"Mommy sorry for yelling at you, I'm very very tired. I told you I was going to say things I didn't mean, you doing a real good job with your brother." I said as Mijo and I laid in the bed together.

"Did I cry like that?"

"No, you were a good baby. Caeden is a good baby too, he just want things exactly when he wants it and won't stop crying till he gets it." I smiled.

"Caeden is a good brother, he don't touch my thing. I like that."

I laughed "I'm glad you do, you should always love your brother very much no matter what."

"I love my mommy, I love my daddy, I love my Caeden, I love myself, I love my batman, I love my Buzz Lightyear, I love my - ."

"Okay, okay I get it!" I kissed him, "Can mommy take a nap?"

"Sure momma," he said grabbing his juice and laying on the nook of my arm.

"You don't want to go take care of Caeden?"

"No I taking a nap with you mommy."

That nap was much needed, priority number one is making sure Mijo gets equal time with us. It's always an adjustment when you have a baby, just cause I been through this already don't mean it's any easier. Before Caeden arrived I put my last two weeks in at work, I'm starting something new. This studio is where my life continues and I can't wait to get started, but before I look for a studio space downtown I need to set a foundation with Mel and Jason then prove myself to Chris.

"When is mommy going to get a baby that looks like mommy?" I said talking to Caeden who was sleeping. "5 days old and you already look like your daddy." I smiled.

"Mommy I want to go to the park," Mijo said walking in.

"I can't take you baby, I have to stay in the house with Caeden."

"Why?"

"Cause I don't want paparazzi to take pictures of Caeden's face."

"Why?"

"Cause it's nobodies business what he looks like, when I'm ready to reveal him I will. Go ask daddy, maybe he'll take you." I said trying to burp Caeden.

Caeden is a little piglet, this is for sure Chris's son. All this boy do is eat and sleep, his burps are so damn loud and so are his toots. He always cracks a smile when he does them, I love my little man!

"I'm about to go, I have a flight to catch."

"A flight? To where? Why didn't you tell me before?"

"I just got the call, it's an All Stars Celebrity Basketball Game in Houston."

"Your son was just born 5 days ago and you leavin' to go play basketball?" I looked at him like he was crazy

"I have to go."

"No, you to don't HAVE to go you want to go."

"I'll stay then."

"No, go head have fun." I said in a nonchalant tone

He leaned down to kiss Caeden then kissed me "I'll call you, I love you."

"Wait!" I laid Caden down on the bed then walked to Chris before he walked out the door "Behave yourself!" I said giving him a kiss, I tugged in the collar of his shirt pulling him closer to my face. "I mean it."

"You don't have to worry, I'll be home soon."

"Come on Mijo."

I wanted to punch the shit out of him, if I can't go out what makes you think you can just abandon me in the house with two damn boys? One who wants to run around and play, the other who needs to be watched around the clock. But like other things I can manage this, go have a good time. It really wasn't that he was leaving me at home with no help, it was that he was leaving without me. I'm scared of what's waiting for him in Houston, this is just another test our relationship will face. Can he keep his dick to himself or will I have to pack the boys up and go out on my own?

I took Mijo outside in the back yard for a while then called up Chris's mom, I asked if she could watch Mijo for a couple of hours then I asked my parents if they could come over and watch Caeden for a while. One grandparent won't have responsibility for two beings, it's stressful for me so I know for them it would be. After a well rested nap, I had Mel and Jason come over so I can get started on the project.

"How you guys been?"

"Ready to get started!" Jason smiled.

"Where's Chris?" Mel asked.

"Houston."

"Where's the boys?"

"With their grandparents."

"Oh hush up girl, I'm ready to get started!" Jason sassed Mel.

I laughed, "That's the shit I like to see."

We practiced downstairs in front of the big mirror, I was happy to know I hadn't lost a step.

"What were doing is nice and all but we been meeting up and we know we got it, we just want to see if YOU got it." Jason smirked.

"Being in your early twenties along with having two kids I'm sure your body is telling you your about thirty." Mel spat.

"We just want to bring you back down."

I smirked, "Just show me what you got!" I said turning on the music.

They showed me their cute little routine, "You think you can handle that?"

"Show me one more time."

I studied their movements carefully. "Got it now, do I need to draw it out for you?" Mel said placing her hand on her hip."

"Just start it from the top. 5, 6, 7, 8 !"

I nailed that shit like no other, I had no pain. It was all heart on the floor.

"That shit was bomb! Definitely need add more to, I think it should be our official routine. I mean if it's okay with you, Brielle?" Jason suggested.

