I let those lips press against mine for a moment, my heart beating faster and tingles spreading through my body, making me feel almost light headed....

But with bringing my thoughts back together....a frown forms on my face and I stop him, pulling away, my head tilting down...

“Stop....” I murmur barely audible, but know he heard as he freezes, still only inches away from me...

I close my eyes shaking my head “Stop doing that.....” I mumble dropping my head

“Doing what?” He whispers back, his fingers stroking my cheek gently as his head is still leaned in close to mine, not moving it...

“Doing that!” I snap, hitting his hand away and lifting my head, moving back “Stop kissing me!”

My eyes narrow at him, as I breath in deeply, sniffing and holding back those tears as I blink my eyes, adverting my gaze away from him and overlooking the view outside the cage...

Why does he do this?! Kiss me at inconvenient times!

“I can’t help it....” Noah answers in a whisper, his hand dropping to my knee, where my eyes dart to as I feel it placed there, what is he doing?

I open my mouth to speak, but find the words jumbled up on my tongue and I end up stuttering over my words.....and Noah cutting me off...

“Lexi?”

The way he says my name causes me to lift my gaze, locking it back with his piercing eyes that seem to twinkle from the coloured lights lining the outside of the cage we’re in..and that cause my insides to melt ....

What is he doing to me?

Shaking my head to myself....I drop my gaze again, biting my lip as I wish things could just become clear and easy....he’s always doing this....he’ll kiss me...then the next day act like nothing happened!...I don’t get it, why do that!...it messes with my head and I would prefer it if he didn’t do it at all...that way I would be able to think straight....and stop these feelings from bubbling up...

“Yes...” I hear myself whisper looking down at my lap “Yes...” I say a bit louder raising my head, and forming my eyes to narrow as I look back into his eyes “Yes! Yes you can help it!” my voice raises, going back to what he said ‘I can’t help it’ Pssh... “Yes you can, but you just decide to mess with me!” I shove his hand away from my knee, scooting a little away from him “You do this...” I motion between us, talking about that small kiss “And then the next minute you pretend nothing even happened!..What am I suppose to think Noah?...this isn’t just a game you know!...your messing with people! With people’s feelings....” my voice quietens near the head as I drop my head again, staring down at the metal bottom of this cage....because you’re messing with my feelings...

The cage swings gently as Noah moves, closing the distance between us as he moves closer, I feel his presence close beside me as I continue to stare at the floor...

“Lexi...” He murmurs my name again, close to my ear sending a shiver down my spine and my toes to curl, I clench my jaw. He has this effect on me....I never knew could even happen...

“Lexi...I’m sorry...” He whispers, his hand creeping towards my lap where my hands are wrapped around eachother “I really am...I never ment for this to happen, for you to feel like that...” He murmurs softly...his hand making its way to mine and he managed to untangle them...wrapping his large one around mine “I’m so sorry...” he whispers again, his lips right by ear now causing Goosebumps to rise on my neck “The truth?....at first I just liked to tease you, to pi$s you off as your reactions were pretty entertaining..” I scowl at that, but let him continue “But..the thing is...you grew on me Lex, I soon realized that a day wouldn’t go by without your name popping into my head, yeah okay maybe it was only there because I was planning on what to do to you, something I knew that would make you Pi$ssed...but it was still there...” He explains, his voice quiet as I stare down at our hands entwined together...

“I loved to pi$s you of Lexi...” He says, a small smirk heard in his voice as he says that “But...you know what?....you got to me, you got me thinking. You’re different from other girls Lex, you’re unique and I liked that. I liked that a lot.”

I feel myself shiver as he speaks, not sure if it’s from the chilly air up here or from the feel of him breathing on my neck.....

“And no matter what I did, it always seemed to make you tick...another thing about you, you’re short temper..” He lightly chuckles, his nose brushing against my skin causing my breathing to hitch in my throat “It’s what made it easy, and was very amusing.....”

