Getting up I sighed, these past 3 weeks Kaere has been coming in & out of my apartment. Don't get me wrong I'm somewhat enjoying it but at the same time it's like nxgga damn. He and Carlos got into it one of these past days. Walking past Carlos I ruffled his hair as I plopped down on the couch next to him, he smiled at me winking.

I rolled my eyes at him "Los stop playing"

He smiled cheekily leaning towards me with his lips puckered "Only for you mama"

I mushed his face back "Get cho crusty ass lips away from my face"

Carlos pokes his lip out and placed his hand on his chest in an offended way "Moni, how could you. I've loved you since day one"

I rolled me eyes turned my body around to lean on him. As I laid my head on his lap I looked up at him only to find he was focused on the tv, I'm not finna lie Carlos looked good today. His hair was freshly cut, curls hydrated, eyebrows arched, chain glistening from the little light that snuck in past the curtains, shit he smelled good and had on grey sweatpants like shorts with a black tee and his air force 1s.

These past couple of weeks we've grown closer but I still can't help but think he's planning something deeper than our friendship, I still don't trust him fully. He helped me the other day when I got food poisoning, that shit was not it I couldn't even keep anything down.

I sunk into Carlos' lap as he massages my scalp still focused on the Tv. We stayed in this position for about an hour before he got up to get some food. I watched him as he walked to my kitchen.

"Can you grab me some pickles?" I called behind him

Carlos chuckled "I thought you ain't like pickles like tht?"

I shrugged my shoulders though he couldn't see me "I don't but I've been craving them a lot more later, I'm growing to love them"

I seen him shake his head "Is that all you want mama?"

I cheesed dumb hard "It would be nice if you brought me a cup of milk"

He opened the fridge grabbing the milk & pickles "Anything for you Mama"

My phone went off telling me I got a text message. Looking at it I read 'Have you seen his baby momma yet?' I rolled my eyes Keyandra is so damn nosy.

Girl no, bye

Not long after I got a response.

Bitch u need to stay educated, don't be fucking on no nxgga if uon kno his baby momma or child — Key Mwah❤️

I rolled my eyes I told this girl we only fucked once, I shouldn't have told her shit.

Bi- we're NOT fucking, no lemme lone

Not gonna happen love😆💙 — Key Mwah❤️

I laughed at the gif she sent me, I can always count on her to cheer me up. I didn't even waste my time texting back.

"Here" Carlos handed me the pickles he chopped up for me and a cup of milk

I smiled in return "Thank you"

He took a bite into his hot pocket grinning "What are friends for. I- Ahh shit I just burnt my lip"

"That's what to greedy ass get" I laughed

"That's not the only thing I'm greedy for" Carlos said through his thick accent

This nxgga don't know when to stop, at the same time I'm not complaining. I punched him in his arm while he was in mid bite causing him to burn his lip again. Moments after we settled in his phone rang, which has been happening a lot lately.

He glanced at me "Hola?.... mhm-" I watched as he pointed towards my apartment door while covering the speaker phone "-Chica I gotta go, love you"

Carlos placed a kiss on my forehead before leaving. I wonder what was so urgent. I shrugged it off grabbing my phone to check my news feed.

Stepping out my apartment door I locked it and made my way to the elevator and pressed the button so entering it. I'm mildly upset right now, mildly? I'm fucking infuriated, if shit comes out the way I think I'm shutting shit down. I scratch my forehead roughly as the elevator continued to go down trying to keep my breathing steady so that I don't seem weird.

The elevator dinged again as I went to step out as I pass the desk guy I waved which he some returned. Thanks to Keyandra I have to buy more pregnancy tests, I wouldn't have bothered if my period came a couple of days ago like it was suppose to. I climbed into the Lyft I called and 10 minutes later we pulled up to Walmart. I got out and walked into Walmart going straight towards the pharmacy. Grabbing two 8 packs I stood in self check out grabbing a bottle of water, paid for them and headed for the bathroom.

Usually I don't use public restrooms because of how dirty they are but the anticipation is killing me. You best to believe I opened that bottle of water, drunk some and squatted over tht toilet to pee on 3 pregnancy tests. I sigh as I placed them on the counter after capping them.

I looked at the time on my phone it read '6:10 pm' "Wheh, Lord tell me this a prank"

To kill time I scrolled through my news feed on Instagram trying to occupy my thoughts from the pregnancy tests. I looked back up at the time it read '6:17 pm' getting up I look over at the tests closing my eyes before the answer shows on the little screen.

