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I’ve never really been to a house party before.

But fro things I’ve heard and read, mainly from my brothers, I don’t think I would want to experience that......

But, tonight, it doesn’t really look like I’ve got a choice....

Because, as it just so happens, our neighbours, Hayden, Noah and April....are throwing one, as they’re parents will be out for the night with the little ones, and that includes my mom.

So, even thou I’ve been avoiding Noah for the past few days, turning the other way down the corridor, blanking him out during class, deleting any texts he sends, it seems as I might just bump into Mr cock himself tonight...as well....it’s his own house.

But it’s either going to this party, or spending all night alone in this big house, as non will be there.

Yup, I go with going to this party.

Besides, it’s not all bad, Charlie, Abby and Nathan will be there – along with half the school too – but still, I’ll properly have little chance of actually bumping into him.

Harsh you may think with ignoring him, but I have my reasons.

And one reason, the main reason is that, I figured, if I ignore him...these feelings will disappear... Right?

Shaking my head to myself, I force myself not to think about it........because that way, I don’t have to admit anything to myself....

And tonight, I have vowed to myself that I will just enjoy it, be my normal self, with my friends and nothing else.

Noah who?

Smiling to myself, I step back in my room from the bathroom, where my three friends are sat, laughing amongst themselves, getting ready for tonight.

I’m kinda surprised mom let us all go...as in the older ones, obviously. But I guess it has something to do with having the day of school tomorrow. Yup, we have no school Friday, something to do with the gas pipes around school, a leek possibly? I wasn’t really listening over the noise of cheers after hearing the news that we have the day off...

So yeah, that’s properly a huge factor to it, but also because she knows Aston and Blake will be there, the sensible ones. Yes they were invited, even if Aston is in college, the boys get along with him.....

“Lexi! Girl what you wearing tonight!?” Charlie yells, her attention diverted to my open closet doors, where her eyes are scanning...

I shrug, taking a seat on the edge of my bed, “Erm...clothes?” I reply sarcastically...with a small smirk...

Rolling her eyes at me, but smiles “Well obviously......but what?”

I just shrug again, laying back onto my bed, it’s only a party, a house party in fact, you don’t dress up for that.....do you?....it’s not like it’s a formal party, where you have to wear a dress...

I inwardly shudder at the thought of wearing yet again another dress....no way man.

And so, for the next half hour, clothes are thrown every, in messy heaps as mainly Abby and Charlie decide what to wear, and me....I don’t take as long.

Wearing my usual black skinny’s, I get away with that, but Charlie throws a top at me, demanding I wear it, and not wanting to get on the wrong side of her, I do.

It’s a bit different to what I would wear, as its probably more Charlie’s style, wait....I think it’s her top.....but I will go along with it, because actually it’s not half bad.

It’s just a plain, light cream coloured top, that’s a little floaty at the bottom, but fits just fine, and with adding a matching scarf, that I presume is Charlie’s too, because I’ve never seen it before, by seeing my reflection, I look....different.

If that’s the right word to use. Then yeah, different from how I normally dress....

But I like it.

Once the girls are ready, Nathan being already ready since he got here......we then start to head out the room, the party next door already started about half an hour ago, because my brothers have left before, it’s only us and Seth now....

Meeting Seth down the stairs, I see him take in my appearance....raises an eyebrow slightly, but he smiles, obviously not seeing anything wrong with it.

The other two are wearing similar, nothing over the top or anything, but hell...what do I know?...what do you wear to a house party?

With the storm still outside, we hurry across, using the use of an umbrella to next door, already hearing the loud, thudding beat of the music and I cringe at how I can already hear it out here....I kinda dread what it will be like inside.

“Whoop! Partaaayyyy!”Charlie chimes grinning as we make our way up the al too familiar gravel drive, my stomach doing flips for some unknown reasons as I focus on moving my feet forward, one after the other, so I make it up the drive....

“Lexi!”

“Yeaaahh!” I cover up the shock in my voice by speaking louder and turning with a grin pressed onto my face, towards Charlie.

“You’re gunna have fun tonight girl!” She grins, a glint in her eye as she loops her arm through mine...

I just laugh...shaking my head at her as she giggles away....

“You’re not drinking anything tonight Lex...” A voice behind me speaks up “Nothing but water....”

I turn my head glancing behind to my brother and roll my eyes “Relax....I’ve never touched a drop...” I say rolling my eyes once more as I turn back around.....trust him to bring up something like that....

I see Seth giving me a look, and Charlie picks up on it and grins “Aw! Don’t worry about Lexi Seth! She’ll be with us!” Charlie grins, and I smirk/smile lightly, flashing Seth one last small look...before stepping up the porch steps.....with a small sly smirk tugging at my lips...