He releases a breath, his hand tightening around mine “I never ment for anything to hurt you, not really...I just loved the amusement you brought.....but that was selfish..It shouldn’t have been like that

“Lexi....I’m so sorry....”He whispers again “And I swear all of these...” He pauses, his head shifting and I suddenly feel warmth on my cheek, causing butterflies to bubble in my stomach, as he presses his lips to my cheek gently before pulling away a bit “..All of those before..I ment and don’t take back...”

I swallow, blinking my eyes as my eyes cast down again...

I’ve just listened to him speaking the truth.....or, what he said is the truth....but you know what?...I believe him because I heard the sincerity in his voice, how gentle he was.....it is true.

Lifting my gaze, I bite the inside of my cheek....if what I think he’s saying is right....then..

“Lexi?” I lift my head, meeting his gaze once again, what normally is mischief and amusement circling in his eyes, is replaced with a serious expression, caring and loving....

Raising his hand to my cheek, he softly brushes his fingers across my cheek bone, a small trace of a smile tugging at my lips as he does that...causing him to mirror it...

Leaning in closer, eyes locked I know what he’s about to do....

But as our foreheads touch, hearing his breathing I look into his eyes, the swirling feeling in my stomach tightening as I want this.....I want him to kiss me...

“I’m going to kiss you now...”He whispers, a little smirk tugging at his lips “Just so you know...and I know for sure I’m not going to regret it, or act like it didn’t happen...”

A small bubble of a chuckle escapes my lips as I shake my head lightly, a smile tugging at my lips....he’s such a goof.

And with snaking my hand behind his neck, the little distance between our lips is gone, and I get that same jolt and spark shiver through me as our lips meet.

Smiling into the kiss, his free arm snakes around me, pulling me closer which causes me in turn to smile and gladly allow him...

Because if there’s anything I know...then it’s that if not my brothers, then Noah would be the only other person I would want to be up here with me....

The slight jolt of the wheel moving, doesn’t even break us apart, as the cage gently carries on edging around the big wheel....it’s only when we’re half way to the bottom that I pull back, my cheeks flushing as I bite my lip to hold back a smile and dropping my eyes to my lap...

I can sense Noah smiling, his eyes boring into me as his hand snakes into mine again, giving it a squeeze as I lift my head, meeting his gaze and give him a small smile....

Wow......my whole body feels lighter, and buzzing with....excitement?....or even nerves...

Gradually the wheel comes to a stop, no words are spoken, but it’s not needed, as I pick up the pirate teddy bear, I can’t help but smile as I remember how I got it..

With Noah still holding my hand, he helps me up, and to climb out of the cage onto the platform, my mind totally blanking that the worker for the ride is even standing there...

Smiling lightly I hug at the bear to my chest, my other hand linked with Noah’s as we weave through the exit.....I can’t seem to stop smiling!

But, as we reach the exit....reality hits me and I remember the real reason why me and Noah were on that wheel alone...

My smile drops of my face and my eyes snap up to our surrounding, looking to the distance....

My brothers still aren’t here...

“Hey...” Noah murmurs softly, tugging my hand so I turn towards him, looking up into his eyes duly..

He seems to realise why my moods suddenly dropped and he gives me a soft sad smile, while he traces a finger from my temple, past my eye and along my cheek bone, dropping to my chin as his body steps forward...

“I think we better get going...” He says softly...

I only reply with a nod....but feel another light smile tug at my lips as he leans down, pressing his lips gently against mine for a soft quick kiss...

Smiling back softly, he squeezes my hand and starts to turn around to head to the exit of the fair....it is time to go home....

But just as I’m turning too, I hear voices in the distance, that stop me from walking...

Turning around, my eyes strain in the dark light, even though lights from rides shine the place up, it’s hard to see still as most rides are closing down....

But I see figures running in our direction, voices shouting....and I feel my stomach twist in my gut....

