Last Valentines Day wasn't as romantic as I hoped it would be, Chris bought some cheap flowers, spent half the day at the studio, then we had sex. It's the thought that counts but Valentines day is the one day out of the year where men are forced to show women they love them, frankly I think you should show me you love me 365 days of the year as I should you. But it was the beginning of confusion, that day only made it clear I wasn't serious to him. This year I hope goes differently, I don't want to just have sex. Do something romantic, put some real emotions behind it and some truth and I'll be happy.

"Good morning beautiful," Chris said coming in the room waking me up with a breakfast in bed. I was prepared for this so I made sure I look good.

"Heart shaped pancakes, they look too perfect what store did you buy these from?" I smiled.

"I made them myself no lie."

"Thank you Chef Boy O.G," I smiled cutting into my pancakes.

I'm not the only one receiving today, of course Chris is getting something. But he'll receive that later in the night, I got him something too.

"When you finish get dress, I'm taking you somewhere wear something cute."

"Yes daddy," I smiled.

Chris and I rode out in my Lamborghini, it's the first time I drove in it since we've been back together. Forgot how much I love this thing, we pulled up in front of this photography studio. Surprisingly I walked in to see Mijo with Chris's mom.

"Hi baby what are you going here?" I smiled seeing my little man run to me.

"Chris told us to meet you guys here," his mom said.

Chris set up a photoshoot for us to take family pictures with Mijo, then I had to take off my clothes leaving me standing in a long fitted t-shirt. Had to wear long socks while the photographer took pictures of Chris and Mijo putting his hand on my stomach. Also got pictures of Mijo painting my belly, meant a lot to me to see Mijo liking this too. Ms. Hawkins took Mijo back with her while Chris and I went shopping together.

"We probably shouldn't have came, it's a big ass crowd out there I don't want you to get hurt."

"Screw them, I'll be okay."

"There is no back way to this store."

"You go first, they won't touch me."

"It's a mob out there, I don't know if I want to risk that."

"Trust me."

"We'll go together," Chris said grabbing held of my hand.

Once we got to the entrance Chris put his hand on my waist and the other in front of my belly. Nobody could touch or bump into me I thought it was cute how concerned he was, we made it out fine. He bought me this necklace and said it was for tonight, when we came home he did the laundry and rubbed my feet.

"So these are the final options if everything goes as planned. If it's a boy maybe Alonzo Marquees Brown, Lorenz or Maurice Christopher Brown or Caeden Milano Brown."

"Why Keeis's name in one of them?"

"Cause if it wasn't for him, I probably wouldn't be on this couch right now."

"I like all of those but what if it's a girl?"

"Maybe Neaveah Joyce Brown, Riyah Tiana Brown, or Nyah Crystal Brown. Actually scratch that, Riyah sounds too close to Rihanna we are not naming her anything close to your ex bitches!"

"That last one is cute."

"I like that one too, wait here I want to give you something."

Valentines day shouldn't just be about women, I want to celebrate my man too.

"I didn't know what to get you since it's hard getting a man something who already has everything, I didn't want it to be materialistic I wanted it to come from the heart. I drew this picture, I'm damn sure not as good as you but it's the thought that counts."

When he opened it he saw a picture I made of us before Mijo, before sex came in the picture, it was us around 16 just pure friends.

"It's not bad at all, I love it. I looked so damn corny back then." He laughed.

"You ain't the only one," I smiled comparing the real one to the one I drew.

"Thank you boo come here," he said pulling me down to his lap. "I love it, it's not bad at all."

Could I really consider having absolutely nothing to do with Chris? Hell no I would ride for him till the end, I'm glad Keeis made me really think about that. Sometimes I need to be told things over again till I finally get the picture, being stubborn is a blessing and curse we both posses that.

Today is making up for all the shit I ever did, I ain't got no worries that she won't love what I got in store. I'm going to play on her level and do something poetic at the end, but first I started simple and took her out to dinner. I know how much she's a Lakers fan and loves Dwight Howard so I took her to the game afterwards.

"Boo look at the jumbo tron, we're on the Kiss Me cam!" Brielle pointed out.

I grabbed her face and gave her a kiss, tongue action of course to let the niggas know who this belong too. I took her in the Sky Box before the game ended.

"What are we doing up here?"

"Nothing, I just want to talk to you."

"You making me miss Dwight."

"Hold on, you'll see him soon." I said walking towards the door to let her mom, my mom, and Mijo in.

"What are you guys doing here?" Brielle asked as Mijo carried in a bouquet of roses.

"These are from daddy mommy."

"Thank you baby," she said kissing him on the cheek.

