Symon kissed the lover more deeply while squeezing her backside and breathing hitching. Seconds later, his hormones started racing. He began to unbutton the lover's top.

Upon realizing this, the lover gently pulled away, "Symon... I... I am..." She hesitated without knowing what to say, her eyes clouding with guilt.

"You are still not ready? Or is it something different this time?" Symon expressed in what looked like disappointment.

The lover's tone and manner generated more guilt within Katherine. In her part, she had penitence expressed from her disposition, "I am sorry! I am just..."

"Katherine, I am not even sure anymore if you will ever be ready." Symon pointed out matter-of-factly, "You don't at all look if you will ever be ready!"

"I will be, Symon, and it will be special_"

"We have something special! I feel it because I feel something in my heart for you. I feel something that makes me open and comfortable with you. I guess you don't feel the same way as I am feeling for you."

The sadness in Katherine deepened inexplicably. She stared in remorse, "Symon, I feel something, too_"

"Then it is not something enough, Katherine!" Symon said amid frustrations and foiling. He had been eager to experience love-making with the lover, but her denial in it left him full of despair, "You don't feel something that makes you open and comfortable with me! You don't love me as I love you!"

The words yet again penetrated inside Katherine's heart with anguish and helplessness. She knew, from the heart, that she felt something for the gentleman standing before her. A feeling that made her happy when she was with him. One that made her enjoy his company- his knowledge and interesting personality. A feeling that made her proud and special to have him as her boyfriend. Surely that is enough for true love!

"Symon, I know what I feel for you, and it is something special!" She spoke with sincerity from the depth of her eyes.

"No, Katherine." Symon shook his head, almost assuredly, "You don't feel anything special! You don't feel open and candid with me. You don't feel open enough to share yourself with me. That is not enough love, Katherine!"

"Symon, there are a lot of consequences in love-making, it is not that I don't feel open enough to share myself with you_"

"That is where the problem is?" Symon pointed out, hard-faced, "You compare what we have with what is out there! You don't see the special relationship we have? You don't trust me that I will protect you and us no matter what happens. You simply don't trust me!"

"I trust you, Symon." Katherine gently said. Tears was gathering in her eyes, "I do trust you. Deeply I trust you. What I am only trying to do is protect our love from these consequences. Consequences that will only put distress in our love life."

Symon shook his head with a bitter laugh, "So, that is what you have been afraid of. You are afraid of problems in our relationship. You don't see the possibility of us working through a problem. You want a smooth sail all through, huh?"

"I am just trying to protect us from a problem we can avoid."

"Then you are not the person I thought you were!" Symon felt a congesting pain in his heart, "You can't take a chance with me through anything. You can't cross with me a river full of a thousand crocodiles without caring, as long as you die by my side. I am a guy who can take any type of chance with you, because you complete me just the way you are." He walked to the room door and opened it, "I just thought you felt the same way. I want a person who feels the same way. Excuse me."

Katherine watched him leave helplessly with tears streaming down her face. She didn't understand why this was happening to her. She was sure she felt love and affection towards the lover. She had strong feelings of attraction, love and commitment towards him. The feelings came about because he was trustworthy, faithful, loving, caring and supportive- qualities that were rare to find in men. Yet still, he gave time, effort and commitment to the relationship. She didn't understand why she couldn't take any chance with this great man, why her body couldn't open up to him. I sincerely love him, why should this be!

But she knew how much happiness and love they had both invested in the relationship since they met. Her heart couldn't simply let it go. I will never leave a chance for it to be over!