"i dare you to kiss felix." seungmin said nonchalantly. everyone else in the circle turned to him in shock.

"kiss felix?" chan questioned, trying his best to contain his anger.

"yeah, it's just a dare." seungmin shrugged.

"seungmin, i don't think thats a good idea." hyunjin whispered to the boy.

"changbin, if you don't want to do it you don't have to." felix said as he avoided looking up at the latter.

"it's fine, just a dare right?" changbin said as he looked over at felix, who gave a slight nod. he didn't want to admit it, but his heart broke over changbin saying it was just a dare.

changbin slowly stood up and walked over towards felix. as he did this, chan got up and stormed off into the bathroom, avoiding having to witness felix and changbin's kiss.

"are you okay with this?" changbin whispered to the boy in front of him.

"yeah, if you are." felix shrugged.

"it's been awhile since we kissed..." changbin trailed off as his eyes glanced down towards the floor.

felix put his hand gently under changbins chin and tilted his head upward, "we don't have to do this."

"it's just a dare." changbin said once again.

"right," felix sighed, now it was his turn to look away.

"hey, if you don't look at me i won't be able to see your beautiful freckles." changbin said as he cupped the boys face and gently guided their eyes to meet.

"don't compliment me, it'll only confuse things." felix mumbled in a hardly audible tone.

"what was that?" changbin asked.

"are you two going to do the date or what?" jeongin spoke up.

"oou what dare?" jisung said as he came out of minhos room, his neck littered with love bites.

"changbin and felix have to kiss." hyunjin explained.

"kiss?" minho questioned as he looked over at the two, "it looks like they are having a staring contest."

"shut up." changbin said through grit teeth as he spun around to face the boys.

"just do the dare." seungmin stated, "and it must be on the lips! forgot to say that earlier."

"this just keeps getting better and better." changbin rolled his eyes.

"i didn't realize kissing me was so torturous. just pretend i'm hyunjin." felix returned the eye roll as he felt his heart begin to shatter.

"that not it lix... you have it all backwards." changbin stated.

"then explain it to me." felix said, growing frustrated with the boy before him.

"do the dare, we need to continue the game." seungmin stated.

"fine," changbin said angrily before crashing his lips onto felixs.

his hands were cupping felixs face and felix slowly wrapped his arms around changbins neck.

the dare was to kiss. they both knew this, yet they took it much further than expected.

the kiss lasted far too long, their breathing becoming unsteady and their desires growing stronger.

changbin eventually snapped back into reality, and forced himself away from felix.

"dare is done," changbin stated bluntly as he stood up, "and i'm done with this game." he walked into the kitchen and began grabbing more drinks.

he wanted to forget tonight, but he knew he'd never be able to forget the way felix makes him feel.

chan eventually came out of hiding and returned to the group, but not before grabbing a few more drinks of his own now.

the night was becoming dangerous for the group. it was originally meant to bring them closer together, but all it was doing was getting them all drunker than they ever had been before.

felix and jisung watched as their friends drowned themselves in booze, and they both knew they were in for a real treat later that night when it came to taking care of everyone.

"maybe i should stop drinking." jeongin suggested as he watched the rest of their friends get plastered.

"you should, we're going to need your help taking care of all these idiots." jisung remarked as he looked over at the group.

"i'll take care of hyunjin." jeongin smiled to himself.

"i got minho of course, but i guess i can take care of seungmin too." minho shrugged.

"minho isnt even that drunk, it's probably best you focus on seungmin." felix added.

"looks like you'll be taking care of changbin and chan." jisung said at a low volume so the drunken boys wouldnt hear.

"yay for me." felix said sarcastically.

"how does it feel to have them fighting over you?" jisung asked as he stifled a small laugh.

"fighting over me? what're you talking about?" felix questioned.

"don't tell me you're that oblivious lixie." jisung said as he stared at the boy, waiting for him to admit he knows.

"i seriously don't know what you're talking about." felix stated.

"well chan and changbin... they kind of fought over you when you were in the hospital. i think they both like you or something, i don't know much on the details. minho knows more than i do i think." jisung shrugged.

"you think chan and changbin like felix?" jeongin cut in.

"you don't?" jisung posed the question to the latter.

