I let out a laugh, but it's a forced one, and Abigail notices.

She gives me a look as if to say 'girl, I see right through you' I sigh, dropping the fake smile that had been forced onto my mouth. "I'm sorry, I'm trying here Abi, I promise I am, it's just...I don't know, I just feel so...so...saturnine" I admit, the usual 'blah' feeling I have settling in.

Abigail nods understandingly. "I get it, I wouldn't expect you to be okay. I'd be really freaked out if you were just happy and totally fine after everything that has happened. I just wish that Slyder didn't have this kind of hold over you. Even dead he's still able to control you, you know?" Abigail said.

"Yeah trust me, I get it" I assure. And I do. I mean, I killed him, watched him burn to nothing more than ashes and yet still I'm afraid that he'll just suddenly pop up in my life. I know I know, I'm a big scaredy-cat baby, I just can't help it. It's not like I'm trying to be this paranoid.

Abigail opens her mouth to reply when she's interrupted by her doorbell ringing.

My eyes instantly widen and I grab the pillow from her bed, hugging it tightly to me. "W-were you expecting someone?" I ask.

Abigail looks curiously towards her bedroom door, shaking her head. "No, I wasn't" she says, getting up from the bed.

She walks over to her bedroom door and looks behind her at me, as though to see if I was following. She raises an eyebrow at my scared appearance, "oh come on, when has Slyder ever rung the doorbell?" She asks, rhetorically.

"When he was shape shifted into Brandon" I whisper, my voice hollow with fear.

Abigail says nothing, and opens the door to her room, stepping outside of it "I'll be right back" she assures, but I absolutely hate being alone. Would I rather be in here alone, where someone could pop up out of nowhere and capture me, or go downstairs with her to answer the door? I'll take the latter.

I jump up "wait! I'm coming with!" I exclaim, running forward to catch up.

I still hug the pillow as tightly as I can, my heart racing a thousand miles an hour, in one hand I hold a large butcher knife -just in case- when Abigail pulls the door open to reveal Adelram standing there.

His eyes instantly find mine, he offers a small smile. I don't return it.

"Adelram? What are you doing here?" I ask, taking a step back as I lower the knife in my hands, but I still won't put it back -just in case.

Abigail steps back, allowing him to enter.

"Hey uh, could I talk to Kamaria alone for a minute?" Adelram asks Abigail, scratching the back of his neck awkwardly. Abigail looks to me, as though looking for approval. I of course nod, so Abigail looks back to Adelram "yeah sure" she says before walking up stairs to her bedroom.

Adelram waits until he hears her bedroom door shut, then looks to me. "Okay, so uh-I-um I was talking-" he paused to clear his throat "okay um-so-er-uh" he pauses again, clearing his throat once more. "Sorry I um-I was wondering um" he pauses again, his eyes looking anywhere but at me. Something was up, and I was getting annoyed with this.

"Just spit it out!" I exclaim.

Adelram let's out a deep sigh, his sad eyes finally meeting mine. "Can we please sit? I don't know why, I just really don't like having serious conversations standing" he admits, combing his hand through his dark black hair.

'Serious conversation' this can't be good. I nod, slipping the knife back into the kitchen drawer, a nervous feeling flooding over me. I anxiously sit down, I didn't know what was wrong, but I feared what he would say next. Was it something about Slyder? Did he find out Slyder is actually alive?

My heart is slamming against my rib cage.

"Please just hurry up and say it, I can't take this anticipation" I plead impatiently.

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"Wha-what?" I breathe out, everything he just told me coursing through my brain. A swirl of confusion, shock, and questions swarm through me.

"The decision is completely up to you. I've already spoke to your mother about it. She thinks you should go through with it" he informs me.

My mom? She thinks I should let somebody steal my memories?

"And what about you? What do you think?" I inquire.

Adelram's eyes lift from his hands-which he had been content at starting at since he first began to speak-to meet mine. He opens his mouth, and then closes it, then opens it again, only to close it. He reminded me of a fish, I probably would have laughed if I wasn't going through what I am at the moment. "It doesn't really matter what I think" he finally says.

"It matters to me" I whisper.

I watch as Adelram once again loses his contact with me to stare at the floor. He runs a hand over his face, leaning over and resting his face in his hand, his elbows propped on his knees.

