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(Trust me, listen to arcade acoustic version while reading this, you will not regret it. I'm linking it above too)

Pacing. Thats what I had been doing for the past one hour. Valena had gone on her mission and I was worried for her. I know she can stand her own ground but I have seen the kind of powers Y/N's posseses. I just hoped that my girlfriend would come back to me alive.

I willed myself to sit on the king sized bed that was against the the back wall of the room. The room itself was more than enough for the two of us. The pride flag being the only thing that added colour. I was currently lost in thought, rather drowning in worry.

There is a part of me that wonders if I am infact on the wrong side of the war, but how could I be? Y/N is the reason for an inncocents death, not to mention the one I was deeply in love with. Tell me if even in an accident I had perhaps killed mattheo, would she ever have forgiven me?

As I sat lost deep in thought I heard the door to the room open. Valena saundered in as I walked up to greet her. I hugged her tight as I said,

"I was so worried!"

"Don't worry love, Im here now" She reassured.

"You ever go on a mission again you take me with you." I argued.

"You know I cant do that love. Not without his permission" Valena explained

It didnt take long before she realised I was crying.

"Please dont cry! I dont like seeing you like this."

"I can't lose you too." I replied with my hoarse voice

Valena bore a pained expression as wiped my cheeks and I leaned into her touch. Her own eyes were glassed over. We walked over to the bed before she held me in her hands and gently lulled me to sleep while whispering sweet notings.

I put ananya to sleep before soflty detangling my arms from hers. I didnt want to accept it but it was true. I was falling in love with her and there was no way I could stop it. What even is love? To me love is the kindness shown to me without expectation of return. To me love is someone staying around me despite my dark nature. To me love is simple care that should be shown to all human beings. I unfortunaelty haven't ever felt it from my parents, so how was I to know that this is infact, love?

With these thoughts filling my head I walked around the house, trusting my legs to take me where was required. Maybe I wasnt so different from my brother. He had afterall left all this behind for love and he seems happy.

But then again love is a foolish emotion made only to distract people from attaining the pure power one can hold. There are no people in love. There is only power and those too week to seek it.

(I unknowingly switched tenses and I'm so sleepy to change it back so bai)

Im sitting in the black's living room on a plush couch that is right beside the window. The rain has started pouring and with that so have my tears. I wonder about my child and pray that she will be alright. One stupid decision has led to so many consequences. My everbearing silence has led to this. Perhaps if I had stood up for my child and listened to her, she would've been safe. She wouldve been right here, in my arms which now hold a forgotton pillow. A parents first responsibility is to keep their own child alive and happy. It seems that sooner than later I will fail at both.

I walk over to remus as he is laying in bed. I place a soft kiss on his forehead before laying down. My mind is filled with worry and fear. Worry for Y/N and fear to lose my family. The only love Ive ever known. I hold remus's hand tenderly before wraping it around myself. He looks at me with conern, knowing me too well he knows that there is something I cannot stop thinking about.

"Everything will be alright darling" He says to me, a feeble attempt to calm my nerves.

"I love you so much remus, I love you, I love you, I love you" I say, wanting him to know, wanting to say it as many times as I can before an inevitable tradegy befalls us.

"I love you more" Remus says, his voice cracking.

I now drive the car, looking cautiously in every direction. What has the wizarding world got itself into? Ive lived long enough to have wittnesed terror and fear. These emotions are something everyone feels right now. During the first wizarding war I didnt have anything to lose but now I somehow feel responisble to protect the unborn child that Y/N carries. A teacher is supposed to be a second parent and if Y/N's first ones were horrible it falls upon me to make sure she is safe with me and in school, both mentally and physically.

I walk upto the astronomy tower, holding the railing and breathing in the cool morning air. Having lived a century I have seen many things but now I feel like I should finally rest. The elixer of life was destroyed as a precaution. I have none more left to sustain me any longer. I do feel a sense of guilt, leaving when the world is in such a state. I wish there was more I could do but with mere hours left for me I walk over to my desk and gingerly hold my quill for the last time before penning down an important letter.

Dear Professor Mcgonnagal,

I regret having kept this from you but now that my elixer of life has been exhausted I have no more time. I hereby declare you the offical headmisstres of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry. I also entrust you with the elder wand, knowing you shall do well with it. I shall be leaving for my final resting place I request that no one try to find me. I appreciate all that everyone has done for me and am gratefull for having lived such a fulfilling life.

You did well, Minerva.

Signed,

Albus Percvial Wolfric Brian Dumbledore.

==== End of part 34 ====

Hi loves!

I hope you liked the chapter. This was meant to provide some insight into the less mentioned charecters. Thank you so much for reading, I really appreciate it.

Thank you for all the love I really really appreciate it.

*Who is your favorite side charecter*

Love,

P / Paridhi Prabhakar

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