-Jingle bells jingle bells-

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I want to die...

I know it's contradicting myself, i know dammit!

But what can i do then? What do you expect me to do, huhh??

Think!

When such a cheat like existence is having his way to you.

Playing you like a toy under his thumb.

Even if you complaint, angry or anything you just can’t do anything right!?

Dammit, what should i do with this frustration!?

Sigh...

I wonder if this is how the raped heroine in the eroge felt.

…..

I am sorry...

Sorry for enjoying your scream each time.

Sorry for getting excited and panting hard when looking at you girls getting raped.

Sorry for mastrubating each time a evil like main character having his way to you.

I’m sorry for thinking how delicious your body are...

I’m really sorry, for being born!

My existence itself is worse than a flea, a bug..

Please..

Just throw this trash into a gutter..

…..

After not moving for awhile...

I begin to pull myself together.

And i realized.

“What i am doing is wrong..”

“If i responded, i would be getting toyed further”

“I need to be like a certain unfeeling character, with all of sense and mind closed down”

“Yes”

“I need to do that next time”

“Closed my eye, closed my ears, close shut the door of my feelings”

“Just a little while then everything is over”

“Yeah”

“I have to prepare better next time”

…..

What the hell? Why am i acting like a fucking prostitute doing her first job?

Is this karma? Is this it? If so karma you son of a bitch.

If you dare to said it to my face i will kill you.

Only i can said it, not you nor anyone else!

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While thinking some useless things...

Feeling soiled, i half heartedly enter the mine.

Already feel like i lost my soul, i walked like a zombie

…….

“Welcome back, master. Uwah!?”

Surprised with my appearance that looked like a ghost the wolfman backed away.

And then,

i looked at them...

“LaLLLAalAallAaLlA”

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Everyone is practicing singing.

Well to be exact, not everyone.

The adults have a different job so they're not here.

In order to realize our “plan” they’re doing their best

….

I realized,

Their number is increasing.

“Wolf”

“Yes!”

“Is their number.. increasing?”

“Yes, ma'am. The surrounding village of beastman is gathering after knowing our plan for that day. We gathered most beastman here, not only cat and fox, we got wolf, rabbit and bear race helping us too.”

Ahh right...

I remember i ordered something like that.

While i think of it lifelessly wolf continued

“Umm if i can have a request mas..ma'am?”

What is it..

Make it quick.

I’m in a bad mood so depending on your reason...

I’ll finish you out without even the best puzzle junkie can ever return your pieces like before and not even your mother can recognize you

“H...hai! it's not long ma'am. I just wanna say..”

With *kohon* he continued.

“Can you, give me a name?”

Haa? What are you saying? Your name is Wolf right?

“That's not my name! it's my appearance, actually..”

?

“I already abandon my name when i meet you mas.. ma’am. Now i’m a new being with the new purpose”

“So i thank you once again, i’m looking forward to serve you from now on my master!”

…

What is it?

His feeling is even flowing to me.

There's no lie inside his words.

Strange...

After listening to my plan, he know how crazy it is right?

It's not anything any sane living being do.

No matter how you try to cover it with pretty words, it doesn't change the fact that i’m gonna be a mass murder. The trigger of hell that will soon come.

No l, perhaps i already am..

I will bring a lot of lives into their death without even realizing it.

I will deceive them, making them dance under my thumbs and die with a false hope.

They will dance like a moths attracted into fire.

And i am the culprit.

I am the mastermind that brings you into death.

I am the one doing it all, it's all for my selfish reason.

You will be happy, you will be glad.

But none, none of you will realize.

That you’re merely dancing in the palm of my hand after all.

Without even realize, without even knowing it.

You will, disappear...

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But,

what is this?

Thank you, he said.

Stop,

what are you thanking me for.

It's completely opposite of my intention!

You realize that i’m gonna driving you into hell?

You know that this will end up in the way of no return.

Yet, why.

What are you thanking me for.

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No,

I already know.

I heard it many times.

When i come here.

Thank you

Thank you for giving us a reason to live

Thank you for giving us a chance

Thank you, for being there for us

And thank you

For everything

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I don't like it...

What are you thanking me for? I didn't do anything to you.

I only save your lives once on my whim. If that action can change someone to good there's no need for a police.

You guys are live and die for my sake. For myself, for my selfishness.

So stop,

Any grateful after that is annoying.

Any thanks after that makes me irritated instead.

All of that...

Is making me weaker.

“Uh, ma’am. I haven't heard your reply?”

What is it, you’re noisy.

Ahh, your name huh...

Then.

“Wolf”

“Isn't that the same as usual !?”

“Then, dog”

“At least trying please?”

“Fine, dogmeat”

“Aren't you just hungry!?“

Noisy.

Since you're the one asking for a name, at least accept it gratefully with a tears of blood of gratitude and a bow that reached the bottom of earth.

Such a ungrateful servant, even though he’s the one asking.

What else? Hmm.. maybe name from myths? Ah, that one country perhaps.

“Tuvalu”

“!”

Hearing that he was surprised.

What wrong? Is it not to your liking?

“No.. i see, Tuvalu huh..”

Seems grinning, he replied to me.

“Alright, from now on i’m Tuvalu. I will do my best to deserve that name, master!”

After thanking while bowing, he start to leave to resume his work.