changbin and felix climbed onto the cart of the ferris wheel and sat there silently as they slowly began to move from allowing other passengers onto the ride.

"you okay, felix?" changbin asked, noticing the boys eyes slowly starting to shut.

"wh-what?" felix asked before his eyes sprung open, "oh me? yep, i'm great!"

"felix..." changbin frowned, "you don't have to fake it around me."

"fake what?" felixs smile fell as changbin gave him a disapproving look.

"how you truly feel. i don't want you hiding that from me. if you're uspet tell me, if you're tired show it, if you're finding yourself struggling, ask me for help! please felix, i cant lose you." changbin explained to the latter as the ride began to get going.

"but... i'm scared." felix admitted as he stared off the side of the ride, admiring the view.

"scared of what?" changbin asked, placing his hand on felixs thigh and slowly stroked his thumb back and forth.

"scared of you leaving again." felixs words seemed to hit changbin like a bus. that's now what felix thinks of him all because he left once.

"i didn't leave you because of your mental illness felix, i left you because i thought i made it worse for you." changbin explained, grabbing the boys hands to wrap up in his own.

"changbin, it's not you, please never think that. i just can't find happiness from myself, it has nothing to do with you." felix explained truthfully.

"i wish i could help," changbin frowned, "are you sad right now?"

"no, of course not!" felix suddenly had a bright smile with a small blush on his face, "i'm never sad when i'm with you."

felix leaned into changbins side, clinging onto his t shirt as they sat there silently for a moment.

felix felt the exhaustion wash over him once more, and his eyes slowly began to flutter shut again.

"bokkie," changbin spoke softly as he lightly shook the latter, "are you tired? is that what's wrong?"

"mhmmm," felix hummed, "i didn't get much sleep last night."

"why not?" changbin asked worriedly.

when felix didn't respond, changbin didn't know what to think.

"felix, what kept you up last night? was it nightmares again?" changbin questioned.

"well... yeah." felix sighed, looking up at changbin.

"felix..."

"stop it, no looks of pity. those annoy me more than anything!" felix grabbed changbins face in his hand and squished the boys cheeks to change the look of pity into a fish face.

"you look cute like this." felix laughed as he continued to squash the latters face.

"i definitely don't." changbin said in a mumbled voice.

"you definitely do, very kissable!" felix assured him.

"kissable?" changbin smirked, making felix drop his hand and face away from changbin out of embarrassment.

"oh come on, why won't you look at me? am i no longer kissable?" changbin teased making a kissy face at felix.

"don't tempt me." felix pretended to act confident, but changbin saw right through him.

"felix were on a ferris wheel, almost to the top of it too... you shouldn't tempt me." changbin stated, making felix gulp.

"stop it, you don't want to kiss me." felix laughed nervously.

"and why wouldn't i want to kiss you?" changbin questioned.

"im just me, i'm not anything special." felix shrugged.

"felix... you mean everything to me. please don't ever say you're not special." changbin said softly, coming off very genuine and meaningful.

"but—"

"hey bokkie, do you remember what i said?"

"about what?"

"about you falling in love with me again," changbin said, "how about we start that right now."

before felix could really understand what the latter meant, changbin smiled and cupped the boys face once he realized they had reached the peak of the ferris wheel.

changbin slowly leaned in and placed his lips gently against felixs. it only took felix a moment to understand what was going on, and by that point he was already instinctively kissing back.

their lips danced together like two silhouettes that were made for eachother. a lock and key couldn't even begin to describe the type of fit their lip lock was.

it seemed a bit too perfect to understand someone so well and to be able to be so in sync with every moment that passed.

felix began to smile into the kiss, the longing feeling he had inside him all this time finally beginning to disappear.

changbin felt felixs smile grow as the kiss deepened, and he too began to smile.

felix wrapped his arms around changbins neck and pulled the boy impossibly close.

for something so passionate, it still contained all the purity of two kids kissing on a playground for the first time.

as the two began to pull away, they realized their time to get off of the ride was quickly approaching.

felix felt the exhaustion lift from his body as the butterflies began to fill his stomach. he looked at changbin, smiling like an idiot once they finally opened their eyes and realized what they had done.

"i can't wait for the day you fall back in love with me, lee felix." changbin said before stepping off the ride, grabbing felixs hand into his own so the two of them would not get separated in the crowd.

"but i'm already in love with you..." felix mumbled to himself, knowing changbin would never hear him.

he wanted to tell the latter how he felt, but something in him denied him of that power. one day felix knows he will be able to say it, he just hopes it won't be too late.

a.n.

omg why do i hate this chapter sooo much???

maybe bc it's sucks!!! 🙂🙂🙂

but did i rewrite it? no.

why? bc my head hurts and i wanted to update for you all:(

i'm sorry it's not good