so lets see my loves

all in shambled

one left me and thats too much for my heart to handle

but when all fixed up

and im rested enough

i walk out to try again

but my love was never sent

a few months later

all gone

and here i am

in the beyond

in the coldness of today

what else do i even have to say

i loved her

and i know thats enough

a im saddened that i wasn't able to make her happy and stuff

but all away

is my past today

im sitting on the verge of tears

is this sadness i feel here?

on the internet

crying out loud

to random people right now

but somehow

i feel...

as if everything here is real

i sit here

and i make friends

and i hope this happiness will never end

but one day

they say

it all goes away

the love i kept to a few

maybe 1 or 2

they all threw

my feelings away

and what can i say

but no longer can i see the colors of love today

you'll find better

she said to me

but i cant really

really believe

because all of this

is amiss

when she just left one day

all to say...

i love you

leaving someone to make them strong

make them happy

is that wrong

yes i say

yet no to dismay

because two coins to this day

she helped me

in her head

but she left me

alone here instead

so here i am

crying out loud

to the world

i will not shout

here i sit

alone in this

in this sadness

ill never miss

i still love her

but without a doubt

maybe all i can do anymore is shout

who is left

to look at me

to do what i must

to never be

to this sadness

of the dark

is this what

we call...

art?

this is a story

of a failed love

which still lives

in the abysmal doves

the ones died in black

crows they say

the harbingers of dismay

they pick my corpse

never be

they sit here

alone with me

but nothing left

and here i commit theft

and steal my own futures away

"i wont stop loving you" i say

to the air with no spirit

i hope you one day hear it...

across the ocean blue... the ocean of internet too

in the abyss only chaos will ensue

in the fields where love once sprung