As we were packing I could hear all the boys screaming and yelling and laughing and running and etc. We're fuckin BTS biggest boyband in the whole motherfuckin world yet we act like we're 5 chasing each other and threatening to kill each other over the dumbest smallest things ever.

Sometimes I wonder how proud Y/n would be if she saw where I was at now. She probably knows tho. We're fuckin BTS.

I still don't know why she left, she should've told me if I was doing something wrong. What did I do wrong?

Did I not spend enough time with her?

Was she getting bored of me?

Was I too ugly?

Was I too immature?

Did I not make her happy?

It could have been anything and everything, yet I won't ever have an answer. At least until I see her again and I doubt I will.

-time skip to the concert day-

It's the day of the concert, I know I've done this hundreds of times but I still can't get rid of the anxiety I feel. If y/n were still with me she'd be able to calm me down but you know.. she's gone.

Anyways, I walked over to Jungkook and Jimin who were going over the choreography for Idol.

I was hoping this day would never come. I was awoken very rudely by Areum jumping up and down on my bed.

"MOMMY IM GONNA SEE BTS IM GONNA SEE BTS MOMMMYYY WAKE UPP"

"Baby please it's too early" I said checking my phone that was resting on the nightstand next to my bed. "It's literally 7:30am babygirl"

"I don't care mommy. We need to be there early"

"Baby the concert starts at 7PM . Come on let's go back to sleep" I groaned, but I knew she wasn't gonna go back to sleep and I was gonna end up having to get up.

"No mommy, I saw a video that explained we need to get there the earliest we can. Some people even camp out!" She exclaimed. I looked at her confused

"And where did you see the video?"

"With uncle Chan. He said we need to be prepared for anything!" She smiled proudly

"I'll murder you chan" I muttered

"COME ONN SO I CAN WAKE UP APPA"

"NO HONEY! Hyunjin never gets up this early and he will be mad at you" I said. Hyunjin wouldn't appreciate getting up at this time.

"He can't be mad at me. He loves me too much" she responded cockily. Oh she knew the weakness he had for her.

"No honey. Let Hyunjin rest. Now I will shower and and then you'll shower and then I'll make you some breakfast, but be quiet the others could still be asleep"

We carefully tiptoed down the stairs only to be met with Jeongin on the couch while watching some BTS shows

"What are you doing Jeongin?" I looked at him

"LOOK ITS YOONGI!" Exclaimed Areum. My head snapped to over where Areum pointed. The same man I told not to tell Namjoon I was leaving.

He was breathtaking.

"Well these concerts do seem intense. Do we really wanna take Areum?"

"Jeongin, it's concert day Hyunjin did not waste 3,000 dollars on those concert tickets to not go"

"I know I know just they push a lot. The guys also throw water and water bottles at the crowd. What if Areum gets hit with it? What if a crazy fan pushes her? Huh?"

"Jeongin stop exaggerating! She'll be under Hyunjin and I's care. She's my daughter and if she wants to go see her fa- I mean idol perform then fine. There's nothing to worry about"

"Okay whatever"

"Have you eaten breakfast yet?" I asked changing the subject.

"No" he said still looking at the screen ahead of him while Areum jumped on his lap joining him. I sighed and walked in to the kitchen.

"KIDS TIME TO EAT" I yelled and the first to come and sit down we're Jeongin and Areum, and then I heard multiple footsteps coming down the stairs. We were so many in this house that sometimes I wonder how we managed to live 5 years without burning down the house.

"It's mine!"

"No I got it first!" Chan and Woojin were arguing over the last pancake. I chuckled slightly. I looked around for Areum and didn't see her neither did I see Hyunjin.

I quickly walked upstairs heading to Hyunjin's room. The door was slightly open and I peeked in and the scene displayed in front of me made my heart melt.

There I saw Areum sitting on Hyunjin's lap while he was playing with her hair.

"You Know I love you right?" He smiled down at the little girl on his lap

"I love you too Hyunjin" he kissed her forehead while she wrapped her hands around his neck.

"I love your mom too you know" He muttered softly

"You love mommy?" Giggles Areum "I knew it I knew I knew it!"

"Shh don't tell her!" He shushed her! "How do you feel your finally gonna see Namjoon live? Huh?" He quickly changed the topic.

My heart raced. Hyunjin loves me? maybe it was time to move on. There was no possibility of Namjoon and I getting back together even if we had a daughter. He's probably moved on, he has a career even if he knew Areum existed he wouldn't have time. He's a busy idol. They're one of the most famous artist in the whole world.

I slowly walked in and his head quickly snapped in my direction.

"So you love me" I teased. His face immediately turned pink.

"you heard that huh?" He scratched the nape of his neck, while Areum giggled

"Hyunjinnieee got caught" she quickly jumped off his lap and ran out the door slamming it shut behind her.

It was awkward silence. We didn't move, we made no sound.

He suddenly started leaning in, and so was I. Until our lips met, his lips were so soft. I wrapped arms around his neck while he placed his on my hips.

"I love you he mumbled" my heart skipped a beat and I kissed him harder.

- time skip because I myself became uncomfortable writing this LMFAO-

"And mommy and Hyunjin are probably kissing" I heard Areum giggle and tell the others.