Well.....tonight starts here......

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I’ve been everywhere, man

Looking for someone

Someone who can please me

Love me all night long

I’ve been everywhere, man

Looking for you babe

Looking for you babe

The walls vibrate with the beat of the upbeat music, vibrating through the floor, through my feet, I swear I can feel it through my body as well, and that Rihanna’s voice is drilled through my ears...

There are bodies everywhere. Like literally, every time you turn, you accidently brush past someone, all squished together, hardly room to breathe.....

Thank god I’m not claustrophobic. I think to myself...as I – with difficulty – manevour around people, who might I add......I don’t really recognise them all from school.... possibly they are, I’m just not very observant.

But what I do know, is that...for some odd reason, I don’t find myself hating this, and wanting to leave right away....which surprises me, because I would have thought I would be the first to leave.....

But I guess not tonight.

As soon as we entered the house, we were greeted by Hayden, being the good host he was, but soon got dragged away from him, and from Seth by Charlie, guiding me, Abby and Nathan away, to where? I don’t know...but it gets me away from the possibility of facing Noah...

Errgh! Why do I even care if I see him?!...stop thinking about it! I scold myself, slightly frowning to myself as I don’t want to keep thinking this...

“Lexi! Turn that frown upside down!” Charlie suddenly pipes up loudly over the music coming to my side, before leaning up to my ear “Stop thinking about it, just enjoy tonight....” She whispers, knowing about what I’m thinking, because she saw too....

Shaking my head myself, I tug a small smile onto my face, giving Charlie a friendly one....and she grins, squeezing my arm....before dragging me away again...

And I decide to listen to Charlie, I will have fun tonight....

“No way!”

“Yes way!”

“Nooo!”

“I know right!”

“Ahhh!”

“Ahhhhh!”

“AHHHHHHH!? What’s up?!” I grin, smirking slightly as I step in the middle of Charlie and Abby’s...conversation...well it’s hardly a conversation because all I heard out of that was just screaming....so I decided to join on....

Laughing, Charlie grins shaking her head and draping her arm over my shoulders “Oooh...nothing to worry about, just filling Abs here in on a few things” She grins as does Abby, a cheeky grin as I raise an eyebrow slightly suspicious...but shrug smiling back, just some gossip I bet.

Laughing Charlie smirks “Anywaaaayy” She drags out “Come on...let’s find Nathan and go mingle! It’s a party you know!” I just shake my head at her, but follow, walking back to the main part of this party, the huge living room that people have used for a dance floor basically.

Seeing the room packed of many people, dancing and moving to the beat, spotting a few people here and there that I recognise from school, gives me a different feeling, one of which I haven’t much had before, I feel included?.....no...that sounds stupid.......but really.....I think it’s true....

“Wheyyy! I love this song!” Charlie beams, pulling us into the crowd, feeling the beat of the music vibrate through my body, and I smile....feeling the beat, because this is something I haven’t done before....

Not really sure on how to dance, because well....I never have, but seeing people around, it’s not what you would call...professional dancing....it’s more....club style.

And with Charlie tugging at my hand, smirking/grinning......already moving to the beat, I find it easy to follow......you don’t have to have special skills to be able to dance in a crowd of people, you can hardly move......and I quickly pick up on it....with arms in the air, and people jumping, or fast sway movements......but with the three of us, it mainly just involves laughing as we do whatever the beat allows us to do.......and surprisingly, I find this fun......

I know

Caught up in the middle

I cry, just a little

When I think of letting go

Oh no

Gave up on the riddle

I cry, just a little

When I think of letting go, go, go

Laughing at the fact that Charlie starts singing along to the song, hardly able to hear her over the volume of it, but I don’t need too, because she still makes me laugh....and even dance – even thou I wouldn’t really call it dancing – but that’s something I wouldn’t do....wouldn’t have dreamed of doing....

Grabbing my hand, she grins, linking her fingers through mine before lifting them up into the air, with her cheeky grin and continues to dance like that, a way of forcing me to with her as she’s got hold of my hand...

I just laugh, smirking and carry on, only having a limited space to move...but that’s fine, because we wouldn’t need more....

I don’t know how long this carried on for, I lost track of the amount of songs blasting through the speakers, but what I do know is that somewhere between, Nathan emerged from the crowd, joining us.

But also, somewhere in there, I felt possibly eyes on me, but ignored them, as it’s properly one of my brothers watching me no doubt.....so I don’t bother doing anything about, and enjoy having this fun with my mates...

“Hey....wanna go get a drink?” Charlie asks over the music, shouting basically into my ear...

I raise an eyebrow slightly but nod, knowing by drink she only means something non alcoholic....

“Nath! Go with her!” Charlie shouts pushing Nathan after me as I turn to walk...

