When Jace came over to my house that evening, we spoke more about dreams and aspirations and weirdly enough, it's made me want to think more optimistically. Jace had always been optimistic, even through the downfall of his father and the bullying with Camellia. I admired that quality, Jace was incredible, he was strong, and each sentence that poured out of his mouth just sucked you in, it's like listening to those motivational people over and over again.

So it's made me actually want to look into UCL more and universities that are just as good, if I get a letter back telling me that I haven't been able to get meet the expectations then fine, I can try again for another.

So when I spend an entire evening stuck up in my room, on my laptop with a notepad by my side and the brochures of each uni opened up on the Internet, I lost all track of time. It was two in the morning when I checked my watch and it was a school day.

Crap.

Sluggishly, I got up out of my spinning desk chair and let out a huge yawn and brought my fingers to my neck, prodding at it and trying to massage it. You can only look at a computer for so long before your eyes sting and your neck aches.

Saturday came along soon enough and I was feeling a little too excited for the bonfire later on, hanging out with my fellow bros was going to be great, no, it was going to be epic. We'd bring drinks, alcoholic and non alcoholic and a load of shisha and just mess around and have fun.

Liam wasn't eighteen yet so he couldn't buy alcohol but he did buy some shisha flavours that he hid in his room for times like this; some other guys were going to bring the pipes and the charcoal.

I stood in front of my mirror and straightened out my black shirt and chinos, admiring how on point my hair was, seriously, it looked on point and I couldn't get over it. I played around with it more, until I heard my bedroom door creak open only for Liam to make an appearance. He told me that Jace was here and from the mirror, I could see him open the door wider to allow Jace to fit through. To say Jace looked yummy would be an understatement, he was absolutely delectable.

He grinned and shoved me out of the way of the mirror, only to check himself out, by the big fat grin plastered on his face, I guess I wasn't the only one excited for the evening. Liam closed the door behind him as he left and Jace jumped top on me, I didn't have long to exactly prepare myself so I fell back on the bed and tried to pry him off me but the guy was like a leech.

He was dressed in a pair of black jeans and a casual t-shirt that had a rather graphic word on it; seriously, I don't know how he was even allowed out the house with it on. He pecked me on the lips and I attempted to deepen it but he pulled away and got off me, telling me that we should probably leave now and that I should stop checking myself out because I already look mighty fine.

"You don't have tell them we're together you know." I said, answering a question that I thought over a thousand times since last Wednesday when he asked me it. Jace didn't mind coming out to my friends, he told me that as long as I trust them, he trusts them.

"I know, same for you, to my friends, if you ever, you know..." He scratched the back of his neck, "Ben knows though, he's clever and he's as happy as Larry about it."

"He's happy?" I cocked a brow as I picked up a hoodie. Wasn't Ben fending Jace and warning me if I ever break his heart just a few days ago?

"Mm hm, he told me though that if Flynn ever bugs me about it then I should tell him."

"Why would Flynn bug you about it?" I snorted, "I'm already yours."

"I know." He said, dismissing my question and blushed at my last comment.

The park wasn't far from us and given the fact that we'd probably be drinking, the best idea was to walk it there. Liam walked ahead, his glow in the dark shoe laces visible a few metres away. I brought him those laces a while ago.

It was a twenty minute walk which, in this weather, I didn't mind. Jace just spoke to me the whole time and the time passed quickly. I could see a fire at the back of the park and few guys yelling and shouting as they all (really badly) sang along to the lyrics of Kesha's Tick Tok. Yup, that's how's you know that's them.

"LIAM." Someone yelled as he and Liam ran to each other with their arms open wide, it kind of looked like those cliche romantic movies where they meet each other halfway and kiss it out. I had to stifle my laugh.

As Jace and I reached the guys, and with the fire casting a warm glow around the area, I was able to see that we were kind of late and that all of Torvux were there already, including Flynn. Some people I didn't recognise and I guessed those were the plus one's that Calvin said we could bring.