"AREUM!" I yelled. Everyone stared at me and Hyunjin. After that...that.. happened we hurriedly went downstairs.

"Use protection please" commented Chan. Jisoo slapped his head.

"Shut it she already had Areum and I am not risking getting my arm yanked off when she gives birth."

"Don't worry that's why I'm here" Hyunjin said winking at me while I punched his arm.

"I hate you all. Shut up I am not getting pregnant. again" I muttered

"Yea guys leave her alone. She's already learned" said Minho

"Exactly. Now Areum go to our room I'll be there in a little to do your hair." I instructed the little girl.

Hyunjin, Areum and I were ready to leave. While Areum was saying goodbye to the other boys I was talking to to Felix and Jisoo.

"It's okay Y/n, try not to make eye contact with him!" Said Felix,

"But what if he comes close and Areum yells and he comes closer?" I questioned

"Kiss Hyunjin. So simple" said Jisoo, Felix's face showed a flash of sadness then quickly wiped it away. (He still liked you)

"What is wrong with you!" I whisper yelled

"Oh come on Areum said you guys kissed!"

"Oh yea believe my 5 year old daughter over me!" I rolled my eyes but it was true. Hyunjin and I had kissed.

"Whatever I'll just drop something and stay down there until he leaves."

"Try not to get stepped on" laughed Felix. I glared at him and he immediately shut up

"It's fine if something happens you text us and will be right there to pick you up."

"We're taking a car tho.."

"It's fine we can have Minho bring it back" she shrugged

"Okay okay I'm good. Will be good. Oh my. The goal here is for Areum to have an amazing time" I reminded myself

"Okay go go go!"

We might have been in line for about 3 hours and it was not nice. It's cold, and Areum kept whining because she was tired and just wanted to watch the boys.

"It's... 5:30 it starts at 7. It's almost time baby"

"Okay mommy" she sighed

We were finally let in and we looked for our seats. Once we were settled they started playing BTS MVs and all the fans were singing along and so was Areum. She was so inlove with these boys and I knew I couldn't do anything about it.

I was standing backstage peeking into the outside and seeing all the fans waiting for us.

I saw a cute family of 3 come in the arena, heading to the front of the stage. The girl/mom looked familiar but I just couldn't identify her.

I looked at the guy with her and a little girl with them, the little girl couldn't have been older than 5. They were getting closer and suddenly I made eye contact with the girl...

It was

I slightly gasped and staggered back. What? She's here? She lives in Chicago? What? How? Wait she has a baby?! And the girl looks around 5, she has to be Namjoon's ! What if Namjoon sees her? Oh no oh no. I couldn't just go out there could I?

"Sound check starts now!" I heard some of the staff yell. Perfect. I ran out into the stage and I heard a few screams. I headed to where Y/n was, and just sang my song 'Seesaw' as I headed her way. The little girl started clapping and pointing. I smiled at her.

Y/n noticed and gasped. She bent down pretending to drop something. I shook my head. Ah this girl if that's what she's planning to do to avoid Namjoon then there is no doubt Namjoon will see her.

I lowered the microphone and put my hand over it to prevent the whole arena from hearing what I'm about to say.

"If you don't want Namjoon to see you I recommend to not do that" I smirked and walked away. She looked up at me shocked and turned to the guy.

Is that her boyfriend? I wonder how Namjoon would react if he did see her and with that guy? Her daughter though! She looks just like Namjoon? Could it be his?

All of this was overwhelming me more than it should've. I already have a concert for fucks sake. Why do I care so much? Why have I ALWAYS cared so much about this situation?

But one things for sure I'm gonna start hogging the place she's at so none of the members could see her.

As we walked into the arena I spotted a red head looking at us from behind the curtain and I was sure that was the one and only

My heartbeat quickened, fucking shit. I had forgotten about what happened with Yoongi 5 years ago. Thoughts began to race through my mind.

Did he tell Namjoon he saw me?

Was he gonna tell Namjoon he saw me just now?

Was Namjoon gonna pretend like I never existed?

Hyunjin noticed and gave my hand a reassuring squeeze and smiled softly at me, which calmed down a bit.

Once we reached our spots Yoongi was singing along to Seesaw

"Alright 반복된 시소게임이제서야 끝을 내보려 해Alright 지겨운 시소게임누군간 여기서 내려야 돼할 순 없지만"

(A/N I WAS ACTUALLY LISTENING TO SEESAW WHEN I WAS WRITING THIS PART LMAOAO)

He crouched down towards where we were standing at he slowly lowered the mic and covered it. Immediately I squatted down and kept my head down. I heard him let out a deep chuckle.

"If you don't want Namjoon to see you I recommend to not do that" he smirked and walked away. I looked up at him hocked and turned to Hyunjin

"Hyunjin! Yoongi knows me he recognized me! and I literally only talked to him twice! Namjoon is gonna identify me so easy¨I whispered yelled

"Y/N chill, okay calm down everything is gonna be okay! breath! just stay on the low okay! you'll be fine I promise!" I began to panic knowing that he was so close and he'd see me, Hyunjin was trying his hardest to comfort me and try to ease the anxiety that was building up within me. I didn't know what to think, of Yoongi recognized me then Namjoon obviously would too. The actual concert in less than an hour

Dammit I should have dyed my hair I cursed at myself.

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