Ch 7 Jade remembers a conversation she thought she'd long forgotten

The ( ) is for her remembering an old conversation with her sister Tear and Kiriko.

Jade POV

The child Yui's question didn't seem to bother me. Onis grow fast she seemed to be 3 months but seems like a 2 year old child. I nearly forgot about my two older sisters since it's been so long since that war. I've almost forgotten even their names. The precious memories of what a family was. A soft sigh left me as I watched the child slept.

They said I'm unfeeling cold, distant, merciless to people. Yet others easily gather around me like she said. My voice can tell them my feelings enough, what did Arielle mean when your older you'll understand more and at least be able to show some emotions on your face.

My hand went to my face unknowingly. She said I will learn to express myself but what does she mean. Tear's words made me feel weird now that I remember it.

"There will come a day when I'm no longer by your side sister. By then you will be lonely, find yourself on your own. Let your heart and your eyes be your guide. Don't listen to what others say. Judge for yourself by seeing them. For those you hate don't spare them mercy can come back to hunt you. Less you know of the ugliness in the hearts the better your off. Learning too much can be a double edged sword. I'm no judge myself. But I've lived long enough, sister there will come a time where you are alive and I'm no longer there. Like many of our cousins that have died. You take for granted what's no longer there once it's gone. Live how you can buy do so with your own free will only then will you be ever free and unrestrained by anyone."

Those words I don't understand her message to me. Why am I remembering it now after Yui asked me what memories I cared about. Why is the last conversation I heard from Tear before she disappeared during the war coming back to me now. Something I thought I've long forgotten, why is it resurfacing now.

"Humans live a short life. Some are liars, greedy, corrupted, and stubborn yet unchanging. Others are kind, honest, strong will, and loyal. There's also the majority that's cruel, merciless to those weaker than them. This crude world is unfair, such is life. No one can change fate itself, if it wills it one will die. Can you fight it if you know someone you care about will die?" (Tear)

"That's cause they're idiotic as humans and acts on impulses."

It was my straight answer to her then she shook her head at me disappointment was so apparent in her eyes. That silky red flaming hair, her graceful figure that can put even Phoenixes to shame.

"No humans fight fate not because of their ego. It's more of their strong will to want to be stronger to live, to protect those they care for, and to care for their family. That's why they cultivate so that they can live longer. It makes no difference to you but just doing so is like them fighting for their lives to live a bit longer for those they care for. Those with ambitions actually challenge us gods' authority. Others cultivate to try to dominate the other races as well as their own. There are many reasons for them to be like that. Such as their surroundings, circumstances, changes in their lives, and fate changing encounters. Maybe one day you'll understand." (Tear)

"Don't go talking philosophical on me. We're going to war soon with our own family why do you seem more worried about mortals." (Jade)

I still never got what she wanted to say. My eyes went to Yui's sleeping figure. Confused as to why my hand stretched out on it's own towards her I quickly retracted my arm.

"Sister say if I'm no longer there with you. I have a request. If I just vanish from this so called war with our family, you know just if I were to do so. What would you do?" (Tear)

"Stop making it sound like it's your last time seeing me." (Jade)

I was so angry at her but she just laughed it off and went to say her request.

"Jade, once this war is over can I ask you to free my servants and forget all about me. As well as how we first meet." (Tear)

Tear said that as if it was the most obvious and logical choice I had. I saw Kiriko after that. 5th sister who was always kind and gentle that gave this majestic aura that couldn't be defied. Her green waved hair was tied up into pony tail which was rare since she'd usually have it down. Even then I felt something off about the two that day I just didn't know what it was.

"It's been a while since we had a chance to talk like this." (Kiriko)

"That's cause your always busy with paper work." (Jade)

"Really are you sure your not avoiding this loving yet kind sister of yours (Kiriko)

"Stop it sister don't go joking." (Jade)

"But I would never joke with you my sister. At the very least listen to me since we finally got alone time to talk with each other. It's been years since we've last did so didn't we. My little sister it's actually my fault for advoiding you. Once this is all over I'll convfess all I know to you." (Kiriko)

Sister had kissed my forehead and smiled at me after admitting to avoiding me seeing her.But she never go the chance since I heard she had died during battle. (Her confession that is)

"Us being able to read people's mind isn't for abuse. Don't misuse that power nor abuse it. Change is forever happening. Even if you don't wish for it things will change. Such things are recorded in history and will occur more in the future. Ruling by terror won't help you Jade. That's what uncle tried to show you the other day. But don't listen to him. Each person is different. Your not him, those under your orders, such as your servants, maids and people will respect you if you earn it. Never convict from them, bullying others is asking it to happen to you. Helping others will give you good will of the other. Help those in need, yet be strict on others. But be harsher and more strict on yourself never forget who you are. Don't take from others leave what they have with them, life is but a gift." (Kiriko)

"There's more than one side to things if there's trouble investigate it carefully before you do anything rash." (Kiriko)

Those things were told to me by sisters, yet I can't remember the rest of the other conversations I had with them afterwards. No, I know that wasn't the end of those two conversations I just can't recall them at the moment.