"I don't know, Princess. That's a loaded question...but I've given it a lot of thought-" he says, pausing to pull away from his hands and look me in the eyes intensely. He stares not just at me, but seemingly into me. Like he can look past the mask I created to cover my true emotions, like he could see every ounce of pain, suffering, and over all depression that filled me. Like he could see all of my secrets, but not only saw them, like he understood them. "And I think that you should do it. You're suffering, that much is obvious. Who knows if that will ever change. Slyder put you through hell and back, he put you through torture, he ruined your feeling of safety, he destroyed your happiness, he made you fear everything around you. And if you have something that can erase all of that, something that can bring you back to normalcy, that can allow you to once again feel safe, to have happiness and be back to your normal carefree, happy self, then I say go for it." He preaches as confident as he always is, well he tried to be confident like he always is, and he acted it pretty well, but I saw straight through the act. I know that in reality, he's questioning it, he's nervous and unsure.

"But doesn't that mean I'll forget you?" I ask, feeling a dark pain inside.

Adelram slowly nods his head, I can practically see the speech he'll give being prepared inside his head. "Yes you'll forget me, you won't remember everything we've done together. But isn't that kind of a good thing? That means I can start over. I treated you like dirt at the beginning. I was a total jerk to you at first, you know I'm right. I don't want you to think of me like that ever again. You may not remember me from before, or remember the stuff we've been through together, but that doesn't mean we'll never know each other. I'll still remember everything. I'll 'meet you for the first time' again. You'll think it's the first time you've ever seen me, and this time, I'll do it right, I'll treat you like the princess you are." Adelram preaches, this time, the confidence was real.

"Yeah but, before Brandon, I had decided not to date any guys. What if I don't like you, or what if I don't want to be with you?" I ask, nervously wringing my hands.

"Oh don't worry, I'll win you over with my sexy looks and amazing personality" Adelram assured with a smirk. When he sees that my serious expression doesn't change, he continues. "And even if I can't date you right away, we can be friends until you realize that I'm too perfect to just be your friend" Adelram says wiggling his eyebrows.

I let out a groan "you're so cocky" I say.

Adelram laughs, but after a moment his face gets serious. "But in all seriousness. It'd be really stupid for you to turn down this offer just because you want to remember me" he tells me honestly.

I knew he was right, but it's scary to think about losing three months worth of memory. I know it's not a very long time, but to me, those three months were the biggest impact of my life. So much happened in those three months, most I didn't want to remember, but some I did. I hate that I won't be able to remember important things in my life, Like I won't even know my real name is Kamaria, or I won't remember all of those moments with Adelram. Like when we stayed up all night talking, or when we had our first kiss together, or when he told me I was his favorite kiss. I won't remember the time that Adelram cuddled with me at night, or when I told him I loved him. I won't remember his family, or the Eribiss...I won't remember Mr Komachi, will I even remember how to use my powers?

"What about my abilities, will I remember how to use them?" I ask.

A small frown appears on Adelram's lips. "I uh-I actually don't know. I think that your ability to do that would be in your subconscious, so you would have to train some to be able to find those abilities again. But it shouldn't be too difficult to teach you to do it again. Once you figure out that you have those abilities, you should be pretty much able to just do them." Adelram explains.

I nod my head. "Would I be the only one with the memory loss?" I ask.

"You mom and Abigail would have to consent and have their memories erased too. Your mom already agreed, now we just need Abigail to, and you of course." Adelram informs me.

I let out a deep sigh. This was a huge decision. I mean, the answer should be obvious, shouldn't it? Yes, of course! But there was something holding me back, that something was Adelram.

"Wouldn't it be pretty suspicious if Abigail, mom, and I all lost exactly three months of memory?" I question.

Adelram shrugs, "I don't know, I'm sure we could come up with some false reason that we tell you" he says.

"Okay" I whisper, unsure.

"Okay?" Adelram questions, looking surprised by my answer.

I slowly nod, still half unsure. "Okay, let's do it" I finally say. I'm trying to sound confident, but honestly, I'm anything but.

"Are you sure, Princess?" Adelram asks, he could see right through me, I swear.

"Yeah....I'm sure" I hesitantly answer.

Adelram didn't look convinced. "This is a big decision, I understand if you want to take a few days to figure out your answer" he assures me.

I lightly shake my head. "I want to do it as soon as possible...please." I say quietly, keeping my eyes glued to he floor.

For a long time, neither of us say anything, it's not until Abigail walks in that any words are spoken.

"You guys done with your secretive little chat yet?" Abigail asks, crossing her arms as she looks back and forth between Adelram and I.

"Yeah we're done. Speaking of-there's something we need to talk about Abi" I say, anxiety beginning to bubble inside of me.

Abigail's eyebrows furrow, but she sits down next to me. "What's up?" She asks curiously.

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It took some time of explaining, but little to no convincing, Abigail was in.

"So tomorrow then" Adelram states, standing up.

Tonight is the last night I'll have these Slyder night terrors, the last night I'll even know who Slyder is.

I still am unable to wrap my brain around it. I couldn't even bring myself to be excited. I was more scared and sad than anything.

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