"I wanted them to be here to witness what I'm about to say." I said reaching in my pocket for the poem then grabbed her hand as I read. "For you this needed no introduction, when I think of you it's always something. It's your mind, your body, and soul. You got me saying damn I want to take you home. That was funny I agree, for you I'm always here to please. My love for you shoots through the moon, shadows to the earth, entering another universe. Without you there is no me, without you there wouldn't be us three. Best thing god made was you, never let anything separate us two. My only regret was letting you walk away, I never want you to stray, into another mans arm. Having him carry to what I could hold on. All I want to do is make you happy, please tell me those verses weren't too sappy. I'm sweating bullets as I get on my knees baby I'm asking, marry me please?" I pulled out the enagement ring.

Her entire face turned red as she covered up her smile while looking around at everyone. It felt like forever for her answer I really thought she was going to say no. Brielle was completely overwhelmed, she didn't say anything. I tried to get her dad here but that wasn't going down. Finally she shook her head yes, I kneeled off the floor and kissed her.

"Daddy and mommy, you going to stay together forever?" Mijo questioned.

Brielle smiled brightly, "Forever and a day baby!" Brielle smooched me before they left with him.

When we got home Brielle put it down like a porno star, I didn't get on top once she took care of everything. I don't think sex ever felt that damn good like it did tonight.

"So what made you do it?" I smiled as I tried catching my breath.

"I'm ready so what's the wait? Also you did say you wasn't having anymore kids unless somebody puts a ring on it, there you go."

I laughed, "You listened."

"How I could I not hear with that big ass mouth?" He smirked.

"You know those big ol' dumbo ears don't be missing nothing!"

"Forever and a day huh, you sure you wanna do that to yourself?" I smiled jokingly.

I smiled. "You messed up babe, I hope you know what this means. That ass is mine, let them bitches know I'm snapping necks. Not just them, yours too nigga! Can you live with this? Loving me for life? To have and hold forever?"

"Ride or die."

"Till death do us part?"

"Make it last forever."

"A wife and kids?"

"About 4 more!"

"Woah daddy, you crazy! Who carrying all of them, cause damn it sure must be you!"

He laughed, "We'll talk about it."

"You going to have to throw down some serious dick if I'm even going to think about that."

He laughed, "That damn sure ain't going to be a problem."

This is one thing we want to keep to ourselves for awhile, we stayed cooped up in the house for weeks just laying together, watching Mijo rip through the house, playing together. Anytime I stepped out the house was to go to the store or something I took off my ring, I didn't want any paparazzi capturing me with it on.

"You all smiles today, what's going on?" Ryan asked as I picked up Kataleah.

"Nothing, I'm just in a good place." I smiled.

"What's this?" Ryan grabbed my hand.

"It's official!" I smiled brightly.

"You serious? Can't believe this congratulations, damn I learned my lesson."

"What was that?"

"Don't waste your time with a bitch."

"I'm ready Brielle!" Kataleah said.

"What the hell were you expecting out of this ? Who are you right now?"

"This dude completely shitted on your feelings and you going to tell me you marrying him? You losing out on the best right now, mock my words that nigga will hit you! You not a bitch, you making a bitch ass move."

"Where do you get off thinking you can talk to me like this? Don't ever fucking call, text me, or nothing in your life! I knew you were just putting on an act."

"You wasn't saying that acting shit when I had my hand up your shirt?"

"Brielle wait!" Kataleah said.

"I'm sorry baby but I think this is it for us, don't feel sad okay. You'll see me around one day, can I get a hug?"

"But I don't want you to go," her eyes got misty.

"It'll be okay, you be a good girl okay I'll see you around."

"Brielle, I'm sorry don't go!" She shouted.

If I was to go home and tell Chris what he called me, Chris will kill him in a heartbeat. In the mean time this rift will be kept to myself. But if I'm taking this next big step into marriage, commincation is everything and I believe nothing should be kept secret.

"What happen I thought you were going out today?"

"I'm not going over there anymore, you were right."

"What happened? He touched you?" Chris said stepping to me.

"Chris he called me a bitch."

"Why the fuck would he do that?" Chris asked getting loud.

"Chris calm down."

"Fuck that he called you a bitch, we ain't letting that slide; show me where he stay at."

"Chris that's why you in the shit you are now, always want to fight. Baby I gave him the notice already, you go over there that's another charge."

"For you, I'll take it."

I smiled, "I'd like to be able to see your face everyday so don't! He don't bother me anyway broke ass nigga just wanted to fuck."

"What else he say to you?"

"He saw my ring so he said I was making a big mistake, that you was going to beat the shit out of me. I was making a bitch ass move marrying you. But that's exactly what I'm talking about, people don't know a damn thing about us they will continue to talk about what they don't know!"

He grabbed my face for a kiss, "This is why I love you."

"I feel bad for that little girl, I wish there was something I could do."

"She'll be alright."

"But you should have heard the way she was calling my name, begging me to stay. It was hurting me inside but I was hurting her more, the sound of her voice wasn't right."