I wanted to confess my love for him. It was about time.

We have shared so many intimate moments and have come a long way and I think it's time I tell him about my real feelings really hoping he would reciprocate them and if he doesn't then I will make sure he falls in love with me because I am going to shower him with so much love and care that he won't be able to handle it.

I woke up with a smile on my face, already excited to see his beautiful face but I frowned when I found the bed empty and cold beside me.

It was nine in the morning and I was grateful that it was a Saturday morning. Getting up, I freshened up and not being in the mood to to change into proper clothes, I picked out his white shirt from his closet and wore it, not wearing anything else underneath.

I had this glow on my face and I knew it was because of last night and I happily skipped down the stairs to look for him and as usual I found him in the kitchen, leaning against the countertop, looking in a deep thought and wearing just a pair of grey sweatpants.

Walking up to him, I hugged him tightly. "Goodmorning!"

He seemed to blink out his trance and I expected him to smile but he didn't. He tried to, he tried to force a smile on his face but he failed. "Farren."

"What's wrong, Elysian?"

He shook his head and silently pushed me away and busied himself by washing the dishes in the sink.

My heart sank. No. Not again. I am tired of this. Why do we have to go round and round in circles?

"Elysian?"

He refused to look at me and continued washing the dishes. "Hmm?"

"Don't do this again, please. You are hurting me."

He paused for a second then washed his hands and turned off the faucet and finally turned around.

He was about to say something but then his eyes roamed over my body and I watched how his pupils dilated and jaw clenched. "You are wearing my shirt."

"Yes..."

His eyes darkened further and he stepped closer. "Take it off."

My eyes widened. "W-what for?"

He came even more closer and grabbed my ass and squeezed it. "What do you think?" His husky voice sent pleasurable tingles down my spine and my thighs clenched together.

I can't believe he is saying all this. Last night he hardly knew what to do and now he is asking me to take off my clothes. But I wasn't complaining either.

But still...

When I didn't make an effort to do what he said, his eyes narrowed. "Take it off, Farren or I will do it myself."

Oh fuck. Why is that so hot?

And my fingers started to unbotton the shirt, one button at a time, teasing him and when all the buttons were finally opened, I slowly slid the shirt off my body.

His hungry eyes raked over my body and he hummed in satisfaction before bending down and pressing his lips on my collarbone, kissing it gently before biting down on it and then licking it with his tongue.

I clutched his shoulders and tilted my head giving him more access as his lips trailed upwards, littering my neck with even more hickeys.

His hand moved in between my legs and cupped me there and two of his fingers slid inside me making me moan loudly.

He tortured me down there like that for another minute and by then I was ready to beg him to just fuck me but he removed his hand and bending down picked me up in his arms, his lips grazing my nipples.

And he placed me on the top of the kitchen counter and parted my legs before stepping in between them and pulling down his sweatpants along with his boxers.

He brushed a kiss to the scar near my belly button making my heart warm and then he was buried inside me deeply, groaning.

He held me tightly, his hands around my body and face in my neck as he thrusted into me at a fast pace and I gave him as many hickeys I could on his neck and shoulders, my fingers tangling in his hair.

I could feel my arousal dripping down my thighs and on to the kitchen counter but I didn't care as he continued moving.

A few minutes later, we both came together and I had another mini orgasm when I felt him come inside me.

His forehead fell down on my shoulder in a defeated way. "Fuck. Fuck. Fuck."

And then he was moving back and pulling up his sweatpants, not meeting me in the eye and running his fingers through his hair in frustration.

My hand gripped the edge of the counter tightly till my knuckles turned white. The fuck is wrong with him? Did he just...use me?

"Elysian?" A lump was forming in my throat. "What are you doing?"

I got off the counter and walking to where his shirt was lying on the floor, I picked it up and wore it, suddenly feeling very conscious about myself.

"Say something!" I shouted when he kept his gaze lowered.

"Are you using me?" I asked, feeling embarrassed that I let him have sex with me right now when we should have talked about this first.

His eyes snapped up to me. "No."

"Then what's wrong? Why are you like this?! Why are we going round and round in circles?! You promised me that you will forget about Hector or anything else!"

I wrapped my arms around my body and tears trickled down my face. "Why?"

There was a conflict going inside his eyes, a storm brewing. "Stop crying."

I scoffed. "First you hurt me and then tell me not to cry, how is that fair?"

"You don't understand, Farren." He whispered.

"Then make me understand! What is so difficult about all this? Why?!"

"I don't want to lose you!"

"You are not going to lose me, Elysian! Why don't you get that?"

And I continued. "Why are you so afraid of Hector? Why are you so afraid of what my father would say about this? Why are you so afraid of the idea of us?"

"What are you so angry about?!" I almost screamed in frustration.

And that seemed to snap something inside him. "You know why am I angry? Because I fucking love you! Every second I spend away from you makes my heart fucking burn! And I don't want to lose you because I am a fucking coward of even thinking what my life would be without you, Farren."

I swear my heart stopped beating for a second but when it beat again, it did with a new hope and excitement, of the possibility of him loving me coming true.

A fresh trail of tears fell down my eyes. "You won't lose me, Elysian, I promise." I assured him. And then took a deep breath. "I love you."

I watched how all the anger from his face was washed away, how his eyes suddenly lit up, how his lips parted in surprise.

"I love you." I repeated, more firmly this time. "I love you, Elysian."

I moved closer to him and taking his hand in mine brought it to my mouth and kissed it. "Let go of your fear, Elysian. This, this is real between us now. What we have is real, our love is real. Give it a chance, please."

His forehead came down to rest on mine and a tear rolled down his face. "God, I want to. I love you, I love you so much, Farren."

"Then please, give us a chance. It will not necessarily burn us."

"I love you." I told him again making him cry harder.

"I love you too..."

I cupped his cheeks. "You are not a coward, Elysian. We all have fears, we just need to embrace them and then let go of it. And if you are worried about my father then do you remember the contract I made him sign? That he will fulfill one of my wish, anything I ask?"

His eyes slowly opened and gazed into mine. "Yes..."

"I am going to ask him for you. I want you, Elysian, I don't need anything else. Just you."

He leaned closer and brushed our lips together. "What did I ever do to deserve you?"

In hope to lighten the mood, I said, "See...I told you I was special."

He finally, chuckled softly. "Yes. Fucking special." And he slammed his lips on mine.

This time when his tongue entered my mouth, he gave me no control and tasted every nook and corner of my mouth and let him gladly.

There was so much love in the way he kissed me that my heart skipped several beats and soon I found myself lying on the couch with him on top of me.

"I love you." He whispered in between and his lips pressed to my cheek. "I love you." And my other cheek. "I love you." And my forehead.

"I love you too, Elysian."

He gazed into my eyes instensely. "Promise me, Farren. Promise me that you will remember this: no matter what happens, no matter what the future holds, no matter what everyone tells you, I will always love you. Forever and ever."

"I know, Elysian. I promise. I will always love you."

And our lips moulded together once again.