I woke up to what sounded like my brothers voice, shifting a little in what felt like a bed I felt pressure on my leg and arm. Opening my eyes I groaned from the bright ass light squinting them, everything seemed to go quiet. I heard rushed footsteps before I seen Rebecka's face pop into my squinted view.

"Hey Moni, how yuh feelin' ?" She asked with a smile on her face

I swallowed "Not so great"

She nodded handing me a cup of water that I wasted no time chugging down handing her the empty cup. Looking around the room everybody seemed relieved. I looked at Rebecka who nodded before looking at my brother.

"Fuck I told cho Moni? I'm puttin' a bullet in dat nxgga ass" My brother said "And dat nxgga got cho pregnant "

I rolled my eyes "Kaere ain't the one who shot me"

He made his tongue kiss his teeth "Yea I kno' hah dat don't mean Ian gon' beat his ass, I told yuh Ian want no nieces and nephews righ' nie"

I sucked my teeth " You sayin' that like I chose this nxgga impregnating me"

My brother harden his jaw "Abort it, ion want yoh tied down ta dat nxgga"

I scrunched my face up sitting up from the bed "Abort it? The fuck, Alzmir I'm too grown for you to make decisions for me. I ain't aborting shit "

Alzmir's eye twitched walking closer to the hospital bed "Zi-"

"Leave her be" Rebecka cut him off "It's not like she's by herself she has us"

He side eyed her then turned towards the door "Moni, Ion't ever want ta lose yoh"

"And you won't" I told him before he walked out the door

Keyandra walked up "You okay boo?"

I chuckled "Girl getting shot don't feel good, I'm really happy that the baby is safe"

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"I just wanted some pickles" I cried wiping my eyes

Dre sighed "Moni Rebecka told me to not let yoh eat allat"

I scrunched my face up crossing my arms "Fuck you too then"

"Do you want a smoothie? I can get cho that" Shawn asked

I narrowed my eyes at him "No, I want pickles"

Dre sighed again before patting the open spot on the couch next to him "Come Z let me change ur dressings"

I tucked my top lip as I walked over and sat down. I watch as he took the two old dressings off my leg and arm before cleaning it and applying new ones. I haven't seen Kaere or Carlos since I got shot, as expect of Kaere but not Carlos I thought we bonded and became close friends. I miss his face and nasty comments about me. I didn't think Carlos would disappear like that if anything I thought he'd be here trying to help me recover.

Dre & Rebecka has been doing some digging on Kaere and Carlos. They came to the realization that Kaere & Carlos are cousins. That caught me off guard because they obviously despise each other, which also might mean they don't kno about it. I heard a knock on my apartment door.

"I got it" Marcus said getting up walking towards the door

Moments later he was pushed aside "Is Moni okay?" I heard Carlos' thick Spanish accent

"Carlos?" I asked getting up "Nxgga where the fuck you been?"

He smiled walking up to me pulling me into a gently hug "Good, I missed you"

I hit him "Me too but where you been?"

Carlos kissed me on my cheek "Te amo, yo tengo dejair"

I chuckled "Boy I don't kno' what cho saying but te amo to you too"

He licked his bottom lip before pulling it in his mouth "I just came to check on you and-" he glanced down at my stomach "the baby, I'll see you later yea?"

I gave him a once over from the disgust in his voice at the last part "Yea, bye Carlos"

With one last smile Carlos left, I looked at Marcus and Shawn. They stare back at me but didn't say anything but I know they were thinking the same thing I was becuz they were looking the same way I was.

"Weird huh?" I asked

Shawn laughed "Hell nah"

Marcus looked away "Nah but I kno' he said he loves you"

I hummed before turning towards my room to take a nap. Looking down at my stomach my little bump is barely there, I'm ready to welcome him or her with open arms. I never wanted to have kids this early but shit happens. Laying down on my bed I rubbed my stomach before slowly welcoming myself to darkness.

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Waking up I look over at the digital clock by my bed it read '6:45 pm'. Getting out the bed I walked to the bathroom doing my business then walking into the living room plopping down on the couch. Kicking my feet up on the coffee table as I flipped thru the channels, there was knock on the door.

"Who is it?" I asked as I got walking over to the door unlocking it

I watch the door push open and see Kaere standing there. I crossed my arms "Can I help you nxgga?"

