"NO! BECAUSE YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!"

Sapnap starred at Karl in shock.

He was on the verge of tears and Nick could clearly see the distress in Karl's expression.

"You know what? Forget it, leave me fucking be"

Without another word Karl rushed out of the room, pulled the door close with a loud crash, making very clear that he did not want Sapnaps company.

The silence filling the room now, was more deafening than Karl yelling at him or the door falling into the lock as harshly as it did.

He heard another door falling shut down the hall, knew he fucked up big time.

Karl had never yelled at him like that before and Sapnap hadn't been prepared for the feelings that now washed over him.

It was a grey mix of guilt and grief and despair.

His heart felt like it was ripped out of his chest and he knew that, right now, he deserved this.

Karl had been under stress and pressure for months without end in sight.

Planning the merch drop, the new YouTooz, streaming and talking to his business partners, barely sleeping at all.

He'd been working so hard and without any complaints and Sapnap still thought he knew better.

"It isn't that hard!"

"Why don't you just take the break?"

"I do understand, you're just crazy!"

Sapnap felt his eyes tear up.

God, he really was an idiot.

He took of his cap, threw it against the wall, accidentally knocking a framed picture off it's nail.

He went to pick it up, saw a picture of him and Karl on the fun fair within a shattered frame.

A weak smile flit over his lips, he remembered that day.

Karl had begged him to win him a plushy on the fair.

"I will give you a smooch if you win one for me!", Karl had giggled when he had spotted the pastel colored teddy bears and bunny plushies in one of the game booths.

Sapnap turned around and on Karls side of the bed laid the pastel orange teddy bear that they had named Robert.

He had tried to win damn Robert for over an hour, but it was all worth it when Karl looked at him as if he was the best boyfriend he could ask for.

Sapnap walked over to the bed, sat down.

"I fucked up Robert. Tell me what to do."

The plushy didn't reply. Of course it didn't.

It just starred at the wall that the picture fell off of.

It was Karl's picture wall, he kept all the memories he'd never want to forget on the wall and whenever he was sad, he'd look at them like it was an art gallery of happiness.

But Sapnap wasn't sure if those pictures would safe them now.

They're relationship always had their ups and downs, but now it seemed like they had hit the wall.

But Sapnap didn't want this to end.

He didn't want this to be how they'd grow apart.

He knew Karl would forgive him, act like everything was alright, until their next fight and he knew that the next fight could always be their last fight, till they would give up on this.

He held tight onto the picture frame.

No. No, this wouldn't be how they'd go down.

He stood up and started taking the pictures of the wall.

It took a while to get all of them out of the frame, but he had a plan and he needed to set this whole thing in motion now.

After he grabbed the blankets, sheets and pillows off their bed and looked at Robert.

"Thank you dude.", he said and made his way downstairs.

In the meantime Karl was leaning against the door of his streaming room, cheeks full of tears and eyes red from the crying.

He hated this.

When Sapnap would be a fucking dickhead and when they would fight and when he felt so betrayed by the man he loved most in his life.

He sobbed, as he tried to dry off the tears with his sleeve.

His head fell against the door, when suddenly he heard something downstairs.

Like furniture moving over their hardwood floor. What the hell was Nick doing?

They were in a fight and he couldn't imagine doing anything better then rearranging their living room?

Karl sighed, took a deep breath, tried calming himself.

But it didn't help, the stress had gotten the best of him, made him feel like this would never get better.

He was exhausted.

Now that Sapnap was downstairs he could go to the bedroom, right?

He could sleep and deal with everything else later.

He stood up, opened the door and quickly walked over into the bedroom, but instead of relaxation he got greeted by an unpleasant surprise.

Sapnap had taken the sheets off of their bed and the picture frames of his happiness gallery were spread all over the floor.

Another wave of frustration hit Karl right in his core. This couldn't be serious.

He wouldn't take the others bullshit any longer.

He rushed to the stairs, ready to yell at Sapnap again, telling him that he couldn't live like this any longer.

That he couldn't deal with this, knowing Sapnap didn't fucking care anymore.

But before he even reached the staircase, he heard Sapnap call for him.

"I know you're probably still mad, but I wanna show you something!"

Karl's anger was switched out by confusion.

Did he seriously think an empty bedroom and a rearranged living room would change anything?

But still he went downstairs and all his confusion suddenly dissolved, when he saw Nick standing on the end of the staircase, in Front of a tunnel build from blankets and furniture.

Sapnap softly reached for his hands, sure Karl would pull away any second.

"I'm sorry for being the biggest idiot on this planet. I misinterpreted the urgency of your problems and needs and I belittled you, which is the most horrible thing I could have done to someone as hard working and passionate as you."