They’re here....

“LEXI!” I hear the voices of my brothers yell out as they all hurry towards the big wheel, towards where we were just about to leave...

My jaw clenches....my eyes narrowing....I can’t believe them!...yes, okay so they did turn up....but over an hour late! And at closing time!

I feel Noah squeezing my hand again, realising it’s still linked with mine, but I don’t care...we’re in dark lighting...

“Lexi!” a out of breath from running, Chris, Evan, Blake and Seth approach us, coming to a stop a few meters away and catching their breath.....

I swallow again, feeling a lump rise in my throat....but no!...no I will not cry again...

“Lexi! Hun we are so, so sorry!” Chris steps forward, his eyes wide, a mask of guilt on his faces...as of all the boys share as they each take steps closer...

I just stare at them, a blank look on my face as I see them puffing and panting....how far did they run?

But also...my eyes trail across a certain brunette, standing beside my twin...looking a bit red in the face, properly from running...but with a blank look too...

I look away from her, back to the four boys in front of me....

“Lex..we are so, so sorry! We didn’t realise the ti-“ I cut Blake off, not wanting to hear their excuses..

Shaking my head to cut him off, I raise my hand so they shut up, “I don’t want to hear it...” I mutter, shaking my head before turning away, tugging along Noah beside me are our hands linked tight together....

I hear them talking, footsteps as they follow....and I feel Noah turn his head, obviously to look at them...but I don’t bother seeing if he says or mouths anything..and then feel him slip his hand from mine, and wrap it around my shoulders as we walk, murmuring in my ear...

I just carry on walking, not showing any emotion...but also hear the voices of my brothers trying to talk to me...trying to excuse themselves...

I don’t want to hear their excuses...their stupid pathetic excuses of not being here when I asked, to not being here so we could go on the big wheel, like we have done for years...and like we did with dad....

They didn’t bother turning up.

And for that, they don’t deserve me hearing them out on their pathetic excuses...

~~

The car ride home was silent, and awkward.

No one talked, not a word, only hearing the hum of the car engine...

I was stuck sat beside Evan, Blake driving and Chris in the passenger seat and then leaving Seth next to Evan.

I wish I was in the Dean’s car rather than here...

With Noah...

I nearly smirk to myself thinking that....it’s ironic that now I find myself wanting to be with that irritating as$hole...

Staring out of the window for all of the drive, I’m glad that we finally pull up at our house, and I’m the first to leap out the car, onto the gravel and holding the pirate bear to my chest in a tight grip.

Not even waiting for the others to get out, I hurry up to the front door, turning my gaze slightly to where a see a black car pulling into next door.....I can’t see him now...as much as I want to...I can’t.

Opening the front door as quietly as possible, with using the key tucked under the matt, I creep into the silent house, knowing everyone else is asleep and I quickly kick my shoes off before hurrying to the stairs...

I hear the boys coming in as I’m half way up the stairs, hearing their low voices whispering, but I waste no time in getting away...

I race straight up to my bedroom, shutting the door behind me....letting out a huge deep breath, I run a hand through my hair...

Walking into my dark room, my eyes absentmindedly gaze over to my window.....seeing a light on in the opposite one and the curtains flicker..

Biting my lip, I head over to my draws after placing the pirate bear on my bed, and I pull out an old shirt..

Stripping from my clothes, I would get a shower in the morning, but right now....I need my bed.

Leaving my underwear on, I pull the over sized, black shirt over my head, which I think has the band Paramore written on, I’m not quite sure..I can’t read in the dark...but whatever, it’s long enough coming to my thighs and I crawl under the covers, snatching up the pirate bear as I hug it to my chest as I settle under the duvet...

Releasing another sigh, my eyes close, hearing a buzzing sound in my ears, the after affect of having very, very loud music pumping in your ears for hours, just like if you went to a concert...

But then an actual buzz vibrate makes me open my eyes and I see my phone lighting up on my night stand...