His tongue ran over his bottom lip before he smirked "Don' play wit meh Ma, Let meh in"

I dropped my arms side stepping as Kaere walked in closing the door behind him. I stood by the dinning area as I watched him sit down on the couch. Moments later he glanced over at me, I stayed where I was not saying a word. It felt weird to see him again after so much time, with a stronger southern accent and looking even finer at that.

"Why yoh juh standin' dhere?" He asked leaning back on the couch causing his chain to move a little

I crossed my arms again " 'Cuz it's a surprised to see you here, what you missed me or something?"

Kaere chuckled getting up walking over to me "Come hea Ma"

I bit my bottom lip it might be the hormones but this boy looking fine right now. I leaned forward as he wrapped his arms around me before pulling back to glance down at my stomach.

"Yoh cute pregnant" He said smiling a little showing a some of his golds

I raised eyebrows "What cho want Kaere? Where you been?"

He smirked "Huntin' ah nxgga down, don' nobody geh away wit shootin' at meh"

I forgot he is a drug lord, how do I tell him I missed him? Not seeing him for a period of time wasn't something new though.

I placed my hand on my stomach walking over to the kitchen with Kaere trailing behind me. Reaching on my tippy toes I opened the top cabinet to grab a fruit roll up I heard Kaere suck his teeth.

"Yoh shouldn't be doin' dhat Ma yoh needa be caefull " He said grabbing my waist moving me away from the counter

I gave him a funny face "Boy I'm pregnant not disabled now-" I turned around pushing his chest a little "-back up"

Kaere barely moved backwards he was looking down at me smirking, here go them hormones again I wish he didn't look so damn fine. He placed his hand on my cheek which was new for me from him, he's never done that to me before.

"I kno' dhat don' change shit" He said before he leaned down and our lips met

I don't know if he missed me but I damn sure missed him. Wrapping my arms around his neck he bit my bottom lip before pulling away.

"Mahbe I did miss yoh" Kaere said letting go backing up a little

Before I could say something somebody walked thru my apartment door.

"I forgot to tell you" Carlos said looking towards the living room

Kaere rushed up to him getting in his face "Nxgga waht tha fuck yoh doin' hea"

Carlos pushed him "I can come and go as I please, Ian here for you I'm here for ha"

Kaere got in his face again "Yoh dead ass goht guts bring yohr ass hea, little nxgga shit ain't sweet"

Carlos scrunched his face up "Fuck you talking 'bout, Ian got shit to hide for like I said I can come and go as I please"

Kaere chuckled "Yoh playin' dumb"

Carlos turned towards before starting to walk in my direction "Mami, how you feelin' right now?"

I smiled at him "Your ba-"

"Nah Nxgga step byke" Kaere grabbed Carlos by his shirt before throwing him into towards the wall "Fuck Nxgga I wunt all da smoke"

I stood there looking dumb as they started fighting. I mean what was I suppose to do, I'm pregnant and NOT finna jeopardize my baby. Hold the fuck up I know they not fighting in my house.

"Hold da fuck up, y'all not finna tear my shit up get out!" I yelled getting angrier by the minute "Get NOW!"

Kaere pushed Carlos away "Mane move Nxgga-" He looked at me "Dhat Nxgga not as nice as yoh think, he da reason yoh goht shot at Jhit set da whole thing up"

I looked at Carlos in shock "Stop playing Los' wouldn't"

Kaere chuckled "Yea Ight ask him Ma"

I bit my bottom inner lip "Carlos?"

Carlos glared at Kaere before looking at me "Baby I didn't kno' you were with him, the plan was to hit him not you I would've told him to back down"

"Why are you so against Kaere? Why do you want to kill him? You're own cousin"

They both scrunched their face up "Dhis fuck nxgga ain't my cousin" Kaere said bucking at Carlos "Shii if he is my cousin he still ain't finna geh away with dhat shit"

"I did some digging" I told him

Carlos stepped towards me only to be blocked off by Kaere "Mami listen, it wasn't my intentions to get you shot"

I was pregnant and emotional "Leave like right now"

"I can love you better than he can, you're my princesa give me uno chance I'll make it up please" Carlos pleaded

I gave him a look "Carlos just leave for now"

Kaere chuckled "Nxgga pathetic cryin' ova some shit dhats not his, yoh wrote yo' own will. Even if we are cousins Ian letting up dhat ass easy, now get cho ass on"

Carlos ignored him as he left my apartment closing the door behind himself. Today has been long too much emotional stress. I never would've thought Carlos was behind all of this, yea he didn't mean to get me shoot but he did. I'll forgive him at some point but as far as right now I need him to not have any part with me.

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