It's been a month since Colby and Y/N broke up. Y/N still lives in LA, in her old, police taped house.

She hasn't heard a single thing from Devyn and all the other roommates, including Brennen.

She took a break from YouTube but every now and then watched Colby's videos, but only certain days.

Like today.

She was curled up in bed, with an ice cream tub, a spoon and her computer. She scrolled through different videos.

Her eyes landed on one.

The thumbnail was Colby and Shea.

Instead of watching that, she switched off her computer and threw away the not even touched ice cream tub.

Her food portions became less, making her lose weight very easily.

She had bags under her eyes.

Her crying decreased.

But her cuts increased.

She just didn't want to exist anymore.

She has no family. No friends. No more fans.

On the other hand, Colby was getting happier. Just like he was with her, maybe even more.

He started getting close with Shea, because she kept his mind off of Y/N.

His depression was fading away. Luckily, to his part, not even thinking a single second about Y/N.

But one day, he just felt all the emotions running back. Bottling up again.

He would lock himself in his room.

And just...cry.

Letting out all the emotions he was feeling.

"Life's just really hard at the moment." I was having a deep conversation with the uber driver.

Finally we arrived at the destination. I gave the driver his money and tipped him a hundred dollars.

I got out of the car and he sped off. The lights of the bridge made it possible for me to see.

My birthday is in a few days, this'll be the perfect gift I can get myself.

The gates that were build high on the bridge made it harder to do what I came to do.

As soon as there was no sign of any cars or people, I rushed on climbing on top of the pilar.

As soon as I got on top I turned so my face was facing the side where the cars would pass.

I took a deep breath.

This is what I want and wanted for a long time. And now that I get the chance to do it, I don't want to.

But what's even the point in living if when there's no one out there fighting for you, caring for you and loving you?

I'd rather kill myself than stay on this cruel world.

Filled with cruel people.

I closed my eyes and felt tears slip down my cheeks.

"Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you!" I shouted from the top of my lungs.

"You don't have a place in this world. You're not worth living here. No wonder Colby cheated on you. You're a piece of s.hit! And no one likes you! Devyn left you! All your roommates left you! Stop thinking that someone cares for you, fights for you or loves you. You're completely wrong! Your worthless! You should just kill yourself. And die a painful death. It's what you need and deserve. You mean nothing to no one. He already moved on, with Shea! You should move on and die! Just die!"

That's all I needed to say to convince myself that I was right.

I should just kill myself.

"Just die!"

Sam, Elton and I got startled as we heard a female voice shout from on top of the bridge.

We were curious to what was going on so we rushed to the top.

The sight of a girl, closing her eyes, crying and ready to kill herself had chills run down my spine.

Before she could kill herself I rushed towards her and pulled her down from the pilar.

She was crying hysterically. I didn't waste time to first look at who she could be, but instead pulled her into me and held her shaking body.

"Why? Couldn't you just leave me! I wanted to die. Why can't you people understand! I have no purpose. So let me do what I want to do!"

She pulled out of my grip and tried climbing on the pilar again, but I took her wrists and held them, waiting for her to look at me.

"Why do you want to kill yourself!" I was frustrated. How could someone let her do something like this?

"I don't have family. I lost my boyfriend! And I lost all of my friends. They stopped talking to me! And I'm sick and tired of being alone, so I might as well just f.ucking die!"

I took her head in my hands and scanned her face. That's when it hit me.

Y/N.

"Y/N?" Her name left my mouth.

"I'm sorry." I said but she came out of my reach and her eyes followed to the two boys standing there, with shocked expressions as well.

She only took one look, and without any further words began running away.

We ran after her but it was no use.

She was out of sight.

I can't believe that's Y/N.

She was underweight.

Miserable.

Depressed.

Lonely.

Suicidal.