"Hey guys." I smiled and waved at them all, even gave some of them fist bumps and bro hugs. "This is-"

"Jace. Hey." He introduced himself and intwined his pinky with mine. "I'm Zach's boyfriend."

The guys, that were now huddled in front of us were practically speechless. I mean, I guess they would be since its like a slap in the face. They didn't move at all, no, they didn't even breathe.

"It's just... So weird." Ryan said, "like, I don't know if I can get used to it." The guys all muttered agreements.

I snickered and slapped his shoulder, "you gonna have to get used to it."

"Don't get me wrong, I'm not against it. It's just, so new to see." Calvin stated, then looked at Jace, "Hey, I'm Calvin." He stuck his hand out and Jace shook it shyly.

"That's Josh, Kyle, Mark, Pete, Jack, Harry, Flynn..." Calvin trailed off, naming everyone here as if Jace would remember more than fifteen in one go.

Jace lifted his hand up again awkwardly and waved before stuffing them deep into his pocket, some of the guys turned around, some starting preparing the shisha and others just scrutinised Jace as if they're ticking the boxes of Jace meets the requirements. Requirements of what?

I pulled Jace's hand out of his pocket and intwined it with mine, they were a bit clammy and I reckon he was nervous. The rest of the guys that were silently judging him started walking back to the bonfire and I looked to Jace and gave him a small peck on the cheek as if it will make him less nervous.

We both walked to the fire and plopped down on the ground, a few guys came to sit down with us with three packs of beer and I took two bottles out of it and handed popped the cap open. Jace muttered a thanks before taking it and drinking a quarter of it in one go.

"So uh, how long has it been?" One guy from Torvux asked.

"Since?" I asked.

"Since you've been gay." He answered and I honestly felt like facepalming myself a thousand times, if not more.

"Since I've been born, idiot." I snickered to him, he just rolled his eyes and punched my arm gently.

"You mean when did he realise it." Jack deadpanned. Jack was one of the guys who came out as questioning when I came out as gay.

"Uh, yeah." The other person let out a small chuckle.

"When I was twelve." I answered.

"Eleven for me." Jace said and I glanced to him and smiled.

"How'd you know?" He asked and these are one of the times when I really look deeply into what I'd answer with, how did I know? Everyone gathered round the bonfire, eavesdropping into the conversation, God, I really hated being in the limelight and yet, here I was.

"It's like you know you like girls and you don't see anything attractive about other genders. For me, it's different because I'm pansexual and I don't look at what someone has but instead I look at them for who they are." Jace explained an drummed his fingers rhythmically to the beat of the Katy Perry. "I admire people's qualities, not what part they have or don't have."

"What is it you see in Zach?" The guy let out a chuckle and I thwacked him over the head. The other guys laughed along and I just glared at them all, but my glare wasn't really that scary so they carried on laughing.

"Zach," Jace looked to me and smiled, "he's just, he's... Caring, down to earth, considerate-"

Cue the laughing.

"Wait, really?" One guy snickered and Liam flicked his forehead before going back to blowing from the green mouthpiece of his shisha pipe. I could smell the watermelon flavour from here.

"Yes really," Jace let out a weak chuckle and took my hand in his, "he doesn't care about his rep or my rep either, I'm not exactly the most popular person, right? Nah, I'm usually just glued to the music room and my guitar..."

"Oh!" Tyler said, "I've seen your gigs in town! You're awesome, man."

"Thank you." Jace smiled at him and reached over to grab another bottle of beer.

Calvin slapped his thigh and slung an arm over his friend's shoulder. "Let's play a game of truth or dare. If you refuse to do either, you have to take off an item of clothing."

"Oh god." Liam winced, "that didn't end up well last time."

"Yeah, that's because you got pissed drunk before we even started the game and ended up running down the road in just your boxers." A guy chortled.

My mind conjured up the memories that were shoved to the back of my mind, that was not a pretty sight to see. He was very secretive about everything then and refused to give any information away that could possibly shatter his rep. When we play games, we play them properly; there's no messing around or silly questions being thrown about.

