I have never felt so alive while kissing anyone. Kissing Elysian was like a breath of fresh air, made me come alive, made me want more, to quench my thirst.

He once said he was a fast learner and he proved it to me, proved it to me with his lips which once were unsure and inexperienced now kissed me with so much passion that it blew my mind.

It wasn't a deep kiss, just a goodnight kiss which extended longer than it should. And if this continues I am going to lose control so I bit his bottom lip making him hiss lowly and I pulled back smiling.

"Goodnight kisses are supposed to be short." I chuckled.

"Oh..." His lips twisted up in a smirk. "My bad." And cradling the back of my head he pecked my lips. "There. Goodnight."

I pecked his lips too. "Goodnight." I love you, I added in my mind and buried my face in his chest sighing in satisfaction and he kissed the top of my head and tucked me securely in his arms and I drifted off to sleep.

Hours later when I woke up I saw Elysian wasn't there beside me and instead I was cuddling with a pillow. I checked the time to realise it was just six-thirty in the morning. Where did he even go?

Rubbing my eyes, I checked the bathroom only to find it empty so I went downstairs and found him whipping up an omelette in the kitchen and I wrapped my hands around his waist and tilting my head, placed my cheek on his back.

"Farren." He breathed in surprise.

"What are you doing?"

"I was hungry that's why I woke up."

"But I want to sleep more."

"So sleep."

I groaned in protest making his body vibrate with laughter. "What do you want, wifey?" YOU.

"I want you to hold while I sleep." Was that too clingy of me? Yes. Did I care? No.

"Okay. Give me a minute."

I hummed and waited for him and soon the sound of sizzling and the smell of omelette wafted into the air and a few seconds later he removed my hands from around his waist and turned around holding a plate and a fork and walked to the table with me following him sleepily.

He placed the plate on the table and pulling out the chair sat down and gestured me to climb over his lap which I did and buried my face in his neck and with one arm around my waist, he started to eat his omelette.

"Do you want to eat some too?" He asked.

"No." I grumbled, I was too sleepy to eat. "Let me sleep."

"You behave like a three year old kid when you are sleepy." He remarked, amusement lacing his tone.

"Are you complaining?" I frowned.

"No. It's cute, I like it."

I smiled against his neck and we both fell into a comfortable silence and only the sound of him eating could be heard and soon I was lulled back to sleep.

The next time I woke up, I was in the bed with Elysian lying next to me, propped up with the support of his elbow, my arm resting on his waist and his finger tracing my face. He had this pensive look on his face.

"What's wrong--"

"You will get late for work. Get up now."

Did he just dodge my question? Is he back to ignoring me again? Is he regretting what all happened last night?

He rolled off the bed and left the room.

Yup. He is bipolar as fuck.

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The silence was fucking killing me. He didn't say a word ever since I woke up and he drove me to work after making me breakfast like we didn't almost makeout last night. Aargh!

He walked behind me as I stepped out of the elevator on my floor and before we could enter the main area, I grabbed his arm and pulled him inside the janitor's closet and closed the door.

"I thought you were claustrophobic." He finally spoke, staring down at me.

"I am going to say this for the last time, Elysian. Get your fucking mind set!"

His eyes narrowed and jaw ticked. "What do you mean?"

"Why are you like this? Didn't we talk about this last night that you won't avoid me again? So, why are you doing this again?" Tears welled up in my eyes. "Please, if you don't like this... whatever this is going on between us then just say it, okay? I won't force myself on you." I angrily wiped away my tears.

His features softened and he cocked his head and was about to touch my cheeks but I slapped his hand away. "Don't touch me."

I made an effort to open the door and leave but he slammed it shut again placing his palm over it and trapping me in between him and the door.

He took my hand and placed my palm over his heart which was beating frantically. "You have no idea how much I want this, Farren."

Tears rolled down my cheeks. "Then why do you have to become so cold and distant towards me? Please, it hurts."

His lips grazed the top of my eyes and he slowly kissed away my tears. "Shh..."

My palm which was over his heart slowly fisted his shirt and I cried harder.

He rested his forehead over mine. "No, babe... please listen to me..."

"You are an asshole!"

"I know..." He sighed. "I am so sorry for hurting you over and over again...I am just confused...and it's wrong to hurt you for that but I...I don't know what to do... it's very complicated..."

"Then tell me...share it with me...maybe I can help...you don't have to suffer alone."

He cupped both my cheeks, his forehead not leaving mine and he shut his eyes firmly. "I'm afraid this...this won't work between us. It's not easy, Farren. I want to give in, believe me I want to. I can bring the whole universe at your feet if you say so but..."

I can bring the whole universe at your feet if you say so. I don't want the universe, I want you.

"Is it because of Hector? Did he say something?"

"Yeah...and your father too...he is waiting for this mess to get over so that we can get divorced and he can get you married to someone of his choice."

I leaned back and held his hands that were cupping my cheeks. "Do you trust me?"

"With my whole life, wife."

"Would you like to spend the rest of your life with me?"

"Are we reciting our wedding vows again?" He raised a brow.

"Yes. Answer me, Elysian."

He brushed his lips with mine. "I would love to, Farren."

"Then the world can go fuck itself. I don't care what anyone else says... please just forget about them for the time being and let's just enjoy it. Please."

"What if all this leads to a dead end?"

"Then the journey till there would be worth it. I promise." And I didn't give him the chance to say anything else and pressed my lips to his firmly.

Before we could kiss fully, the door was pulled opened and we both froze and so did the person on the othe side who happened to be Nora.

"Oh my goodness!" She covered her eyes with her hands.

Embarrassment flooded through us and we immediately stepped away and Elysian's face could easily be compared to a tomato.

We gave each other a sheepish smile and Elysian shook his head and went away leaving me alone with Nora whose hand I grabbed and dragged her to my seat.

"What is going on between you two?" She asked in surprise. "I thought you hated each other."

I shrugged and blushed. "There's a thin line between love and hate, haven't you heard that?"

Her eyes widened. "You love--"

I pressed my palm on her mouth in order to silence her before she could speak any further. "Are you serious? Lower you voice! He doesn't know that yet!"

"Oh..." She whispered when I removed my hand. "...sorry. But how? When? Why?!"

I gave her a pointed look. "Are you not happy for me? You look disappointed."

"No! Of course, not. I am happy for you but I am really curious as to how you both went from hating to loving. And I want the details!"

"Shouldn't I be the one asking you first about your details with Zeke, huh?"

She blushed hard at that. "What are you talking about? There's nothing going between us."

"Really? So you don't love him? Did he not kiss you?"

"How do you know that?! Did he tell you that?!"

"No, it was obvious. Elysian could point out that from his face expressions."

"Oh...um...well..."

I wiggled my eyes brows. "So...what all did you do, huh? And anyway, I have been shipping you both ever since I met you in college. I mean you guys are so cute together!"

And just like that I was successfully able to divert the attention from myself because even I don't know if my relationship with Elysian would work or it will go down in flames.