Reaching over, I grab it...seeing a new text..

‘Sweet Dreams Chipmuck :P I’m still going to call you that, you love it really ;) Goodnight Alexis xxxx – Noah’

I feel my lips curve up into a smile, shaking my head a little at that stupid nickname.....but, I guess...right now..I do like it...not love it just yet...but yes, like it......the words grown on me, just like the boy who sent it has.

And I hardly even register that he called me ‘Alexis’ but once I do...instead of frowning like I thought I would do, as what memories it brings back...I find myself smiling...

And with sending a message back, I chuckle to myself in my head at what I send...

‘Goodnight Noah’s Ark ;) I’m still going to call you that...even though it was only once :P xxxx – Lexi’

Smirking lightly, I remember the first and possibly the last time I called Noah this, as a comeback and try to annoy him from calling me loads of nicknames....but hey, he wants nicknames, then he’s got one.

And with editing his name saved in my phone from ‘Noah’ to in fact ‘Noah’s Ark’ I chuckle the slightest, knowing that whenever I see that, it’s going to make me laugh...

Placing my phone back on the night stand, I get comfy again, snuggling to the pirate bear, the fur being incredibly soft and tickling my skin....I find myself going drifting to sleep, with something I thought I wouldn’t have tonight...especially after what happened....

A smile.

~

Feeling like in the half asleep and wake state, I hear movement in my room..perking up my senses, but I don’t dare open my eyes, scared at what I might see....

But when I feel the duvet being lifted, and the other side of my bed dipping and the springs squeaking...

Someone’s getting into my bed....

Feeling a little bit frightened...I’m about to snap my eyes open and face this person....but I don’t....instead I relax.....because I can sense who it is...

It’s my twin.

Seth.

It also helps that I can smell the familiar scent of his clothes, that I can tell it’s him...but also....I just know it is, without even opening my eyes....

I hear him sigh quietly....his body curling up beside mine and his arm snakes around me as he gives me a sideways hug..

I lay still, making sure my breathing’s even, pretending to be asleep...I don’t want to be awake...because I don’t want to face him.....

“We’re so, so, so sorry Lexi...” He whispers into my hair, the back of my head as his arm tightens around me, hugging me...

“I’m so sorry Lex...truly am, I know you don’t want to hear excuses, so I won’t give you one just now...” He murmurs so quietly, it’s amazing I can hear him, but then again...he is right by my ear..

“I’m so, so, so sorry..” He repeats “I know how much it ment to you....”

I keep my eyes closed, forcing them to stay closed and feel a frown on my face...

“I’ll make it up to you Lex, we all we....if it’s the last thing we do...” He murmurs hugging me tighter...

I let out a laugh in my head, rolling my eyes behind my eyelids, so over dramatic...

But the thought of that, and hearing him speak, and with him close to me, I can feel what he is feeling, guilty, ashamed, upset with himself...are only a few that cover it....and from this I know he is truly, really sorry....I can feel it...

“I’m so sorry...” He whispers once again, feeling his hand creep around and finding mine own that’s laying on the mattress, he squeezes it gently.....maybe he can tell I’m actually awake?

Hmm...that wouldn’t surprise me actually...

“I Love you sis...” He murmurs, which warms my heart because even though I know he does...I hardly ever hear him say it...especially now, we used to say it all the time when we were little....

A small soft smile tugs at my lips, with my eyes closed ‘I love you too you dork’ I say in my head with a smile....and hear Seth chuckle softly beside me...

I smile again, burying my face into the fur of pirate bear, he heard me.

And with staying in this position, we both drift asleep.....

But just as we are about to, I think and speak in my head ‘I may love you, but I’m still not going to forgive you’ but with a trace of a smile on my face. In response Seth hugs me tighter, murmuring nonsense in this sleepy state......

And with that...we do both fall asleep.....I wonder how tomorrow will be....