a few days had passed since the friday jisung was supposed to leave for malaysia. minho was still concerned for the boy, but every time he mentioned it, jisung would change the subject.

today minho decided it would be best for all of their friends to hangout since that's something they hadn't done in awhile.

minho hadn't seen jeongin, hyunjin, or seungmin since he left to visit his parents. he felt bad for not checking in on them, but he honestly just had way too much on his mind recently.

the boys all had off of work since it was a sunday, and decided a movie day was the best option since it was raining outside.

"scary movie, scary movie, scary movie!" jeongin began chanting from his seat beside hyunjin.

"i could go for a scary movie." minho agreed.

"nothing's scarier than jeongin and hyunjin pretending like they're fine when we all know they're still fighting." felix stated as he shuddered.

"shut up," hyunjin rolled his eyes, "jeongin and i are on great terms now, right innie?"

"uh... whatever helps you sleep at night babe." jeongin said with a smile.

"jeongin, you said we could stay together!" hyunjin raised his voice slightly.

"i said we could, not that we would." jeongin shrugged.

"you're a jerk." hyunjin crossed his arms as he sat back on the couch with a pout.

"awe cheer up jinnie, i plan on staying with you," as jeongin said this, hyunjin's face lit up, "for now." and those words made hyunjin instantly frown.

"jeonginnnnn," hyunjin whined.

"hey, this is just my revenge from that night." jeongin stated, referencing the night he found out about hyunjin and seungmin.

"can your revenge be over? it's torture." hyunjin sighed.

the rest of the boys just watched the two bicker, finding it rather entertaining. even seungmin found it funny now that he was finally getting over hyunjin.

"are you two done yet?" changbin cut in.

"we're done." jeongin smiled, looking a bit too happy with himself.

"i hate you." hyunjin said through grit teeth.

"nooo, you love me." jeongin sang as he poke the boys cheek.

"you two are getting gross, i'm going to have to ask you to stop." minho remarked, making a disgusted face at the two boys.

"you and jisung are way grosser!" hyunjin spat back.

"we are not!" jisung frowned as he then crawled onto minho's lap, "but we could be."

a smirked formed on both minho and jisung's faces as jeongin and hyunjin shot them death glares.

"how about we don't make each other vomit today?" seungmin suggested.

"yeah, why can't any of you just have a cut innocent relationship that isn't revolving around revenge or sex." chan added.

"our relationship isn't like that!" felix chirped.

"used to be." chan said under his breath.

"i'm sorry chan, what was that?" changbin asked, jokingly angry.

"you two had a solid week where you would not stop fucking every time you two saw each other!" chan spoke a bit too honestly.

"CHAN GROSS!" seungmin shouted.

"IT'S NOT GROSS, IT'S NATURAL!" changbin yelled back.

"THERE WAS NOTHING NATURAL ABOUT THE NOISES I HEARD!" chan began yelling too now.

"ENOUGHHHH!" felix shouted as he covered his face in embarrassment.

"glad to know we're all getting along again." jisung smiled as he looked around the room at his friends. although they had a rather odd dynamic, it was one he still appreciated.

"i don't mean to be that guy jisung, but shouldn't you be in malaysia?" felix questioned, making jisung dead pan.

"can we go back to watching hyunjin and jeongin bicker?" jisung gulped nervously.

"jisung, you're supposed to be in malaysia?" hyunjin questioned.

"how about we talk about changbin and felix's crazy sex!" jisung suggested, trying to distract the boys from himself.

"jisung," minho cupped the boys face, "just tell them." jisung bit his lip nervously as he looked at minho.

"tell them if you want," minho corrected himself, "they're your friends, you can trust them ."

jisung nodded, and took a deep breath before speaking, "my dad is sick."

"what?"

"jisung..."

"i'm so sorry, i didn't know."

"i'm sorry jisung."

the comments his friends made went on and on, and in the end only made him feel worse. it made him feel like he should be in malaysia, yet he wasn't.

he couldn't bring himself to leave minho, to leave korea. he couldn't bring himself to get on a plane and admit that his father is dying, and once he goes there, it may be the last time he ever sees him.

he couldn't bring himself to do any of it.

"i just don't want to lose him." jisung said softly as his eyes began to fill with tears.

"i know ji, i know." minho coddled the boy into his arms, not wanting to let go out of fear jisung would somehow fall apart.

"jisung, you should really go see him..." chan suggested once again.

"can we stop!" jisung shouted as the tears streamed down his cheeks, "just put on the fucking movie."

jisung then buried himself in minho's chest, and tried his best to not let anymore tears fall from his eyes.

jisung's mind began to race with thoughts he wished he wasn't having, he's not dying. he can't die. it's not real. it can't be. i can't lose my father... not when it's my fault.

a.n.

i am so sorry i take so long to update this story

i just am so obsessed with writing ex lately, any other story has become a little difficult to write

maybe that's because ex is my most depressing story and i usually project my feelings through stories...

oops:)