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A bit about Sam in this one learning about him and his past which will all come into play later.

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heading down the stairs I could smell the thick stench of death. I cringed the further in I got.

I passed another few guards who looked at me and bowed. I could hear screams echo and bounce of the wet concrete walls. I could hear the sound of sliver chains and smell the thick sent of blood. I picked up my pace slightly and started looking through the bar windows of some of the jail cells looking for someone I knew.

In most cells I saw men who had been beaten into a lump of limbs on the floor. Stains of blood marking the walls. Most wolves down here were rouges or had broken pack rules.

Getting frustrated and lost in this maze of a jail I walked up to a strong looking guard getting ready to ask him for directions.

"Hello I'm looking for the cells of the newest rouges" I dated strongly.

I could see the hesitation in his eyes but he couldn't disobey my Luna command and without a word started leading me in a different direction.

After a while we stopped walking and he gestured with his large hand to the cells in front of me.

"Thank you" I said softly making his mouth twitch into a small smile.

"Your welcome Luna" he said pushing out his chest lightly before heading away slightly, but also keeping an eye on me.

I looked into the first cell to straight away recognise Sam.

He was dirty and bloody. He was crawled up in the corner of his cells silver chains locked to his feet leaving dark red burn marks.

I quickly got the guard to open the heavy door and ran to his side.

"Sam what's wrong? Are you ok? Are you hurt?" I said rising towards him.

Sam slowly looked up at me with a broken expression. I saw a small attempted smile break across his dirty face trying to hide all of his hurt.

"What would make you say that" he joked his voice sounding broken.

"What's going on?" I asked sitting against the wall next to him. I grabbed his hand inspecting it looking for injures and then the other.

Seeing he was mainly physically ok I turned my attention back to his face. I could see dry tears staining his face.

Sam doesn't cry.

What's going on.

He took a deep breath.

"Just my pass catching up to me" I furrowed my brows in confusion.

His past.

How can it catch up to him here. I've never seen him like this. I was shocked, I could see him trying to conceal all this hurt trying to be strong. Was he originally from this pack? What's going on, I can't bare to see him like this.

"Are you from blood Moon?" I questioned softly.

"No" I was almost happy at this but concealed any emotions this was about Sam.

"Then what's going on Sam, what's wrong?" He looked a bit hesitant.

I nodded encouraging him to explain.

"Well I've been a rouge since I could remember. My parents died when I was young I barely remember them. I've always been by myself. I could go months and months without anyone since I was very little."

I was shocked, that was horrible how did he do it. I could barely survive as a rouge and he was alone for all that time. Living as a rouge I had no idea. However I was a bit confused to why this was all relevant.

"I had never wanted nor needed anyone, I was happy by myself. Until I found my mate. She was beautiful I thought everything was going to change. She could be everything I've been missing. We could build a family." His voice cracked going quiet at the end. His voice held so much pain I could feel my tears rising to the surface.

He then seemed to conceal him self wiping that broken expression off his face.

"But I was just a rouge, I had no title no rank. I wasn't what she needed. But she was everything I needed." I squeezed his hand in encouragement to continue.

I can see all over his face how hard it is to talk about.

There was a moment of silence.

"She rejected me" I was shocked.

reject your mate.

Even after everything William has done to me rejecting your other half is unheard of.

It can break your other half, most wolves don't live after a rejection. That why I can't reject William, he has a pack to take care of and a family and I may hate him but I don't want him dead. Just to leave me the hell alone.

"She knew she could do better. I was a rouge, dangerous. We had a bit of time together I had sex with her but she didn't let me mark her. She fell pregnant but killed my child. I was distraught. Broken. I ran away trying to forget her the life that was suppose to be mine."

I was distraught. What low life could do that to him, to anyone it is evil. To kill a unborn pup. To mate but not mark. And then to top it all of your reject him as well. That is a deadly amount of heart break I can't even imagine.

This was all coming out of nowhere and so fast it was a lot to process.

I wanted to ask questions but I didn't want to stop his flow of words and close himself off like he usually does.

"I then built the rouge village. For rouges to come together. The ones who have been mistreated by life. I built it not far from blood moon territory just in case she would ever come looking for me."

He took a deep breath

"It's stupid I know. After everything to still want the girl who broke me." his voice cracking into a whisper at the end of his sentence.

"The one that never wanted me in the first place. I'm so stupid"

I could feel a pain in my chest as a stray tear leaves my eye.

"Oh Sam"

"What can I say I'm a hopeless romantic" Sam said with a cracked smile with the sad attempt of lightening the mood.

Sam never deserved what was given to him. Yet he is alive everyday smiling trying to make life better for as many people as possible.

He is amazing. His mate never deserved him in the first place.

Making him feel like he was never enough.

"You never deserved that. No one would ever deserve that. And I Am so. So sorry that happened to you Sam."

"And your not stupid. Your everything any girl in her right mind would want in a mate. Your strong, loyal and brave. Your amazing with kids. You care for so many people and matter to so many people." I whispered to him gently.

His stone hard face suddenly changed into one of a broken man.

He then dropped his head down into his lap and sobbed, harsh sobs leaving him whilst his strong shoulders covered in dirt move up and down with his heavy breathing.

I placed my hand on his arm trying to sooth him slightly.

"You were my shining light in my life.

You helped me when no one would. Took me in and you deserve a mate that will love you and care for you. Life has been so cruel to you and I'm so sorry for that. But I'm always here and our pack is always here for you don't forget that" i said squeezing his arm slightly.

There was a moment of silence.

"I saw her today."

Quiet. With Only the sound of blood dripping in the background.

"I saw her with another man.

Saying that he was her mate. That they were in love. She wore his mark on her neck"

My mouth dropped. And Sam didn't look up from the ground once.

"She didn't even look my way"

I didn't know what to say

"I'm so sorry Sam"

"Why are you sorry" he snapped slightly annoyed.

"It's my fault out packs here. If I wasn't mated to Willia-" I started.

"No. He was there to murder us all being his mate saved us. None of this is your fault ok" he said trying to reassure me.

"Stop trying to comfort me your the one who I'm suppose to be comforting" I said wiping away my tears, he chuckled slightly.

"Listen to me Sam. You are the best person I know. You are extraordinary, life has been horrible to you thrown you so much from such a small age. I know things are looking pretty grim in this cell together and I don't know when it's going to get better but it will. I just know it there's a balance better all the good and bad we receive. And you have received a lot of bad so I'm sure you have something amazing coming."

At this point he turned his body to me his head falling into my shoulder as his arms wrapped around me hugging me tightly to him. Like a boy who had been lost would cling to his mother once seeing her again. It's was a desperate hug like I was his last life line. Like trying to fill the lack of comfort and affection he has missed out on his whole life.

I stroked his hair lightly swaying a little bit whist his hold on me got tighter like he was afraid to let go. Pulling my waist closer to his body being completely consumed by him making me feel small.

Just then the cell door swung open and a loud threatening growl echoed and shook the whole building.

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