My phone alarm going off at 5:45am pulled me from the worst night of sleep ever. When I opened my eyes the room was still dark of course but you could tell dawn was on the horizon.

Cole lay in a deep sleep next to me on his stomach with his pillow scrunched up under his head as he hugged it to him. He looked sweet.

Damn it...I love him

I sighed and shook my head at my stupidity of my loose lips last night. Why did I tell him I loved him?

My stomach was cramping this morning letting me know my time of the month was coming.

Great

I quietly got out of bed and softly padded my bare feet across the cold terra cotta tile of the bathroom to turn on the shower.

I used the bathroom and realized it wasn't coming, it was here.

Fuckin awesome

Stepping into the shower was like rebirth. I felt the knots of tension ease in my shoulders as the hot steamy water pounded down on my back muscles. I rubbed over my stomach, gently try to massage the pain away. "Mmm ow" I groaned in pain

"You ok baby?" He asked making me jump a little as I didn't hear him come in. My heart skipped a beat and then raced. I didn't want to face him

"fine" I choked out and rolled my eyes at how convincing that sounded.

When he stepped in I kept my eyes down "just got my period is all, cramps" I say as little as possible and grab the shampoo just wanting to get clean and get out.

"Stop" he said grabbing the bottle from me "just...stop" he asked with a pleading tone

I don't even know what I did that he was asking me to stop but...

I didn't move.

I didn't say anything.

I heard the cap of the shampoo and then felt his big hands tenderly rub the shampoo in my head, scrubbing and lathering my long dark hair. I melted into him and my mind went blank after a few minutes of his hands on me.

"Tip back"

I turned and leaned my head back, keeping my eyes closed, as he stood in front of me while rinsing my hair; coaxing out all of the soap.

He grabbed my hands and pulled me out of the water, turning me around so my back was against his solid chest as he blocked the water, letting it pound down on his fit back. He put conditioner next and left it in. He put his hands on my shoulders and started rubbing them gently, putting all my hair on my left shoulder and then wrapped his arms tight around me.

I could feel his heart pounding against my slippery wet back as he held me. His breathing was fast.

Was he scared?

Both hands moved to my belly kneeding and massaging it tenderly "I love you too...You just surprised me is all. If you would have let me talk last night, I would have told you that. I was surprised that you let me in that fast. I didn't think you'd let me get close to you so fast. And really, I never thought that I would find someone I ever wanted to say those words to, so yeah, you surprised me and I surprised myself as well"

My mind flashed back to last night. The moment those three words left my mouth like a bomb and he froze under me.

"I'm sorry" I quickly spit out and hopped off of him "please don't follow me, I just need a minute in the kitchen" and left the bedroom before he could say a word. I went and sat on the back deck and smoked a cigarette before I went to sit in the kitchen and collect my thoughts. After about an hour I snuck back into bed where he was already asleep.

I turned around and just held him, as close as I could physically get to him, it wasn't enough. He always makes me want more. He knew how much I needed him and he wrapped me into him just a bit tighter.

"I don't know why I let you in so fast. I have trust and abandonment issues" I giggled "but I knew...I knew the first night I met you that I was absolutely 100% fucked. The night in Tahoe? I knew then that I loved you but didn't want to admit to myself that I fell in love with a guy in a week. Who does that?"

"Someone who knows they found the right person for them. Someone who's lucky and someone who doesn't give a fuck about what anyone else thinks because no one is living our lives but us" he tells me with conviction and he lets me looks at his eyes to read him

"Are you sure it's not someone desperate and broken?" I can't look at him when I ask that but he doesn't give me a chance to took away, he holds my face

"Well, you're not Humpty Dumpty yet. I'm going to help you get yourself put back together again...and if that's what you really think?...Then I'm just as broken and desperate as you but I don't think you think of me that way, do you?"

"Of course not, even though I don't know very much about what you do, I know you do a lot and a broken man couldn't do what you do. You have a reputation Cole"

"I don't give a fuck about that, well I do, but not how you probably think. I don't give a fuck what people think about me personally but I care what they think of me when it comes to the club as their leader. Answer me this, if you ran right now, who would you have that isn't in this house right now, who'd be there for you?" He asked taking me by surprise.

I grabbed the body wash and my pink loofah and filled it with lavender mint body wash and brought it to his chest. Scrubbing his beautiful body from his chest to abs I thought about his question.

"Well, I don't know, I didn't have a lot of friends in college because of Ryan. My parents can't keep me safe from him and if I can't count Lana then no one" I answered honestly and continued my assault on his perfect abdominals.

"I think I'm clean there baby, can you do my back please?" He asked with a smirk and kissed my water drop covered lips. "Mmm" I hummed against his lips, taking his bottom lip into my mouth and sucking on it.

The shot I got between my legs instantly spread a fire through my body and then I remembered I started my period and broke the kiss.

"Damn it, I forgot. Turn around" he squinted his eyes at me and then realized what I meant and turned around putting his hands out onto the wall in front of him letting the water hit the back of his neck and roll down his toned back and off his perfect peach ass. I bit my lip as I watched it.

My period is making me extra horny. This is going to be a long 5 days.

"So, if you admit that you have everything you need here, I want you to remember that and next time you want to run, you won't. We can always talk shit out" he turned around and took the loofah and hung it up before taking my hands and intertwining our fingers.

"I gotchu baby, I took you on and everything that comes with you. We're going to try and figure out this plan you were talking about and deal with that prick, then you'll start to feel whole again"

He started to kiss my neck and move his hands all over my body leaving a trail of sparks "Cole I'm-

"Shhhh...It'll wash off in the water... let me love you Hailey...I love you"

"I love you" I whisper my confession with full conviction against his lips before surrendering completely to him.