Leaving the bonfire for a little while did give me the chance to cool off, honestly, I just needed some isolation. Isolation was nice.

I kept on walking and walking further away from the rest of the people, until I couldn't even hear them or hear the loud music coming from the car; instead, I found tranquility in sitting cross legged on a tree stump in the middle of the forest while listening to the creatures of the night. I could tell there was a lake nearby because I could hear ducks and water splashing. Squeezing my eyes shut, I took deep breaths and tried to sort out my breathing that was raspy and heavy.

Why the hell did I say Jace could do it? Dammit. Albeit, if I didn't agree to it, he'd have to strip off. Huh, I guess Flynn really did have a brain and actually thought everything through. He kept spinning the bottle to Jace and asking stupid questions that were private and should stay private, so eventually, Jace had to keep stripping items of clothing off just to save the humiliation.

How far have you gone with Zach?

Are you a top or bottom?

Unprotected or protected?

Flynn was such an ass.

If this was going to be the start of an ongoing war with him, I would do anything to get out of it. I didn't want to fight with Flynn, I didn't want there to be this constant battle between us that could affect people that are close to me. Sure, yeah, maybe a lot of people dick around at this age, they lose friends, make new ones. I didn't want Flynn to be an ex friend of mine, even with everything that's occurred like when he slept with Naomi, he was far too special to me and as much as Liam pushes me, I'm not prepared to let him go. There must be a deeper reason of why he's all of a sudden picking on Jace just to try and get back at me, what do I have that he doesn't? Last time I checked, he was always better at socialising and he was basically a sex god.

A cool breeze swept across the forest I was sat in, trees rustled and the wind caused my hair to fall in front of my eyes. I sighed to myself and kept trying to blow it out of my face instead of using my hands.

"You look a little disorientated there." I heard his voice pipe up.

I opened my eyes and reached out to hook my fingers through his belt loops, gently, I pulled him close to me and he fell into my lap, straddling me and hugging my hips. I smiled to him when he brought his arms around my neck and we both leaned into a kiss. It was slow, tender and fired with passion.

He had his clothes on now, unlike earlier when he was close to being butt naked. I grinned into the kiss and tried to deepen it, darting my tongue out. He followed and curled his around mine and bringing a hand to the back of my hair so that he could dig his fingers into it. My heart started racing and a familiar warmth filled my chest, I was feeling cold earlier but that was forgotten now that Jace was by my side.

An obnoxious thought came to mind and I pulled away and frowned.

"I can't kiss you when Flynn had just kissed you." I grimaced.

"Come on, you said it was alright." Jace pouted and tightened his arms around my neck again.

"I know but, I just can't believe him."

"He has to kiss Ben next week, I think that's a punishment enough to be honest. Ben might just kick him where the sun doesn't shine." He snickered and pecked the tip of my nose.

"I don't think Ben would go that easy on him to be honest with you." I grinned and caressed his face with my hands, peppering his entire face with small kisses.

"Let's go back." He said moments after and stood up, reaching a hand out for me to take. I grabbed it and walked hand in hand with him back to the bonfire.

There's something about walking with Jace as a couple, in public. We've never done it before, and the idea of it sends me over the moon. Sure, it may only be to a certain amount of people but honestly, that's enough. I was happy knowing that I'm finally out to the people closest to me; everyone could just screw themselves because my business is not theirs, but that's only when I'm not at school. At school, everything is my business and my business is everyone's. There's actually no privacy at all.

I was greeted when I made my appearance yet again. I saw Flynn with a moody frown plastered on his lips sitting next to Calvin and I had to stifle a laugh. It's like when you're naughty in primary school so the teacher makes you move places and sit next to them.

Calvin was definitely not A grade teaching material.

I plopped down next to Jack and Aaron and Jace sat next to me.

"How about a game of never have I ever." Liam asked.

Calvin gleamed and had this look on his face that was one that made me want to shrink in my seat. I wasn't scared, but his complexion was far from assuring. "Is everyone familiar with how it's played?"

Some people, including Jace, said no. "If I say something like, never have I ever been in a relationship longer than a month, then you take a shot if you have or ignore it if you haven't."

Many many shot glasses were being poured out by everyone and the cups were being balanced on top of a few crates and were left in the middle of the circle we've formed. It was when there were at least forty glasses standing on top of the crate that the game actually started.