Karl felt Sapnaps hands trembling.

"I behaved like a selfish child and I'm really, really sorry. I know that doesn't solve our issues, a simple sorry can't fix this, but I need you to know that you are the most important person in my life and I would do anything for you. I should try to make you stronger and not bring out the worst in you."

He started crying and Karls heart contracted painfully at the broken sobs.

"I don't want us to fight and never find a solution, I don't want you to always take all that weight and carry it around. You deserve so much better, then just being put under pressure at work and at home. I want to do better, because I love you more than words can describe and I don't want to hurt you, when I could ease your pain."

Karl couldn't take this any longer, quickly went to wipe the tears away, while his own cheeks were flooded again.

"God, don't cry. Please don't cry."

"I'm sorry, I just hate that I didn't treat you right and that I only realize that now.", Sapnap sobbed, burying his face in Karl's shirt when he pulled him into a hug.

"It's okay.", Karl mumbled, quickly felt Sapnap shake his head.

"It's not okay, I fucked up and I need to do better.", he broke away from the hug, "And I want to do better from now on and I thought we could start here."

He gave Karl a flashlight, pointed at the entrance of the tunnel and said: "I thought this might be nice. You go first."

Karl raised an eyebrow, but still turned on the flashlight, as he started crawling into the tunnel.

And on either side he saw the pictures from his memory wall stuck to the sheets and blankets, with little notes underneath.

First one to the left was them when they first met in real life.

The day I accepted that I fell in love with you.

To the right was a picture of them cuddling on the couch of Karls old house.

When you taught me that cuddles are the best thing every, especially when it's with the person you love most.

The further he went into the tunnel, the lovelier the notes got and Karl couldn't help himself but giggle.

Everytime I see your smile I fall in love harder then before.

That day made me realize how blessed I am.

You're a gift to this world.

I wish there was a way to protect you from all the evil in the world.

When I kiss you I feel like nothing could ever be wrong.

I love you darling.

Karl smiled widely as he reached the last picture.

It was them holding the keys to their house.

On that day you said the only thing you could wish for from now on was a proposal and in case you don't even want to think about marrying an idiot like me, don't turn around, but if you do, I'd like to grand you your wish.

Karls eyes went wide, his breath hitched.

"What?", he asked quietly and turned around.

In the dim light of the flashlights Sapnap sat in front of him with a ring in his hands.

"I've been planning this for a while now and I thought even though this isn't the most perfect moment, I might as well go all in.", Sapnap said, laughed nervously, "So, Karl Jacobs, do you want to marry me?"

Despite their fight before Karl didn't hesitatehesitate, tears swelling up in his eyes.

"Yes!", he attacked Nick with a hug, "Yes! Yes!"

Nick pushed the ring onto Karls finger and wrapped his arms around him right after, sighed in relieve, as he buried his face in Karls hair.

He hadn't given up on them, neither did Karl.

"I love you and I'm sorry for being such an egotistical dickhead.", he said, felt his eyes tearing up, "I never want to live without you, you're my treasure, my sun and my heart."

"God shut up, I'm gonna cry even more", Karl sobbed, emotions taking over, "I love you too, I'm so grateful you finally realized what's been wrong and I'm so grateful that I mean enough to you, that you want to do better. God, I love you so much."

Nick kissed his head, also crying now.

"You don't just mean enough, you mean everything to me and that I put your well being and our relationship on the line with my selfishness and lack of self awareness is something that I will never forgive myself. Karl you mean the world to me and I will love you till the end of the time. I know I'm not a man of big words, but I really mean it."

He softly cupped Karls face with his hands and wiped his tears away, smiling weakly.

"Do I deserve a kiss?"

Karl nodded with a smiled, before he pressed his lips against Sapnaps, now not kissing his boyfriend anymore, but his fiancee.

After calming down from this roller coaster of emotions, Sapnap asked Karl to get to the end of the tunnel, revealing a big pillow fort.

"Do you remember when we moved in and did this?", Sapnap asked and Karl nodded, pulling Nick into his arms, falling onto some blankets.

"Yes, we cuddled all night long and listened to old love songs.", Karl recalled, giggled, "You looked so in love with me, I could see the hearts in your eyes."

He looked down at Sapnap who looked up at him with a love struck smile, happy that they could look forward now, to many, many years of love.

"Exactly like that.", Karl mumbled, before he leaned down to kiss Nicks forehead, "Like I'm the only person on the planet."

"You are for me, I don't want anyone else, but you in this world. You're my darling.", Sapnap replied softly.

"And you're my love.", Karl whispered back, "For many more years to come."