I noted in my mind to search for this later and also if he may have any problem.

Someone opened the car door and he still carrying me started up the stairs. I lived on the first floor . He rang the bell; my mom opened the gate, seeing me in Alex's arm she must have got so scared because she asked in a terror-filled voice

"What happened to Kate?"

"Nothing to worry about auntie, when we were coming back she fainted, doctor said she was slightly anemic and I just carried her here" said Alex half lying. She moved aside and let Alex carry to my room , he put me down on my bed and stroked back the hair that were now on my face , he suddenly pulled back his hand , got up and went away excusing himself. My mom came and sat beside me. She slapped me lightly; I acted as if I was just walking up and gasped.

"Mom!" I said

"Kate, how are you feeling my little darling" She asked, I put a hand on my forehead and said" Wait a second, what happened, I was walking back home and then I lost conscious and then..........how did I end up here?" I asked continuing with the lie Alex just spoke, I must get the details right or mom might think that something else might be going on. My mom calmed me down and answered

"Kate, you must have been feeling anemic because you lost consciousness, your friend Alex found you and carried you here" I calmed down allegedly and asked

"Alex carried me here! But where is he " And I looked around and again asked

"Where is he, I must thank him " My mom simply answered

"He had to go home, his mother was worried, but he said to tell you that take care and be safe"

'Be safe' that is very uncharacteristic thing for Alex to say, did he want to point out the attack from earlier, that I should be protective, but why. I ruffled my hair this is giving me a headache. Seeing me ruffling my hair mom got worried and asked

"What happened Kate, is something the matter"

"No, no nothing mom, I just need some sleep that's all "I said

"Yes, yes, of course you need to sleep, wait a second; I will bring you some food after that you can sleep. Okay, until then lie down and don't get up" mom said with a strict tone which means if I get up now death will await me. I love my mom so much , she is so sweet caring but in the past recent years we have become a little far from each other because of me and not because of her. She still cares for me as much as in the past and I care for her more than ever but the distance between us has grown.

I cannot tell her some things I did in the past which lead to this distance. That I cannot close up because closing up meant telling her everything I did. Every bad thing according to me I did and I cannot do that. If I did she would definitely blame herself, blame herself as to why she could not help me at that time when I was doing things that I did.

I can only say that I survived that time cause Bess was there and in the later period Alex was there and him helping was also one of the reasons I fell in love with him. He was my salvation at that time and so was Bess , the things I did at that time , I can't forgive myself for that and until and unless I forgive myself , I can't close this distance between mom and me .

And today when I saw how mom got affected by me fainting and hurting myself , I got so shocked and thought what if she finds out what I used to do earlier , how would she react than. I admit that in fact I am scared to tell her what I did, how I did those things. Few tears fell down my cheek but I quickly rubbed them and shifted my depressing mood to think about what happened today.

The first thing was, I was coming home with Alex today while Bess was not around and still in school. We were just laughing, making fun of each other, when suddenly someone attacked from behind. Alex somehow shows super reflex and takes the full brunt. I mean how can his reflex be better than me after all I am what they call the strongest woman in the school, strong enough to defeat anyone, even the judo teachers.

I have also beaten Alex in a completion , but how could he?, putting this question aside , somehow I fainted after the attack and woke in an unknown room , I had no injury on me , nor did Alex had any injury , how in the world did that happen? . Continuing why was Alex called 'young master ' by everyone, was he the son of some big shot billionaire. Was he attacked because he is the son of some big shot billionaire? Is his life in danger? Did he keep a secret about him being a normal student? I need to search more on him, I getting worried about him. And then there's this Miasma, demon thing what was he trying to say. Who is this James? Why would it be bad if I inhaled miasma? How could it reopen my alleged wounds?

God! I hate this. There are more questions than answers. I need these answers. When I was thinking on about how I will get my answers mom entered the room with food, my favorite food, which is a healthy cutlet. I ate happily and without much further thought into what happened today.

When mom finally left, I quickly brought out my laptop and searched for Miasma. The first thing that came up was ' a dangerous, foreboding or death like atmosphere breath out by demons living in hell'

What in the world, how does Alex know about this and why was he talking about clearing this miasma? I mean how can he clean this demon stuff? Does this mean that there are demons living in the world, or hell whatever? I searched more about this miasma stuff and demons, in Indian mythology Demons are called as 'Rakhshas ' or 'Asuras'. In Greek mythology, demons are called 'Daimon'. In early 18th century the miasma air was thought to carry diseases like cholera, it was believed that it could make one obese. I closed my laptop; this stuff is only increasing my questions not the answers.

Tomorrow I am going to make him answer all of my questions, even if I had to kidnap him, okay this is a bit too much but I will do whatever it takes to get him to answer my questions. I lied down and repeated what happened, what questions I had and what I had learned, comparing the two, I had a hell of questions than answers.

Sleep didn't come easily to me, all the thoughts churned in my mind, churned till finally sleep came to me.