"Never have I ever been in love." Mark said. Two guys took a drink, I was a little weary about taking one but it seems he's up for a heavy start and I can't lie in this game because they'd catch me out.

So I took a shot.

It burned as it trickled down my throat and I felt the familiar feeling of my eyes wanting to water.

Mark was sat next to me, and he told me to take my turn next.

I scrambled for an idea in my head but I didn't have any good ideas."Never have I ever... Been awarded a grade lower than C."

Nearly half of the guys took a shot then talked about it amongst themselves until I told them all to shut up so they could hear Jace who was being as quiet as a mouse. He looked deep in thought for quite some time but said that he will skip his turn because he's still learning. The other guys agreed but told him he had to take a shot for it so he sighed and took a shot, grimacing at the vile flavour. The game continued and moved onto Flynn.

"Never have I ever," Flynn glanced to me, his eyes glazed over with something I could tell, and he smirked as the words poured out of his slut-lips. "... been caught dancing naked through the curtains in front of my neighbour."

Bastard.

Nobody moved except me, they all had their eyes on me as I slowly reached my arm out to the crate full of sin and picked up a shot glass, tilting my head back and reluctantly gulping it down.

Some guys hollered and laughed and I gritted my teeth. The rest of the game continued with this unnerving tension between Flynn and I. He's basically given away to Jace what we've been doing, what if Jace hates me now? We've only just started to piece things together.

"Never have I ever had sex with three other people at the same time." Alex said. Flynn, like nearly every sexual question, took a shot. It was becoming pretty clear to everyone that Flynn was some sort of sex toy and I didn't know why he was smirking about it the whole time. It's not exactly something to be proud of.

"Never have I ever thrown up and passed out drunk." It was coming to the point where there was no order in which anybody asks so Flynn grinned as he saw ninety percent of the guys took drinks and that included Jace and I.

"Seems our new bro here isn't quite the same person we were thinking of." One of the guys patted Jace on the shoulder and all Jace could do was look down at the ground. It was quite dark out but I knew well enough that he was probably blushing like mad right now.

The shisha pipe came around to everyone, there were about three but most people weren't using them so I had one to myself. This one was mint flavoured and I watched as the glass container full of boiling water bubbled a little as I moulded my lips around the mouth piece and sucked in a long breath. A few moments passed and I exhaled it all out. My head felt cold the same way my mouth would after I brush my teeth and it felt refreshing.

"Never have I ever... had sex in a toilet stall of a club." I smirked and I looked to Flynn who was the only one to reach his hand out and grab a shot glass. If he could act like a bitch to me, I could act like a bitch to him.

"Dude! That's dirty..." A guy yelled while other people commented the same thing, other than Flynn, only one other person took a shot.

A few more never have I ever's were being strewn all over the place and then I cracked a grin as an idea came to mind.

"Never have I ever had sex with somebody whose under the age of fifteen."

Flynn, who had his teeth gritted together, took another shot. All the used glasses were stacked up in front of him and so far, there were about seven. In fact, everyone's had their fair share of drinks. Nobody here has had less than three, judging by the way the game is rolling, it wouldn't be long until everyone's pissed drunk.

"Oh my god, that poor person hasn't even grown pubes or started their period and you're fucking them?" Josh exclaimed to Flynn who flipped him the middle finger.

"F**k off man, I was fourteen." Flynn hissed and crossed his arms over his chest. I smirked to Flynn who looked rather uncomfortable, he told me that secret a while ago. It was his first time.

Doesn't that make me just as bad though, if I'm giving him questions that I really shouldn't?

Meh.

"Never have I ever had been with someone while seeing another person." Jace, who had been awfully silent, said. I watched his eyes follow my hands as they reached for a shot glass, I wasn't the only one to reach my hand out though, a few other people including Flynn did so too.

Jace shook his head in disapproval, I think I was the only one to notice though. I gulped, I've really fucked up, haven't I?

The game went on and I was just silent for the rest of it, I wasn't even talking to Jace, or anybody else here. Damn it, of course Jace would catch on, how could I think that he wouldn't? He's far too clever. I'm such an idiot, I should've just lied.

I wanted nothing more than to just leave, go back home and hide under my blankets. I'd have to explain myself to Jace though at some point, he has to know.

The game passed quickly and then everyone just sat in their places and talked, Flynn was engaged in a conversation with some of the plus one's and I decided that now was a good time to have a little chat with Jace. He was slumped next to me, not talking or anything. He was in his own world.

