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Life has slowed down for us ever since we started taking care of Qiqi. Taking care of a child is hard but taking care of an immortal zombie child is even harder... I don't regret any of my choices though.

But recently... I have felt like somethings missing... a thrill that I've been craving for a while now. Like my thirst for adventurer needs to be quenched...

It seems as if I've lost sight of my original goal. But... I'm happy where I am now. Is it really that bad to not honor a promise I made with myself ? I've been feeling uneasy thinking about this though... I feel guilty for not upholding a promise.

I have a family now, and they should always come first... but...

"Y/N. Are you okay ? Qiqi noticed you have been staring at that wall for a while now."

"Ah Qiqi ! Sorry, did you need anything ?"

"Qiqi is worried. You've been spacing out a lot lately."

"Ah it's nothing to worry about ! Quick, do you wanna play a game ?"

With a quick response, Qiqi nods her head and walks away to grab her toys. She walks back to me with a handful of her favorite toys.

"This is a goat. See if you—"

Qiqi proceeded to go into a very detailed process on how to milk a goat. How she learned this ? I don't know. Zombies are supposed to have bad memory too so how does she even remember this much ?

Oh well... at least it got my mind off of adventuring for a while...

I hear the door open and in walks the love of my life, Xiao. Qiqi quickly stands up and runs to him with her arms in the air.

"Papa Xiao."

Xiao picks her up and hugs her tight. I sit by, watching the two bond. Slightly jealous, but this isn't about me...

"Here are the groceries you asked me to buy... I still don't understand why you won't let me stay at the house alone with Qiqi..."

"Oh I don't know, but the destructive power of an immortal zombie and an ex yaksha combine is a scary thought..."

I glare at him with sarcastically mean eyes and he responds with a chuckle. He walks over to me and gives me a kiss on the forehead. He then lowers his face to my ear to whisper.

"Is something bothering you ?"

He backs away and looks at me with a worried expression. I hesitate for a second and sigh. I nod my head and I can see him flinch with fear.

"Let's talk about it after we put Qiqi to bed.."

After our short exchange, I quickly prepared dinner and ate our food swiftly. I helped Qiqi take a bath and then helped her get to bed. Having a kid is exhausting... if only I could call over Ganyu to watch over her all the time... don't wanna add more work to her plate though.

I walk back into me and Xiao's bedroom to find him already sitting on our bed. His face looks... worried...?

I sit down next to him and sigh. We both stay quiet for a bit before he eventually breaks the silence.

"If you break up with me can I at least take Qiqi ?"

"What...?"

"Oh. You're not breaking up with me...?"

"No ! Of course not... I love you too much for that."

"Oh thank god."

He wraps his arms around my neck and snuggles his head into my shoulder.

"But, it's exactly because I love you that I think you should now... I want to continue my original goal of traveling all over Teyvat."

"... What ?"

"Remember when I said I wanted to travel through all of Teyvat ? I still.... wanna do that."

"But why...? Aren't you happy here ?"

"It's not about whether or not I'm happy... it's about honoring a promise to myself... and I have been itching to get out there and explore for a while now..."

"Let me... have some time to think about this."

"Of course.."

That night, we slept facing away from each other.

That morning was awkward too. And the afternoon... and then before I knew it, it was already nighttime. I sat down on our bed and Xiao followed after, same positions as last night.

"I'm... okay with it."

I turn my head to Xiao in confusion.

"But..."

"I was just shocked about it at first. But I thought it over and if it's really what you want, I can't stop you."

I pull Xiao in to a hug but his embrace feels weaker than usual.

"I'm gonna miss you... so much.."

"I will too..."

That night we spent sleeping as close as we could get to each other. I swear I could even hear Xiao sniffle a bit.

A part of me doesn't want to leave this life behind but... I must move forward.

Things are going to change. And I'm unhappy with everything staying the same... I'll miss you two. I hope you don't forget me...