"No that was real cool, I definitely want to add my flavor to that." I smiled putting my arm around Jason. "Have any doubts about me still?" I directed towards Mel.

"I'll let you know."

We practiced for three hours coming up with innovative ideas, once they left I showered and took a nap till Ms. Hawkins brought Mijo back. My parents left and I was home alone with them.

"When daddy coming back?"

"Soon baby, I think it's on t.v let's see."

I searched for the channel the game was on and we all sat in the bedroom watching him play.

"Yay daddy! Did you see that shot mommy?" Mijo shouted .

"I seen him, he doing good!"

"Caeden, daddy is a professional basketball player!" he said turning to his brother

I laughed "Don't tell daddy that, he'll start to believe it. I definitely don't want him to get a big head over it."

We all laid in the bed together watching Chris, Mijo clocked out first. Caeden had his eyes open through the whole game.

"You still awake boy? You see your daddy man ? You miss him too? I do, I hope he being good out there. Him being away is making me crazy, I trust him at least it feels like I do but you never know. Promise me you'll never hurt the person you love. Be honest, you can always say what's on your mind. You may think it hurts but it's what we want to hear, don't be afraid of the truth. Be wise, I ain't raisin' no dumb boy. You going to be smart and wise, daddy will teach you how to avoid heartbreaks while I teach you how to handle them. Don't let anybody play you for a fool, don't let anybody tell you who you're not. You are Caeden Marquess Brown don't forget it, I would have loved to have my daddy name somewhere in there but your Uncle Keeis played a major part in your life. You'll love him when you see his crazy self." I went on as I talked him to sleep.

I placed him in his crib and turned on the baby monitor, I turned off the t.v getting ready for bed when Chris called.

"I miss you," he said. The background was quiet.

"I miss you too, we saw you on t.v. Mijo thinks you actually play basketball now." I smiled.

"Shit, I should go pro."

"Negro please, how you going to go pro if you couldn't even beat me?" I laughed.

"You got jokes now," he chuckled. I could feel him grinning on the other side.

I laughed. "Stick to singing, that might be the only thing you have the upper hand at beating me at."

"Yeah whatever, I'm about to go out with the team Bae."

"Why would you tell me that?"

"Why wouldn't I?"

"Now I'm not going to be able to sleep wondering what you're doing."

"I'm keeping my hands to myself, you trust me don't you?"

"You have to ask?"

"I wouldn't get off track."

I sighed. "Behave yourself, anything that happens call me no matter what it is call me!"

He laughed "Bri, baby I'll be good I promise."

"You better."

"Give the boys a kiss for me, I'll be home in two days."

"I love you."

"Touch yourself for me."

I laughed. "Ew your so stupid, what's wrong with you?"

He laughed. "I'll talk to you later, I love you too!"

He's so dumb I love him, the next morning I tended to Caeden then fixed Mijo breakfast. When they were both napping I brought the baby monitor downstairs so I can hear when Caeden cries, I practiced dancing moves creating new moves to see what can fit into the routine. I don't want this project to be long, I'm looking to go for at least two months top before I show Chris.

"I'm back, I'm here for you now let me see my new pumpkin butt." Chyna popped over as a surprise visit.

"Who the hell vacations for damn near a year?" I handed Caeden over to her.

"We didn't just vacation at one spot, we moved around. We were doing some freaky shit and I dropped my phone in water, I hardly had time to talk anyway Michael kept me tied up. But look at him oh my goodness, lookin' like his daddy."

"Everyday, none of my kids look like me. Only thing Mijo has is my family eye color, Caeden has Chris's eyes. They both have his everything."

"What's been going on? I've heard rumors!"

"I don't want to talk about it, it's a long story and with Chris away right now I don't even want to think about it." I turned away to the other counter.

"He was with somebody else wasn't he?" She asked, I responded by holding up two fingers. "Two bitches, you serious? Nah BriBri, tell me you handle them!"

"It was a mistake."

"You believe that?"

"I went through enough shit with that, it is what it is."

"Mmm, I'll give it the benefit of the doubt."

I don't want to talk about it, Chris and I are good again. And if we're not good again then we're better than before, I don't need anybody having me reconsider that. When Chris came back we waited for Sunday to come and had a big family dinner like we did with Mijo, except now we're ringing in Caeden's birth. It was really nice, my parents came through his mom came through, and Keeis did too. I looked around at the table and smiled, I love my boys, I love my life and fuck who don't like.