"I'll start," Calvin grinned and placed a Jack Daniels bottle on top of a crate that we were all circled around. He spun it and everyone anxiously waited, hoping the top of the bottle doesn't land on them. It stopped at Liam and Calvin let out this laugh that was pretty unnerving. "Liam, truth or dare?"

Liam contemplated his answer and looked Calvin dead in the eye as he spoke. Calvin liked to give the most difficult truths or dares out. "What did you think of me when you first saw me?"

Liam smirked, "controlling, mean and competitive."

"Gee thanks." Calvin's adam's apple bobbed as he gulped some beer down.

Liam spun the bottle and it was silent as it kept spinning, the only audible thing was the music playing from the speakers of one the guys' cars that were nearby. It was now playing some overplayed Fall Out Boy tune.

"Jack, truth or dare?"

"Dare."

Liam rubbed his hands together and had this conniving look plastered on his face, I did say that we didn't play easy. "I dare you to snog Aaron, since you're both questioning and best friends, why don't I help you out?"

Jack shrugged and turned to Aaron who was sat next to him. Jack seductively licked his top lip and bit the bottom, Aaron winked and bit his lip. They edged closer to each other and darted both their tongues out, Jack playfully twirled his tongue around Aaron's and then he shoved it into his mouth and full blown, made out with him. Damn, to say I wasn't the least bit turned was an lie. I watched as Aaron wrapped his hands around Jack's slim waist as he took him into the small hole that was made by crossing his legs, both parties fought and dominated and there was a huge sexual tension between them that I wouldn't doubt them doing all of this again when they're alone maybe later on.

Guess they're not questioning anymore.

"OK WE GET IT." One guy yelled and ripped Jack away from Aaron. They broke out into laughter and seductively bit their lips and winked as if to tease each other.

Jack reached over to the crate and spun the bottle, I grabbed Jace's hand and felt that it was no longer clammy, I rubbed circles on his thumb and he dropped his head down so that it rested on my tricep, his head felt nice there, like it belonged. He wore his contacts instead of his glasses today so he didn't have to worry about the rims of the glasses hitting my arm.

"Truth." A guy that I didn't know the name of, said.

"What celebrity would you go gay for?" Jack asked and the guy brought his left hand to his chin.

"David Beckham." He laughed and reached over to take his turn. The song in the background changed to a more melodic one, "Haz, Truth or Dare?"

Harry, or 'Haz' bit his bottom lip as he though about his answer, "dare."

The game went on, the sky was now a dark shade of blue, almost black. The only source of light was the fire that casted a glow far enough for everyone to still be able to see each other clearly and the headlights of the car that was being used for music.

The bottle landed on Jace after Flynn had spun it, almost like he pushed it just enough to make sure it lands on either one of us. He grinned as he asked Jace whether he wanted a truth or dare and tried to urge him to pick truth.

"Fine, Truth." Jace rolled his eyes and lifted his head up from its resting place on my arm.

"Have you gone all the way with Zach?" Flynn smirked as he looked at his uncomfortable Jace looked. Jace looked to me with his brows knitted together and the look of a lost puppy on his complexion.

"Dude, don't be an ass!" I yelled out to Flynn and made a move to get up and give him a well deserved punch in the face but Jace pulled me back down to the ground and intwined his fingers with mine.

"You have to answer it." Flynn smirked to Jace.

"Damn you." Liam said to Flynn, momentarily stopping his intake of shisha through the mouthpiece and flipping him the bird. Flynn seemed unfazed and waved off the rude but well deserved comment.

Jace drummed his fingers against his knee before taking off his shoes. "Pass, my sex life is none of your business." He spun the bottle and it landed on one of the highers. The higher, whose name was Mark, agreed to do a dare and I whispered to Jace that he should probably give him a really good dare because he never turned down a challenge.

"I dare you to put two cups of that ice down your pants." Jace pointed to the cooler that was filled with ice to keep the beer cold.