"Zimmoni, please don't be pregnant. With Kaere's baby at that, we only fucked once" I mumbled to myself

I looked at the pregnancy tests, they all read 'positive'. I laughed to myself, this a joke right? This gotta be a damn joke. Pulling my phone out I FaceTime Rebecka.

3 rings later "Hey hoe" Rebecka said with a big smile on her face

I put middle of hand on my chin and wrapped my fingers around my chin "Rebecka—" I trailed off as I flipped the camera showing the pregnancy tests.

"Bitch" She exclaimed "Waht da.... how... I.. bitch"

I flipped the screen to show my face as I bit the inside of my left check "Everything you thinkin' is right"

Rebecka scrunched her face up "Who's tha father?"

The one question I'd rather not answer because nobody know's I fucked this man. If I had been in my right mind I would've stopped it, I think. It's more of the fact that I don't know him for real.

I shook my head "I'll tell you when I get home, I love you bye"

She smiled again "Well I'm fosho finna be tha godmommy and I love you too Moni got straight home"

I hung up and ordered another Lyft home which happened to be 3 minutes away. Shoving the rest of the tests in my purse and throwing the used ones away I waited for my ride. Minutes later it came and I climbed in. On the ride back I looked down at my hands I really need to get a car. When I looked up we were in front of my apartments, climbing out the car I gave the driver a smile watching as he pulled off and I stood in front of my apartment complex entrance to the right a little where there was barely any light.

Damn, how am I suppose to tell Kaere he's going to be a father of another child? I was too deep in thought to notice a man in a black hoodie and ski mask approaching me fast. As soon as I turned around he grabbed me trying to turn me around to what I assumed put me in a chokehold. I started throwing punching to him everywhere I could land. I started screaming as I kicked and punched him. Seconds later he was off of me and on the ground as somebody wrapped their arms around me.

"Get cho punk ass outta hea befo' I blow yo shit" I heard Kaere's voice automatically relaxing after I did

Kaere kicked the person in their stomach and stomped on his head as he tried to crawl away soon getting up and running away. I was grateful he saved me but this nxgga is the last person I wanted to see after I discovered I was pregnant.

Kaere looked down at me swiping his thumb over my cheek "Yoh aight Ma?"

I nodded "I'm not use to almost getting kidnapped"

He chuckled, which I felt was insensitive. I snatched my body away from him before storming into the apartment complex past the desk person and to the stairs. I heard Kaere call after me but I kept going. I was so mad I make it to my floor in 2 minutes nearing my door I see Kaere presses up against the wall next to it. I narrowed my eyes at him as I unlock and open my door. I stepped into the living room as soon as he closed and locked the door I pushed him.

"This is your fucking fault, I wanted nothing than to live my life but you just had to bring yourself in it, huh? I kno' what type of nxgga you are, was this what you we're planning to happen this whole- the fuck time?"

"Are yoh sure yoh kno' meh?" Kaere asked taking a haunting step towards me

I stumbled backwards almost falling all the confidence I thought I had crumbled "No, Ion't and Ion't want to"

He chuckled shaking his head "Shit, oh well, naw yoh stuck wit' a nxgga. Whether yoh like it or not"

I shook my head "No! I'm not, I-I-" I was scared "-No I'm not, you don't kno' me"

Kaere took another step towards me "Ma ain't no point in not believing a nxgga, yoh a target naw and ain't shit yoh cahn do 'bout it"

I shook my head in disbelief, I'm a target, that means I could die. I didn't even live life and do what I wanted to do. All I know is that I wanted to live, I wanted to be able to hold my soon to be born baby in my arms, love them unconditionally. I can't do that if I'm dead.

"Remeba Ian have ta sad yo' ass but I did, now go take you ass ta sleep befo' yoh I give yoh somethin' ta complain 'bout fo'rea" He told me as he turned towards my apartment door to I assumed lock it

I gave Kaere a hard stare before quickly turning on my heels and walking to my room. Despite how shaken up I am, I know better than to try him. Getting dressed for bed I rethought the whole situation, I almost got kidnapped, I'm pregnant with this nxgga baby and I'm a target because of the same nxgga who baby I'm pregnant with. Could my life get any more fucked up than it is right now? Rolling my eyes I put my bonnet on as I climbed into bed pulling the cover over me laying down. Reaching over I turned my lamb on my bedside table off.

I heard my room door creak open before the other side of my bed dipped and movement was heard and an arm wrapped around me. I already knew it was Kaere and I honestly didn't have the energy to kick him out. As I looked into the darkness of my room I fell asleep with one thought on my mind, how the hell am I going to tell Kaere that I'm pregnant?

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