I guess it's my first attempt to answer most critiques that came after people read this fiction.

1. I'm not a professional writer, so I admit that this fiction have many flaws. Including grammar, and characterization.

2. I write this story as it progress. Although I have certain idea of where the story will go and how I will take it to that point, from time to time, I think of something and add it as I write. It even had a major changes when it reach around chapter 20something.

So think of this fiction not as the finish product, but rather as a rough first draft.

3. About the mc. I want this story become a story of someone's journey in life. It's a story about the mc, how he grow and learn about himself. Its about how he came to some realization about who he is and what he want to do with his life. So as much as I don't like how people hate the mc's current personality, etc, etc, the main idea of how his character is, won't change.

I agree that some time, the transition points in his growth, in this story, isn't goes smoothly and I would like to fix it when I have the time to do so.

Each transition must have believable reasons and I hope that it could be seen and accepted, how someone with such personality, after experiencing this and that, meet this person, etc, turn into someone with such personality and so on.

4. About the ntr or the tragedy. As much as it is wrong, I think bad things happened in life.

And actually in this fiction, I think, I didn't picture it, as bad as it could be, if it happened in real life. One could read news about regions in war to see how human capable of doing some deep twisted shit, in certain circumstances. Or read what happened during WWII, etc.

I'm not saying that such thing is right or normal. I just want to say, shit happen. And you could bury your head in sand, saying that this world is about love and peace, human right and emancipation. Etc. The truth is, shit happen. We should be grateful that most of us don't live in such place.

Besides, I include those events/incidents in this fiction, not just as some fan service (for those who like it), I put it in the story because that's part of the story, that's part of the plot.

Any incident should move the story to some point. At least that's what I want.

5. Of other characters than the mc such as Ding Yun, Zhang Hu, Zhang Xuan, etc. I want each one of them to have a depth. Not just some NPC for the mc to interact with.

That's what I want, doesn't mean that I will be able to make it happen.

So as much as you hate them, maybe those like the Zhangs, I hope you give them chance to grow. They're not there just to piss you off.

I mean look at Zhang Hu, it's true he used/manipulate the mc, but he used the mc, to save his family in mind. If Zhang Hu is the mc, would you hate him that much, for manipulating other characters to save the ones he loves?

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There are many comments or review I want to discuss with you guys. At least you spend your time to write it. But I can't do it without spoiling the plot twist, etc. Not to mention that all those plot twist are not fixed yet, since I still change things as it goes.

For those who still read this fiction, despite how much it disappoint and anger you, I would like to say thank you very much.

For those who read it and left in anger. My apology for disappointing you. Perhaps if you wait for another tens of chapters, you might see that all that issues actually answered in the later part of the story. Although I'm afraid you might have other issues when the story reach that point.

After all, the way I see life, is somewhat tragic and maybe a bit dark.

For whoever read this far. Thanks a lot.