** a few months later**

Callie POV;

It's been quite the few months. Arizona and I got married last month. Nothing huge or anything just a small wedding with the people we love. It was a beautiful day and I can't believe I get to call Arizona my wife now. I don't know if I'll ever get used to that. It has been a hard few months for us. Arizona especially. She just seems so sad lately. She's trying to hide it from me, but I know her and I know there's something wrong. I'm just waiting on her to tell me what it is.

Arizona POV;

It has been a beautiful few months. Calliope and I got married last month. It wasn't a huge wedding with hundreds of people at it. Just a small intimate wedding with the people we love and that love us. It was beautiful. It's been such a hard few months for me. Ever since my accident its been hard to find a routine and find my passion in life. I lost my passion for life when I got in that accident, and trying to get passion for life has been so hard for me. On the outside, I'm this happy, bubbly, energetic, smiley person, but on the inside, I'm suffering. I am so far from happy on the inside. Calliope doesn't even know about any of this. I've been trying to keep it a secret. I keep trying to put this fake front on, and it was working but I made a comment the other day and Calliope caught it and now she's on to me.

Callie POV;

I requested off of work today just to be able to spend time with Arizona, and I plan on asking her what's going on and what's wrong. I'm not sure how it will go over but I plan on asking her during lunch today.

Arizona POV;

Callie asked off of work today which she never does, so I'm not 100% what to expect today.

We are on our way to lunch and Callie's being really quiet. She hasn't talked to me, looked at me, held my hand. Nothing. We get to the restaurant and I grab her hand as we walk inside. She looks at me and faintly smiles.

We get our table and sit down and I can tell she's thinking about something, and I'm getting more and more nervous about what it is.

We order our drinks and order our food, and as we are waiting Callie takes my hands

"Arizona we need to talk"

"okay.." I say nervously

"you haven't been yourself lately. You made a comment the other day about wanting to give up. Give up on what?" Callie asks. I can tell she doesn't want to just straight up ask me about me wanting to give up on life so she makes it up to me whether I tell her or not.

"life" my simple, but serious answer

She closes her eyes and nods softly.

Callie POV;

"life". Arizona's answer hits me like a ton of bricks. It was the answer I was expecting but something about hearing her say it just hits me like a ton of bricks.

I close my eyes trying to hold the tears back and nod softly

"that's what I was afraid of"

A tear rolls down my face and my efforts to keep the tears in have failed. Arizona grabs my hands from across the table, but I take them away. I'm not mad, or disappointed or anything, just not in the mood to hold hands with her, however, that move upset her and Arizona's next words out of her mouth are

"what the hell was that for?"

"You just told me you've been thinking about giving up on life and you act like its nothing. Arizona, it isn't nothing, this is such a serious thing and its something I wish you would have told me a while ago"

"I know it's serious" is Arizona's simple answer. She chooses now to be simple with her answers. She looks at me and sees tears rolling down my eyes.

"Sweetheart, I know this is serious, I really do. I'm not trying to act like it isn't serious. I know it is. The only reason I never told you was because I was scared. I was scared you were going to leave me or not want to marry me. I was scared you weren't going to love me anymore"

That is when I grab her hands from across the table and look in her eyes

"I'm not sure where you got that idea from but it is so far from the truth. This makes me love you more and care about you even more than I did before. There is nothing in this world that would make me not love you. I just honestly wish you would have told me sooner. I just feel like it is my fault. I feel like I'm the reason you feel this way"

Arizona POV;

"I just feel like it is my fault. I feel like I'm the reason you feel this way"

That answer from Calliope broke my heart.

"no, no, no. You are most definitely not the reason I feel this way. baby, I can't believe you think this your fault. This is in no way your fault. I haven't been feeling myself for a very long time and I think the car accident just made it all worse. If anything honey, you're the reason I haven't given up. You are the reason I am holding on. You are the reason I am starting to become myself again. You are the reason I am still here. Calliope, my sweet love, you are the reason I am still here. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't be here. You're my world and I love you so incredibly much"

"I love you so incredibly much more Arizona. Please promise me you will talk to me, and tell me what's going on and how you're feeling and all of those things. Please promise me you will talk to me, you won't hold this all in any more"

"I promise Calliope" I smile softly and kiss her hand. "I promise"

Callie smiles, but I can tell deep down she's wondering if she should really believe me or not. I mean I hid something like this for months, why should she believe me. I wouldn't believe me if I was her. I decided just to leave it alone. Continuing to talk about it won't make anything better.

***Next Day***

Callie POV;

I took another day off of work. I just want to spend time with Arizona and just make sure she knows I'm here and I love her.

Arizona POV;

Callie took another day off of work. She's worried about me, which is understandable. I don't want her to worry too much, so I plan on finding a counselor today. That way she can go to work and not have to worry too much about me, and I can finally start to get my life back and feel the way I felt before this whole accident happened. I'm not sure how Calliope will take it, but I'm hoping she's accepting.

We ate breakfast, drank our coffee and got ready for the day. I sat Calliope down on the couch and grabbed her hands.

Callie POV;

We finished our breakfast and coffee, and Arizona sat me down on the couch and grabbed my hands.

'what now' I thought to myself

"Calliope, I'm going to start seeing a counselor. It is best for both of us. You can go back to work and not worry as much, and I can start getting the help I need to start feeling myself again"

I looked at Arizona to see tears streaming down her face.

"Sweetheart, what is going on? Why are you crying?"

"I got worried you were gonna be mad or something"

"mad? Love why would I be mad? I'm proud of you. I'm proud of you for deciding this and deciding to get the help" I said wiping the tears from her eyes.

Arizona leaned in and kissed me "I love you" was all she said.

That's all she had to say. She doesn't need to say anything else. I'm proud of her. It takes a lot to admit you need help sometimes, but I'm proud of her for getting the help she needs.

"but really Arizona listen, I really am proud of you. This takes a lot to admit you need help, and to seek help, but you need to know you aren't alone Arizona. You aren't alone. You are loved and cared for, and you are important, and I'm so proud of you for telling me you were struggling and I'm proud of you for starting to get the help you need. I'm always here to love, don't ever forget that. I'm always here. I might not be able to professionally help you, but I can be here and hold you and tell you I love you and care about you"

"Thank you Calliope, I'm not sure how I got so lucky with you, but I'm so thankful for you. You really are a blessing. You're an angel from above my sweet calliope and I just don't know how I got so lucky. I love you with every ounce of my heart. Don't ever forget that"

"and don't you forget that I love you, and I care about you, and you mean the world to me Arizona. You are my world and I don't want anything to happen to you. I love you so much honey, and nothing will ever change how much I love and care about you. Just please always remember. You are loved. Not just by me, but by many others as well"