I chuckle slightly, before making our way out the crowd, thinking that Charlie only told Nath to come with me because there’s loads of people here....and it’s a way of ‘looking out for me’...

But whatever, we finally stumbled into the kitchen.....where the drinks will be, this kitchen even filled with people, but not as much....

Squeezing around the people in the room, we reach the area where all the drinks are...and grabbing a clean cup, all I spot on the table is bottles of alcohol....

Scrunching my nose up, not spotting anything but liquor.....I’m about to give up and go thirsty....when Nathan comes to my side....

“There’s a tap over here...” He smiles, guiding me with my elbow over towards the sink, and I smile....ahh...cold water.

Turning the tap, I hold the empty cup under it, filling it up with cold water, before moving onto the next one, Nathan passing me them....

Once ready with four cups of water, holding two each, and turn around, intending to squeeze back through this crowd of people...

Oh joy.

Trailing behind Nathan, closet to him so I don’t lose him and careful not to spill the water over myself or anyone, we make our way back....the music increasing the closer we get...

Without realising it, I manage to lose Nathan, somewhere in the crowd from walking from the kitchen to the living room, somewhere down the corridor I think.....but where did he go?...unless I’m lost....

Craning my neck up and around, trying to spot his head of blonde hair, or even Charlie and Abby....but I see no one, just lots of strangers dancing....

Great...

Now I’ve got to get through this on my own......

“Is someone lost?” A familiar amused voice asks from behind causes me to freeze, my body tensing up and that feeling that I had walking up the drive to the house comes flying back, like a weight in my stomach...

I swallow, my mouth suddenly becoming dry, maybe now would be a good idea to drink some water...

Slowly, I turn around, noticing how my stomach is doing flips, and the fluttery feeling in my chest....

Fully turned around, I come face to face with those familiar brown eyes, those eyes I have been trying to avoid for the past two days....

There standing in front of me, smirking an amused smirk, is Noah, standing with his hair well styled. And dark jeans fitting him under a white shirt.......

Seeing that usual cheeky smirk, brings a frown to my face, why is he smirking?...acting as if nothing happened?!

“Noah...” I speak his name lowly, nearly spitting out his name, my frown turning into a glare.......

Chuckling to himself, he flashes me a smirk, stepping closer “Hello...” He grins mockingly, tilting his head as I see his eyes scan over me quickly.

Nearly growling at him, irritated at how he’s acting, his usual self!.....like nothing happened....like he doesn’t even care.....

“Leave me alone...” I snap, turning away from him, my grip on the plastic cup tightening...

“Oh that’s ironic...” He chuckles amusedly stepping closer again to me..

“What is? I mean it....leave me alone Noah..” I snap trying to edge away from him....

Just chuckling again, he stops me...reaching his hand out, grabbing my arm...instantly stopping me, as I look down to where the contact is....feeling heat spread from my arm....

“If you wanted me to leave you alone, you wouldn’t have come to my party, in my house now would you?” He muses, whispering this into my ear as I realise he’s stood right behind me....

“Maybe....”He drawls out... “You wanted to come...to finish off something that started....” feeling his breathe on the back of my neck causes goose bumps to rise, and tingles spread throughout my body...

My eyes widen at what he says.....to finish something off?!.... h-he...he’s talking about.....no...no....why would he bring that up here?! Like this?!

Shaking him off harshly, I spin around to face him glaring, but my glare falters slightly as I spin around, I don’t realise how close he is to me, and by spinning....I end up only a few inches away from him....

My breathing hitches in my throat, as my eyes lock with his, the brown in them swimming with some emotion, mischief is the one I can pick out, but I get mesmerised by them, by how close I am, it seems as if the flecks of lighter brown in them are swirling, drawing me in.....

Hearing that rumble of his chuckle brings me out of it, and I blink, shaking my head, leaning my head back a bit, to see that smirk plastered on his face....,bringing me back to my thoughts, that smirk....the amusement.....he doesn’t care, to him, the other night didn’t happen.....

He opens his mouth to speak, but I cut him off by shaking my head stepping back from him, “No, no....whatever it is....I don’t care!.....just leave me alone Noah!. I don’t wanna know, I don’t care.....” I look him in the eye, cutting him off, not wanting to hear him say it, not wanting to hear it.

Giving him a look, half glare and half a stern look, I step away from him, moving back into the crowd, glancing behind me, to notice that he’s not following me, instead...stood there watching after me as I disappear into the crowd....

I shake my head turning away, he doesn’t care I tell myself.....he doesn’t...

But, in the back of my mind, it flashes to the look on his face just a second ago, when I turned away....the look on his face....the look in his eyes......

It told me something else...

Something I don’t let my mind to tell me, and I push it to the back of my mind, going off to find the others again......

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