Louis blinked open his eyes from sleep.

"L-Louis?" his hoarse voice sounded again.

Louis sat up quickly leaning over so Harry could see him.

"I'm here." Louis said.

Harry rubbed his stomach, as if the searing pain in his shoulder was nothing. He felt the pain in his shoulder and stomach from surgery.

"William where is he?" Harry almost panicked but Louis kissed him gently on the lips calming him.

"He's here," Louis nodded towards the cot at the foot of the bed "he's so perfect, and healthy."

"Let me see him." Harry said.

"Okay, do you want anything first though, the doctor should have a look at you first?" Louis said unsure if it was a good idea to let him see William.

"Let me see our son Lou please," Harry begged "I've been shot and my baby was removed while I was out. I want to see him now." Harry ordered.

Louis silently walked to the cot picking the baby up and bringing him to Harry. Harry's eyes started watering when he saw the baby. He reached out with his arms wanting him but immediately grunted loudly with the pain from the gunshot wound.

"How about I give him to you, yeah?" Louis suggested.

"Yeah." Harry said gaining his normal voice back.

Louis placed William in Harry's good arm. He smiled widely as Harry looked at him with such admiration. He was beautiful. Harry immediately saw Louis in him.

"I've missed days with you little one, mummy isn't going to miss anymore I promise." he kissed his head gently.

"I'm going to go let your doctor know your awake." Louis smiled leaning over kissing both his boys on the head.

Harry looked over noticing Niall was sleeping on the couch. He scrunched his brows at the sight. Why was Niall here? Was there anyone else here apart from him? Oh god what if my mother came. Harry had a million things running through his mind.

What happened to Liam? Is he okay? He thought about this too.

Louis came back in with Harry's doctor.

"Mr. Styles! Brilliant you are awake," the doctor walked closer to Harry "let's have a look."

Louis took the baby so the doctor could check him over properly.

After checking him over the doctor said they could go after another day. Harry wanted William back. Since the moment he woke up he's clinged to their son. Niall woke up as they were checking Harry over.

"Good to see you are awake." Niall smiled.

He stayed a bit longer afterwards then left. Harry and Louis were again alone. The thought of Liam was still eating at Harry. Louis changed not long after he got in the room with William. He didn't want to tell Harry what happened with Liams blood on him. If he asked that is.

"Louis?" Harry said.

Louis looked at him silently.

"What happened to Liam?" Harry asked.

"He," Louis paused "I don't know if I should tell you."

"Louis please." Harry pushed.

"He shot himself." Louis answered vaguely.

"Oh he alright?" Harry asked.

Louis shook his head sadly.

"No Harry he shot himself in the

head." Louis felt like it was his fault but he wasn't going to tell Harry that part.

Harry breathing went shakey as he felt the tears form in his eyes.

"Why?" Harry started crying.

Louis went to take William so Harry wouldn't cry on him but Harry moved him slightly.

"After he shot you he realized what he had done and I tryed to stop him but I couldn't get up in time." Louis felt the lump in his throat.

"You should have-" Harry stopped himself.

They sat in silence until a knock sounded on the door. It was rather eager.

"Come in." Louis said since Harry was silent.

Gemma and Des came in. Louis looked at Harry, who was still looking at William. He'd been silent for nearly an hour now it worried Louis.

Louis stood up and grabbed Gemma's arm guiding her out the room.

"Louis, goodness what's wrong?" Gemma questioned at the action.

"He hasn't talked since he asked and I told him what happened to Liam." Louis started crying the tears he'd been holding back since Niall came.

Gemma pulled him into a hug.

"I know my brother, he will be okay. Harry is one that takes things hard, he's too kind and loving for a world like we live in today." Gemma said softly.

"He won't give me William, he's been smacking his lips for food." Louis said worriedly. 

"Louis," Gemma caressed the boys cheek "why don't you fix the bottle for him yeah? Show Harry how to do it?" she patted his cheek with her thumb. 

"Yeah okay." Louis said nodding. 

"Cheer up yeah? That's all that Harry needs right now is you and William. He's hurting and it may seem he wants to be alone with just William but really Louis he's screaming for you. No matter how much he snaps at you, believe me he doesn't mean it. He's lost someone Louis and when he loses someone close to him like Liam was. It takes time for him." Gemma pulled him into a hug. 

"Thank you Gemma." Louis whispered in hug and pulling away kissing her on the cheek. 

"Come on then." Gemma smiled reaching for the door handle. 

Louis nodded and they went inside. Louis measured the right amount of formula then put the right amount of water in and shook the bottle mixing it together. 

"Hey Haz?" Louis smiled softly, Harry looked up at him silently. 

"He needs to be fed," Louis smiled at William "you see how he's smacking his lips like that? That means he's hungry." Louis explained. 

Harry looked at the baby smacking his lips. 

"Here you go." Louis handed him the bottle. 

Seeing Harry was having a difficult time with getting William situated in order to feed him. He propped a pillow up on Harry's lap. 

"Prop your legs up a little not much so he don't fall then put him against it and feed him." Louis explained. 

Gemma patted his shoulder and he looked at her and she smiled. 

"So Des what do you do?" Louis questioned wanting to get his boyfriends father. 

"Well," he looked at Harry then back at Louis "I'm an accountant." 

"Sounds tricky?" Louis questioned 

He heard William do a spit type of noise. He got up helping Harry burp him. 

"Go on." he said holding William up while Harry patted his back to make him burp or spit up. 

"Well, not unless you know what your doing. You just keep or inspect financial accounts. Sounds boring but to me it is quite fun." Des smiled. 

"I don't think that's something I would ever find myself doing." Louis giggled.

"Well, you're my son's boyfriend what is that you do?" Des playfully smiled. 

"Well I work at a theater at the moment and I dance." 

"Right, what type of dancing do you do?"

He looked at Harry then back at Des.

"Ballet." Louis answered shortly.

"Like my boy?" Des said with a smile.

Louis nodded.

"Yeah."

"How did you come to meet him?" Des asked.

"Long story, I'll just say through a good friend." Louis said with Liam in mind.

Gemma sat on the couch looking at Harry holding William. Harry was fighting something on the inside. Louis could tell. Gemma could tell.

Tomorrow they get to leave. What if Harry saw the blood stains? What would he do? He wasn't talking now. Liams funeral is in a few days. Louis wasn't going to ask Harry about it until he said something himself.

Gemma and Des left to go home back to Cheshire. They both surprisingly got to hold William only for Harry to want him back after. He didn't say anything he just reached out silently.

It was like William was keeping him from something, some great hurt inside. The hurt that would totally destroy him.

"H-hold us." Harry choked out.

Louis looked up at him, his eyes were filled with plea. He climbed on the bed carefully. He laid back and slid his arms around Harry holding him as tight as he could without hurting him. Harry laid his head against Louis' chest holding William closely to him.

"Make it better Lou." Harry said softly.

Louis kissed his head.

"I wish I could baby, in time it will get better. I'm not going to promise because I don't know for sure what tomorrow holds or the days after that. I'm here and anytime you need me to hold you princess." Louis rocked him gently.

"I need you." Harry said.

"I have you." Louis said softly.

Harry fell asleep for the first time peacefully. He felt safe and forgot everything in his arms. It was heaven.