I want to say 'don't leave' but I'm tired

of begging people to stay

I don't want anyone to help me

but I'm tired of pushing people away

I'm tired of trying not to break down

but it's getting harder every day

I hate everything about me

but I'm tired of feeling this way

I'm tired of being depressed

but every time I'm happy

I feel like someone's gonna take this happiness away

I'm tired of being so cold

but I'm scared, that if I'm not,

my heart's gonna get broken

in so many different ways

I'm tired of being tired

So I'm trying so hard to change

I'm tired of pretending that people leaving

doesn't bother me

I'm tired, so tired

of watching everyone walk away