Earth 37

Alexa's View

"We're already late, hurry up." Zendaya says knocking on the door.

"I can't do this today, I can't." I say.

"Why not?" Zendaya asks.

I open the door and let her in.

"Y/n and I have... history." I say.

"Okay?" Zendaya says.

"We dated, it didn't exactly end well." I say.

Was it a wasted couple months?

"How'd it end?" Zendaya asks.

"We were totally in love, sneaking out of windows just to see each other. I mean ABSOLUTELY in love." I say.

Sneaking outta the window, spending nights in limbo

Was that all there was for us?

Midnight driving, running through highland

"Is that it? How could that possibly end badly?" She asks.

"We never actually made it official because... I didn't want to." I say.

Does it make me the criminal?

That I let you go

That I broke us and left

"What?! You let the Y/n Y/l/n go?! The girl that has been named the hottest woman in the world for the past 5 years?! That same girl?!" She asks.

"Yes!" I say.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" She asks.

"I don't know! Okay? All I know is that I regretted it the day after." I say.

I hate that I never know

Why you're still so caught up in my head

"Y/n wanted a life-long relationship and I wasn't ready for that. I mean, I was only 16." I say.

I know you wanted a promise

I wasn't ready, can I be honest?

"So this was... 14 years ago and you never told her you regretted it? You have had over a decade to tell how that you regret your decision yet you have not." She says.

Never knew what I had until I lost it

"Yes, it's been haunting me for 14 years." I say.

And I got this rubber band on my wrist, on my wrist

And I snap it every time that I think about your lips

"Well, sucks to be you." She says.

Time Skip

"I don't want things to be weird between us." I say.

"We're professional women doing a job." Y/n says.

"The past is in the past." Y/n says.

Got this rubber band on my wrist, on my wrist

Almost break it every time when I'm trying to forget

"We just need to talk about it. We don't need to be on bad terms." I say.

"Fine." Y/n says sighing.

"I'm sorry for leading you on. I've never been good at this love thing." I say.

I know that I have never been good at this

Love you in a second, next you know I'm checking out

Of moments I shouldn't miss

"I regretted it, I've regretted it for 14 years." I say.

Now I'm looking through the photos

Wishing I was different

"You've regretted it for 14 years?" She asks.

And I got this rubber band on my wrist, on my wrist

And I snap it every time that I think about your lips

"Yeah." I say.

Got this rubber band on my wrist, on my wrist

Almost break it every time when I'm trying to forget

"So why didn't you call? My number has been the same for 14 years, my email has been the same for 14 years, my name was been the same for 14 years — everything has been the same for 14 years!" She says.

Trying to forget (Trying to forget)

Trying to forget (To forget, to forget, to forget)

"You had a girlfriend, moron!" I say.

Trying to forget (Trying to forget, trying to forget)

Trying to forget

"Says who?" She says.

"You." I say.

"I said that 5 years ago, you still had 9 years on-and-off the tell me!" She says.

"You regretted it but never tried to tell me you did, you regretted it but you never told me why you ditched me in the first place, you—" She says.

"Because I was scared! I was scared of being in a life-long relationship at that age. You were 19 — you had your shit together. I was 16 — I was still trying to figure out what I was gonna eat for lunch." I say.

I know you wanted a promise

I wasn't ready, can I be honest?

"I was young and stupid. I didn't know that I had lost a good thing." I say.

Never knew what I had until I lost it

And I got this rubber band on my wrist, on my wrist

And I snap it every time that I think about your lips

"So for 14 years, you've been the only thing on my mind." I say.

Got this rubber band on my wrist, on my wrist

Almost break it every time when I'm trying to forget

Trying to forget (Trying to forget)

"Well..." Y/n says.

Trying to forget (Trying to forget)

Trying to forget

Hmm-hmm, hmm

"14 years too late." Y/n says.

Trying to forget (Trying to forget)

She shows my the ring on her finger and I nod.

Trying to forget (Trying to forget)

I get up and walk away.

Trying to forget (Trying to forget)

She's been married for 10 years with a 9-year old and a 7-year-old — of course it's too late.

Oh, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh

It's just a hard pill to swallow.

I'm trying to forget

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