It has been Two years since i died and got reborn into a new world I can walk, eat, and talk, although some words are still a bit difficult to pronounce, but my life since coming here has not been pleasant. It's been unbearable.

I want to go back. i want to see my mother. My father. Even my annoying little brother, As well as my older brother.

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Two years ago:

My name is Lenn Suzuki and i am heading to my family's estate for a visit on my break from work. with the help of a friend we opened a business and it was successful we went abroad in hopes to expand this business.

But now the trip is over and i'm visiting my family.

I was exited to see them. I have always loved my family. I went to visit every time i could and would bring them gifts from time to time. Especially now i had brought many souvenirs for them.

My little brother is still young and lives with our parents, and my older brother has a job as well and he too is visiting at this time.

When i got off the plane i was waiting for a good friend of mine. We were childhood friends and went to the same school. we both joined in the same school activities that were offered there.

As i sat waiting at the airport i saw many different people but the ones that stood out to me the most were the ones reuniting with their families. happiness could be seen on their faces as they embraced each other affectionally some more than others. 'Those are probably couples', i thought to myself.

It made me think of how i'll be seeing my family soon and how they might react when they see me. My mother who has aged retired but my father who is older than my mother still works, but it's not heavy work. we all told him that he should retire since me and my older brother send them money every time the paycheck comes in. But he doesn't want to because he loves his workplace and makes an extra bit of cash.

As i was reminiscing, out of the corner of my eye i saw a familiar face and quickly turned. it was him my good friend, Nathan. when he saw that i noticed him he waved with a smile on his face. I waved back happily too.

"Hey Lenn, good to see you back. Had fun?" was the first thing he said, as he helped me carry my luggage

"Yeah it's nice to be back, and no i barely had time to go sightseeing i was really looking forward to it. what about you? how's your kid?" i replied, thanking him for carrying half my luggage.

we started walking out of the airport

"he's gotten bigger since you last saw him" he said proudly "how is james doing?"he asked, referring to the friend who i opened the restaurant with.

"well you know same as always. Honestly he hasn't changed a bit since we were all in school" i replied jokingly.

"yeah well he has always been a very reliable person" he said. "there she is!!" He said as we were in the parking lot.

"what do you mean she? it's just my car." i said. I left my car at his house, because i couldn't take it with me, in exchange for letting me leave it at his place i let him drive it whenever he wanted. Because it is an expensive car that is worth showing off.

"well, your car... is a beauty." he said jokingly. "Feel free to leave her with me whenever you want."

"Sure i'll do that. Just don't crash it." I said.

"Well let's get going, you want to see your family right?" he said with a smile.

"yeah, you're right. Let's go"

Anyway after a while of driving in the city we arrived at his home, i had planned to leave immediately to see my family. So i hopped on the driver seat to start driving to the countryside.

That's when Nathan stoped me "hey you look pretty tired do you want to stay at my place for today"

"huh? don't worry im fine, plus it's still morning i'll make it to my family's by this afternoon" i said.

"i don't mind you staying here. So please rest at least a little bit." he said concerned.

"No it's okay. I'll rest when i make it to my parents house. But thank you for the offer" i said gratefully

He looked at me with a worried face and then smiled "Okay, is you say so then go ahead, your family is waiting"

We said our last goodbyes and i dove off. Nathan lived in the city and my family lives in the countryside, so it's hours away. But i'll manage just like every other time.

Nathan has a wife and a kid. While i don't. I haven't had any luck with girls since getting out of high school. I Live alone. I should've just stayed with a girl from school like Nathan did.

Four hours in the road i was feeling sleepy. 'damn maybe i should have rested at Nathan's ' i thought. my eyes are going down on their own. i'll pull over and rest for a bit.

Suddenly my body felt heavy and i lost control of the wheel. I then panicked and adrenaline rushed throughout my body and i could move my body again, but it was already too late.

I heard a loud beep noise and when i looked up i was on the opposite side of the lane and right in front of my car was a tanker truck. i crashed into the truck.

it all happened so fast. i don't want to die. i want to see my family at least one last time. please. not yet. just one last time.

Then everything went dark.

It was like if i was floating in darkness. Or was i really floating.

As i moved or rather didn't move through the darkness. I was trying to recall my last moments. What was i doing? I wondered.

Then a feeling of loneliness washed over me.

That's right loneliness. i can feel emotions.

