After a month settling down, things have quieted down.

I also slowly started conquering countries as the months passed. And I personally went to war. I left my brothers in the palace to do all the paperwork while I was gone, and I conquered loads of places.

I knew very well war wasn't really good but, i just followed Rela. It was one of her symbols. She was known as the ‘The fearless Amazon-like Warrior Of the Battlefield.’ or sometimes the ‘If you meet a lady, run for your life or you get killed.’ but obviously that name was too long so they went on with the first name.

Maybe because of my title the war went on pretty smoothly, because the other nations surrendered as soon as they heard we were coming. As I conquered it soon turned into an Empire. I became the Empress or Emperor at age 20.

But as these months passed, I made it official that I was actually losing my memories of the past. I was getting Rela’s thoughts more often, but of course my brain had a limit in its capacity. Or maybe it was just because everything had to have a consequence. One day I would panic trying to remember Ian’s face or Aeson’s face. So I started to write all the memories of my past on the papers to keep record.

Sometimes I would feel a sense of deja vu, whenever I saw a face that was familiar. Which happened whenever I saw any noble, maid, knight, or a commoner. It felt so satisfying whenever you felt like you knew who it was but just couldn't replace it.

The memory loss was so stressing i even thought of going to the High Temple. But frankly, i was too lazy to make all the preparations, plus i might change the future, plus they might not welcome me, if they heard about a prophecy where i will be the cause for a huge destruction which effects the continent. Also i didn't want any rumour or whatsoever, that the now called, Imperial Family is weak and vulnerable like any other kingdom. Since I didn't feel like damaging the Prince’s pride of the strong, invincible family I decided not to go.

Not only was my memory loss, but I had to concentrate a lot just to control this body. Yes, i mean i don't have to, but if i don't train my mental stability, then i might not return when i have to change the flow.

I wish Belle was here…. I haven't seen her yet, or maybe I have. I had asked Ian who knows every person who is close to the Imperial Family, which is to say all noble families.

“Hmmm. Belle?” he asked. He closed his eyes.

“Or a name that sounds like Belle…. Wait you're not sleeping are you?”

He stayed still.

Finally he opened his eyes.

“I don't think there's any person with an Elle in her name. And no, i wasn't sleeping.”

I started doubting him.

“What about John?” i asked.

“Are you doubting your-”

“What. about. John?” I repeated.

He just sighed and instead of closing his eyes like last time he just said: “He’s a noble. He is the Baron’s second son. He-”

“Enough. Thank you brother.” I left the room.

Although i haven't met all the people i knew, i have met most of the major people. Then what about Belle? Maybe she was reincarnated to become a commoner. Or she was born in a far away nation which i haven't conquered yet.

It was so lonely here, knowing that you were the only one who could change the future. But then again my memories were fading so i might forget to do that part. I still had pieces of my memories which were probably meant to fade a few weeks ago but thankfully Rela had mana, by which i mean a little mana left, because she had to protect herself in the poisoning, i managed to put a leash on my memories. It took concentration, but it was worth it. I wouldn't risk losing all my memories by losing my grip in this magic thing. Plus, my mental stamina was so tiring, I could barely take control over Rela’s body as easily as before.

KNOCK KNOCK

“May i come in?” the voice of Aeson’s.

I waved my hand, gesturing to the maids to open the door