Where am I?

I got hit by a car after pushing that... girl...

What happend after that?

Didn't I die?

I woke up in strange place. I mean, waking up in a grass field surounded by trees is strange right?

Oh, there are small white flowers too, they're kina cute.

I don't see any clouds... wait, is that Laputa(castle in the sky)...

W-well, I got hit by a car and ended up in a flowery field, a castle in the sky doesn't seem that strange right?

Maybe I'm dreaming?

(???)"Oh, your here."

Who?

In front of me are suddenly 2 strange boys with wings, one of them has black hair and wings while the other has white hair and wings... Wait WINGS!!!

Yep, definitely dreaming.

(???)"Well, I'm sure you're confused but I was told to explain to you whats going o-"

(Stella)"S-s-stay away from me, you might get hurt." Wait, if this is a dream maybe he'll be fine.

(???)"What? Oh, don't worry about that, we delt with it already."

What is he talking about?

(Stella)"E-even if you don't understand, just stay at least 3 meters away from me." Better safe than sorry.

(???)"I just sai-"

(Stella)"Just do it."

He backed up a bit

(???)"Ok... if I can speak now-"

(Stella)"Wait, hold on a second, I thought I died? Is this a dream? How am I alive? How am I here? and who or what are you?????"

Should I mention the wings?

(???)"Well if SOMEONE would let me speak I could tell you these things but nooo, you just-" (???)"BROTHER"

The black haired strange boy intrupted, was the explaining one about to complain about my confusion? Wouldn't anyone be at least A BIT curious about waking up in a strange place and seeing 2 strange people WITH WINGS in front of them?

I'm going to keep thinking about the wings, aren't I? Should I ask anyway?

Am I realy dreaming? It doesn't feel like it but...

I hope they don't come closer, I don't want anyone else to get hurt...

(???)"AHEM, as I was saying, welcome to heaven, or at least that's what you would call this place. To answer three of your questions, no, you are not dreaming, but yes, you died, so no, you are not alive, you are a disembodied soul. Happy?"

He looks annoyed...

Ok, did not see that coming. So not dreaming, I'll believe it because I didn't wake up after asking. Just try asking yourself out loud in a dream if you are in a dream and you will wake up, at least that's the case for me. But what's this about a disembodied soul?

(self-proclamed god of life)"I am the god of life, my brother here is the god of death. I might tell you our names later if you don't-" (proclamed god of death)"BROTHER!"

Wait, aren't wings for angels? At least that explains why they are color coated. What, I'm not shocked at the gods part, look I was living on the streets not in a cave, even homeless people get access to the library, besides, I'm confused enough already, I need to calm down.

I should ignore the rudeness because I kept intrupting him earlier but...

(self-proclamed god of life)"To put it as simply as possible, our mother is the goddess of fourtune, before you were born our mother cast on you a blessing because she thought your soul was beautiful, but our sister, the goddess of beauty, got jealous and reversed your and turned the blessing into a curse."

Before I could calm down, he dropped this bombshell on me.

(Stella)"What, there's no way that I was actualy curs-"

(self-proclamed god of life)"Yes, you were, being intrupted isn't so nice-""BROTHER" "FINE, and I'm here to apologise on my mother and sisters behalf and get your soul stablized before sending you to your new life, so you will stay here for a time and relax as much as posible so you don't dissolve into particles and disappear."

I didn't hear that last part, I was buisy being pissed at his completely insincere apology and realizing that he was actualy serious. That this situation is serious.

Does that guy realize what this means? Does he understand what he just told me.

I don't even know how I feel right now, shock? guilt? They are definitely there, but..

What, I realy was cursed, they realy died because of me, they realy suffered so much because of me, and for such A STUPID REASON!!!

I went from confused to annoyed, to trying to calm own, to pissed, to shocked, to guilty, to angry.

Right now I just feel extremely angry.

(self-proclamed god of life)"So now you-" (Stella)"YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!! YOU ARE TELLING ME MY WHOLE LIFE WAS LIKE A JOKE TO YOU PEOPLE!!! YOU ARE TELLING ME THAT ALL THOSE KIND PEOPLE GETTING HURT, ALL THE PEOPLE WHO CARED ABOUT ME WHO DIED, ALL OF IT WAS BECOUSE YOUR SISTER GOT JEALOUS!!!!!"

JUST beause of some stupid jealousy, JUST because of some stupid family problem, my family died, everyone I got close to died, just because of something so, so, SO CHILDISH!!!

(self-proclamed god of life)"Well yes-"

(Stella)"AND EVEN AFTER SO MANY KIND PEOPLE HAVE GOTTEN HURT OR DIED YOU DIDN'T JUST GET RID OF THE CURSE!!! DID YOU DO ANYTHING?!!!"

(self-proclamed god of life)"We couldn't, we-"

(Stella)"YOU ARE TELLING ME MY PARENTS, MISS MANAGEAR, CAIN, ALL died, died because of this..."

My sight got blurry, I reached up to my face and my hand felt wet. I was crying. I hadn't cried in years but why am I crying so much lately...

I know screaming at these... gods, won't change anything, but, shouldn't they have done something. And this guy isn't even actualy apologising, he is telling me it's not his problem and is telling it, me, to go away.

Did they have to suffer for me.

Did they realy suffer for this.

Why. Why! Why!! Why!!! WHY!!!

I can't understand, what did they do wrong.

I don't want talk, to do anything, anymore. I'm done. I've had enough, I just want to disappear.

I suddenly felt dizzy, I couldn't stand strait, and finaly collapsed.

(proclamed god of death)"BROTHER GIVE ME YOUR FEATHER!"

(self-proclamed god of life)"I don't want want t-" (proclamed god of death)"NOW!!!"

(self-proclamed god of life)"Fine..."

I blacked out.