I'm a freaking jerk

I'm an asshole

Why can't I tell her?

I'm hurting her

I recalled the accident

I didn't protect her

She protected me instead

I should've saved her

I told the guys about it

Hoseok hyung pinched my nose

Jungkook kicked my knee

Yoongi hyung flicked my forehead

Taehyung looked away and scoffed

Jin hyung gave me a virtual slap

Jimin wanted to choke me

But he's too short to do it

They keep telling me to tell the truth

But I told them it's not easy

They patted my shoulder and gave me a smile instead

Wishing me the best good luck

Aftter our talk, I started thinking

Am I thinking about myself too much?

Am I not considering other's feelings?

Am I not giving her what she deserves?

I'm just scared

Scared that she'll get disappointed

And loose trust in me

And might actually leave me

I don't want her to know how pathetic I am

She's hurt now

I think it's best to stay away

So she won't get hurt even more