Before i felt like a blank existence. Like if i just simply existed and nothing else. It was just my consciousness in a world where nothing but darkness existed.

But there's more.

I need to see them.

Wait see who?

family.

My family.

My Mom. My Dad. My brothers

i need to see them.

As time passed or rather it didn't i remembered my childhood. When i went to school. When i misbehaved. When i had fun playing with my friends. The time i spend with my family.

Everything.

I remember everything now.

No wait there's more.

That's right did i die? i crashed that's the last thing i remember. But i don't want to die. I want to see them. I was going to see them. So why did this have to happen.

Suddenly my frustration turned to fear as i questioned where i was.

after some time passed i managed to calm down since nothing seemed to happen.

More time passed.

I see a light. After flowing through the darkness for a long time. i finally see something.

I try to move but i failed i didn't even know if i had a body that i could move.

Then i heard voices and i felt relieved to just hear anything at all. They were getting louder. And louder. Until i heard a clear voice.

"Congratulations madam, he's a healthy boy." one of the voices said.

then another deeper voice said "A Boy!!!" in a very exited tone "hey there little one" he said

then another much softer and high pitch voice, definitely a woman's, said "aww he's so cute" she sounded happy "welcome to the world Arara"

I then opened my eyes, and took in the sight before me. After what felt like an eternity of swimming in the dark, everything looked very colorful.

Then the man picked me up. He looks young maybe he's the same age as me .His facial features where sharp, like if he worked out every day. He has big grey colored eyes and his hair is blonde. He has a small scar on his chin. But the way he looked at me. He looked at me with excitement.

"give him here i want to see him better." The softer voice said.

and then i was in the arms of a young woman. She was very beautiful. With long rich black colored hair tied like pigtails on each side of her head. She looked at me, her eyes were large and brown colored, her skin really pale white. She smiled in a caring way at me. Almost like ... a mother.

Then again i remembered my own mother and how i was on my way to see her.

wait a minute

What is happening right now. I haven't really been thinking straight because i've been taking in everything i've seen since opening my eyes after the darkness. But ...

I moved my arms so i could see them. They were tiny almost like a baby's. Am i a baby again.

"awww look honey he's moving his arms" the woman said excitedly.

hmm i've read manga and light novels about reincarnation but to think something that cliché could actually happen.

But no. I don't want to be here. I want to go see my family. My real family. I can't just accept these strangers as a new family. my real family can't be replaced. dammit i want to go back. take me back.

Thinking that i would never see my family again. I was angry. But what was i angry at. There's nothing i can do. No one i can blame. Did this all happen by chance?

After realizing there was no point in being angry. My anger turned to sadness. I began to cry. Knowing i couldn't see those who i loved the most ever again.

"what's wrong my little baby are you hungry?"the woman said and began breastfeeding me.

'Just what year is this anyway' i thought.

After a while of drinking milk i calmed down but i was still very upset .

"hey Hanna come see your little brother"the woman said to a girl that was sitting in a chair in the corner of the room.

the girl was little maybe around 3 or 4 years old. she had the same hair color as the man who i assume is my father. she whore it in a ponytail,and she has brown eyes and white skin. like the woman who i assume to be my mother.

"what did you say his name was again?" the girl asked

To be honest i'm kind of curious of that myself.

The woman looked excited as she said "his name is Arata Arumani"

the little girl then said "hello Arata i'm Your big sister Hanna" she then smiled "nice to meet you"

After her comment they all turned to look at me. As if expecting me to respond in some way.

Which i didn't. I completely ignored her. I wasn't even looking at her when she was talking to me. nor the woman and the man when they were talking. Because i really don't care about these strangers. So i just tuned them out.

Im still thinking about my real family

"is there something wrong with him, he's not reacting at all when we try to get his attention" the man commented

"don't say that Leon, of course there's nothing wrong with him he's a newborn you really expect him to do much." the woman argued

"calm down Emma i was just kidding, of course there's nothing wrong with him" the man, named Leon apparently, said. And finished it with "i hope."

"i cant believe you really— blah blah blah." I don't want to listen to them argue now.

Im not even gonna look at them

So my wannabe sister is named Hanna.

My mother is named Emma.

And my father is named leon

And finally there's me i have been given the name of Arata Arumani by my fake parents. Those are some fancy names

hmmm i guess i'll go to sleep and see how i feel about this later.