I woke up in the car. I ruffled my hair into place. I saw my dad and mom in the front in silence. I looked to the left of me to see my little brother.

The music was at a very low volume but I could here the soft pop admitting from the radio. It was song I knew but I couldn't make out. The tears where dry but i still felt my eyes sting. My parent were silent.

I opened my phone to see 2 missing texts. One from Wilbur and one from Tommy.

Wilburs read.

Hey I heard what happened, but just remember you're still in touch with us.

And Tommy's read.

Hey don't forget I love you. Call me when you get home, I miss you already.

I smiled at the name I have given Tommy. I forgot all about the running joke I had with him. I really appreciated Wilbur's text of reassurance. I wiped the tears that were rolling down my cheek. I stared at my phone. I wasn't sure if I should respond or not. I decided that I should.

First I replied to Wilbur's.

Thanks will.

Then Tommy's.

I love you too Toms. I'll miss you too.

I put my phone down. I layed my head back. This was it. I would have to just wait. There was nothing I could do. I met Tommy last night. But that's it. There was nothing any of us could do. I was scared of showing my emotion. I had to choke back tears.

I was hungry, I had refused to eat for the past 3 days. Which I knew my parents were concert about.

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I woke up in my sweat. I had to choke back tears. Because I knew Y/N was gone. All I could do was watch as she went back to America. My heart broke. All I had was her ghost arms wrapping around me. I shot her a text just to remind her about my love for her. But I figured she wouldn't respond, she was busy.

I refused to eat. My mon was concerned but didn't pay much attention to me. I decided to tell Wilbur. It was fairly early but I hoped Wilbur would pick up.

Luckily he did.

"Hey Tommy what do you want" asked Wilbur in an unamused tone.

"Um... it Y/N" I said. My voice cracked, and I tried my best to not show too much emotion. After I had finished telling Wilbur what had happened he had tried his best to call me down. It somewhat worked but I still felt empty.

I had to do something.

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Once I got to our new house I didn't have the energy to greet the neighbors. Instead I grabbed my pc. I put in music to try and lighten the mood. But it wasn't the same without Tommy. I tried listening to Wilbur's music but I still felt empty. Once I had finished I decided to lay on my bed.

My mom called me to eat dinner but I politely refused. Ignoring my rumbling and burning hunger. I made sure to bring my panda plushie that Tommy gave me. I hugged it, I cried into the plushie. I didn't know what to do anymore. I tried to contain my emotion but it ended in a panic attack. I eventually calmed down by remembering to call Tommy. But I was a bit nervous. Although missing him it still wasn't the same.

I called him reluctantly. It rung twice before Tommy picked up.

"Hello? Y/N?" Asked the blond boy.

"TOMS!" I said wiping my face just to check.

"HEY!! I MISS YOU!!" Said Tommy pouting.

We talked for a bit, which lifted my spirit but it wasn't nearly the same. I was interrupted when my mom asked me to come and eat. Which I politely refused and tried to sped as much time as I could with Tommy.

"It's not the same anymore" said Tommy sighing.

"Agreed, I miss cuddling" I said pouting.

"Same" Tommy said sadly.

"Did you like your present at least?" Tommy asked I nodded and shows the huge panda plushie that Tommy had bought previously. Which managed to put a smile on Tommy's face.

After Tommy had to go. He said bye and a smile was on my face but it slowly faded when I realized how far away we were from eachother. I decided to come downstairs because of my raging hunger. I grabbed a quick snack and ran back upstairs trying not to alarm my parents.

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A couple weeks past. I still talked to Tommy but it still never was the same. I constantly told him how much I missed cuddling him. Some night I layed awake. I was still hurt by my parents. My mom had broken a promise that I trusted her with. I was upset but i tried not to think too much about it.

But time flew by, I hadn't met many friends at my new school. Only 1 so far, but she wasn't the nicest. I continued to call Tommy every day. And we streamed a lot together after. I made sure not to spend one day without Tommy. Sometimes I would wake up early so I could talk to Tommy. And many nights I spent staying up on the phone with Tommy.

It had been about 1 year....

I was 18 and Tommy was 19. And I was turning 19 later this year.

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One day I heard a knock at the door. I opened it to see someone I would've have never guessed to see.

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