"Jace." I whispered, as if I could be heard over the music while talking normally anyway.

"What." He said rather than questioned, his shoulders were slumped over and his head was facing down at the ground as if the grass was the most interesting thing in the world.

"Can we talk?" I took his hand in mine but he just left his hand limply, not even holding mine properly.

"Sure." He started standing up and I followed suit, without grabbing too much attention, we went back into the forest, back to the tree stump I was sat at earlier.

"So..." I trailed off as I sat down on the stump, making some room for Jace. He plopped down next to me with his hands in his lap.

"How long? How many times?" He whispered, his voice slightly cracking at the end.

"The first time was when I saw you in the music room with your mate. You both looked so touchy with each other and I came to the wrong conclusion," I murmured guiltily. It was eating me up on the inside, "I was so upset the rest of the day and well, Flynn was there for me and we kind of started kissing."

Then he chuckled. And it was a heartwarming but weak chuckle that made me whole. It made me remember how much Jace truly did make me feel better; just seeing his happy face makes my day so when we actually kiss and talk, I'm literally over the moon.

"How far did you go?" He fiddled with his fingers and played with a bracelet he was wearing on his wrist, he was once again, eerily quiet.

"That day we just got to first base but while I was not able to go over and see you, I went over to his house and we got to third base." I swallowed. I turned my head to see Jace looking uncomfortable, he had this grimace on his face and his fists were clenched, I continued talking, "It's not entirely his fault, I was the one who kept crawling back to him."

"How many times?"

"Quite a lot..." I gulped and brought my hand to the back of my neck. "I can't give you an exact number."

"I just thought, that you know, you loved me." He mumbled the last part.

"I do, but I didn't realise it then. It was two whole weeks and I guess I felt lonely, and horny. Very very horny." I snickered weakly to myself, "also, it was eating me up on the inside that you didn't want to do anything past kissing but I wasn't going to force you."

"Did you not realise we were seeing each other at the time? Did you just forget about me?" Jace suddenly said loudly, I realised the conversation wasn't being taken as lightly as I thought It was going. "What the hell, man? I just think that you should've thought about the long run."

"I.. I'm sorry?" I muttered and let my hands sit in my lap and I kept my head down, I don't think I could meet his eyes.

Jace took a deep breath, and exhaled, "I don't know."

"You don't know what?"

"I don't know what to do!" He exasperated.

"Forgive me? Please, I can't loose you again, it kills, literally, okay? It frickin' hurts." I finally met his eyes, blue orbs that were glazed over with a dark colour. Tears were rolling down his cheeks and it felt like somebody had just kicked me in the gut.

"...And then you wanted to give me your bracelet? Are you kidding me? I don't even know how committal you are."

Wow.

Is this what... Is this what it felt like when mum and dad used to argue a lot? Is this what it felt like when Molly had an argument with her mum about her sexuality?

It definitely feels like the time Liam and I argued, or the time Jace left me at the carnival.

It's like you're heart suddenly jolts and it speed up until it's hurts, until it's practically unbearable.

"Jace, please don't tell me you're going to leave me again. I can't handle that." I choked and tried taking his hand in mine, he didn't exactly complain but he didn't comply either. He just left his hand sitting limply in mine once again.

"I'm not going to leave you again." He murmured, "I understand that you might've felt lonely, who am I to complain? We were even officially seeing each other?" He started saying the last part jokingly, with a small chuckle, as if he was trying to fake that he was okay.

"I don't know, that was I was wondering too but then I realised it doesn't exactly matter because I do regret it and I care about you more than I care about myself or anything else in the world." I rambled, I had only just realised that my thumb was subconsciously tracing circles on his hand the whole time.

"Ohh...." He cooed out and finally held my hand properly. "I just want you to know that I still don't know about how committal you are but it's just a bump in the road, we'll see."

I nodded my head vigorously, I will make it up to him.

"I promise I'll make it up to you." I smiled weakly.

"You're so sweet." He smiled and shuffled closer to me, bringing my arm around him and wrapping his arms around my waist, snuggling up to my shoulder.

"I am so not sweet." I defended and spat the word out.

"You are." He muttered. I just rolled my eyes even though he wasn't able to see the action and smiled to myself.

We were actually going to be okay, and I was satisfied even when he still has a silver of doubt about me and my commitment because anything is better than nothing. I didn't want him to leave me again.

I'll make it up to him. I'll prove to him that I can be committal.