"well... maybe chan does, but changbin? doesnt changbin like hyunjin?" jeongin questioned.

"not a chance, hyunjin was more like the distraction from felix. he wanted to like hyunjin, but he never could. that much i do know." jisung explained to the boys.

"how do you know that?" felix asked curiously.

"hyunjin and i are really close, we talk about things." jisung told the boy.

"sungieeee bed time." minho sang as he waltzed over to his boyfriend.

"well i guess it's time to start putting the babies to bed." jeongin stated as he stood up and walked over towards hyunjin.

jisung put minho to bed first and then returned quickly for seungmin.

jeongin had already disappeared with hyunjin, meaning felix was left to deal with chan and changbin all by himself.

changbin was sat in the kitchen, and chan was passed out on the couch. felix felt it was best he tends to chan first.

felix slung the boy over his shoulders, and began carrying him to a nearby bed.

"lix," chan said, his voice a bit groggy sounding, "sunshineeee."

"yes chan?" felix responded.

"i love you." he slurred out.

"i love you too, im sorry we've been fighting recently." felix admitted.

"nooooo," chan shook his head as he stumbled with every step, "i dont just love you, i'm in love with you."

"chan, you don't know what you're saying. you're just drunk." felix laughed nervously.

"nuh-uh... i'm in love with you sunshine." chan stated once more.

"i think you should just sleep on it, we can talk tomorrow." felix whispered since they were now in the room with seungmin.

felix laid chan down on the bed, wanting nothing more but for the boy to stop rambling such nonsense.

he can't love me. he's my best friend... i cant lose him, felix thought to himself as he went to leave.

luckily for him chan fell asleep right away and he was able to escape to help changbin.

"hey, sleepy yet?" felix asked with a sweet voice.

"i guess a little." changbin shrugged, hardly seeming drunk at all. he was just good at hiding it though, in reality, he was extremely intoxicated.

"me too." felix nodded.

"i should get going then." changbin said, hating the thoughts that swarmed through his head whilst he was in felixs presence.

as changbin stood up, he stumbled and almost fell to the ground.

"you may not sound drunk, but your movements definitely give it away." felix laughed at the boy as he rushed to help him walk properly.

"you don't have to help me." changbin stated.

"but i want to."

"why? why would you want to help me? i broke you didnt i? destroyed you?"

"changbin, stop it. you know nothing of what i went through." felix stated, feeling his blood begin to boil.

"that's what chan says though. i broke you. i ruined you. it's all my fault, isn't it?" changbin asked, his expression showing how sad this truly made him.

"no, it's not. chan thinks that way, but i don't." felix assured the boy.

felix made it to an empty room in minhos house and he laid changbin down on the bed, he sat at the edge of it as he continued speaking to the boy.

"you know it was my fathers death that ruined me. that's what destroyed me. that's what i live with every single day. that's the nightmares i have every night.

his face... seeing him... the way i found him when he died... that's what destroyed me and continues to destroy me.

it was never your fault changbin. the only problem is i became dependent on you. i know that's like the number one rule of what not to do, but i guess it's just how i am in relationships.

i let you affect my emotions way too much. i relied on you to make me happy, but in reality it's not fair to put that kind of pressure on someone, and for that i'm sorry...

not that you'll remmeber any of this tomorrow." felix let out a heavy sigh as he looked over at changbin who seemed to be listening to every word he said.

"i'll remember it. i'm not that drunk." changbin explained to the boy.

"hm maybe." felix shrugged, "anyways, if you remember nothing else, i hope you just remember it's not your fault."

"thank you felix." changbin said sincerely.

"no need to thank me," felix smiled weakly at the latter, "goodnight binnie."

felix went to walk away, but changbin grabbed onto his wrist to stop him.

"stay."

"stay?" felix questioned, assuming he must not have heard him correctly.

"please stay with me for the night." changbin pleaded.

"changbin..."

"i want to make sure tonight you don't have any nightmares. please just rely on me for one last night." changbin asked, the word last ringing through felixs ears in a painful way.

yet no matter how painful those words were, it's still exactly what he wanted in that moment.

"fine... for one last night i'm yours."

a.n.

double update tonight because cliffhangers are mean

did i mention i love bboiiiiiiii lately?

i probably have, but idc bc i mean it 🖤