Mark smirked as he stood up from the ground and walked over to the cooler, grabbing a large bowl that once had some crisps in it but was now empty, "this okay?"

Jace nodded and then we all stared at Mark scoop up some ice to fill the bowl to the brim and pull at the waistband of his black joggers, he chucked the ice in and winced, jumping around like his ass was on fire. A minute passed and Jace said that he could take it out so he shook his legs until all the ice cubes fell out. Mark commented on how 'awesome and daring' my boyfriend was and everyone clapped, causing Mark to cockily bow and mutter a string of thank you's while waving his arm round in small circular motions.

Mark spun the bottle and it landed on Flynn, funnily enough, it's like he planned it that way.

"Truth or dare, Hopper?"

"Dare." Flynn answered cockily and crossed his arms over his chest.

"I dare you to kiss Ben when you see him next week." Mark grinned as he watched Flynn contemplate his answer; Flynn kissing Ben would be like a death trap. If I knew Mark well enough, I'd know that he was taking revenge on Flynn for backing Jace into a corner earlier.

"Pass." Flynn said, taking off his shirt and putting his abs full on show. I saw the way Kyle kept his eyes glued to his torso as if it were a piece of ham.

"Bro, don't be a pussy." Someone laughed, Flynn gritted his teeth.

"I'm not going to kiss that c**t."

The guys all just laughed more and continued on with the game. A few more rounds later, mostly everyone had a go, it was only me and a few others who had yet to do a truth or dare and anxiously waiting as the bottle spins was like waiting for your order at McDonald's while your tummy is rumbling or something like that. A lot of people had their shirts or pants off or both because they passed their turn, Jace was left in his boxer briefs (because Flynn kept making the bottle land on him) and Liam was in his boxers and a t-shirt.

"Jace," Flynn asked as the bottle spun his way, again, by the same person. "Truth or dare."

"Dare."

"Come here and give me a smooch." A few guys chorused cuss words. Flynn was acting weird, I haven't been mean to him, ever. Except for punching him of course but there's an obvious reason why I did it. Perhaps the alcohol was causing him to act up, he's drank more than everyone here, and although I've seen him drunk on a few occasions, it's never been like this.

"No way, I'd probably get herpes." Jace snorted and cross his arms.

"Aw, come on, one kiss, otherwise you'd have to take your boxers off." Flynn crawled over on all fours to where Jace was sat next to me. He looked to me with that lost puppy look in his eyes and with a gulp, I nodded and I didn't even know why.

Jace pounced on him and started kissing his lips tentatively, trying to not go too far. A lump formed in my throat and I choked back tears. This was so messed up. Jace was barely giving Flynn a kiss, they were merely brushing their lips together but it still shot through me like a million bullets, slowly killing me on the inside. Is this even normal?

"If I do this you have to snog Ben." Jace said loud enough for everyone here to hear. Flynn rolled his eyes and muttered an agreement before swooping in and pushing Jace down on the grass, hoisting himself up by his hands that had all his weight on them and were resting on top of Jace's shoulders, effectively stopping him from moving.

Flynn took the opportunity to deepen the kiss, shoving his tongue in Jace's mouth while Jace helplessly tried shoving him away, Flynn was much too strong for that too happen.

I gulped, but was frozen in my spot with my jaw slacked to the grass. Flynn banged Naomi, fine, but he's touching my Jace and just won't do. I stood up with all the strength I could muster and felt the urge to give Flynn another punch as if the first one wasn't a warning enough but my feet thought differently and I found myself walking away from the sticky situation, just like that. Fury coursed through my veins and my head spun, replaying the image as walked out the circle we had formed and kicked a can hard enough for it to fly more than a few metres high in the air.

"You f**ker." I heard Jace seethe with a frightening amount of venom laced in his voice. I turned around slightly to see his teeth gritted together. Jace stood up and matched Flynn's tall frame. He wiped his lips with the back of his palm and gave him one hell of an uppercut, causing the prick to double over and fall to the floor with a loud thump.

He deserved worse.