dammit y/n, you fucking tease I will get you back !"

"I don't know how but I will !" I chuckled.

WHATS UP KDKDKSJSNS

the sky bitch.

LONG CHAPTER FOR YOU GUYS CAUSE YOU DESERVE IT 😭❤️

Ok anyways.

Idk.

Or do I ?

Haha anyways I made an edit of y/n of hateful love go check it out if you haven't it's on my Instagram ( @ WOLFHARCL )

Um also no song ?? If you have one that you think fits perfectly hit ya girl up !🤪

Beverly Hills is so fucking hoT I'm literally just inside my room with my ac or I'm either in my damn pool which is rarely cause I don't have A SUMMER BODY. Mm sometimes I'm laying down on my stairs which are always cold cause their marble and I look fucking dead 😭.

But also I'm going to Hawaii on Monday and I don't think I will be active for like 2 weeks so I'm updating as much as I can !😭❤️.

WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS THIS SUMMER ?

go to Santa Monica with my friends, go 2 the beach, surf (I don't even know how) go 2 fairs ! Go 2 Music festivals, fly 2 Greece with my friends ! And also Hawaii with my family IDK I HAVE ALOT ON MY LIST 😭😭.

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