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Namjoon. My Namjoon. The love of my life. My other half. My husband. My best friend.

He's gone.

I can't breathe, I can't eat, I can't sleep. I don't want to live anymore.

But I don't have a choice. I have another life in me. I have to take care of it. I can't just give up on our child, can I? Namjoon would be heartbroken if I did. But where is he?

Where are you, baby? Are you holding up okay? Are you hurt? Will I ever see you again?

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At that thought, I burst out in tears. Again. This feels like the billionth time since he disappeared. I can feel strong arms around me and a voice begging me to calm down. That smell. It's Jungkook. I lean into his arms for comfort, but it doesn't come. It's more tears instead.

I hear two other voices. They are talking about me and they sound worried. They are approaching and someone squats in front of me. It's my boss. He looks as pale as usual and he is looking at me with his tired eyes.

"You should eat something," he says in a soft voice.

I just nod. That's all I can do, honestly. I don't have the energy, nor the will to talk or do anything at all. I just want my husband.

"You can't go on like this, Nari. You have to feed the baby at least. It's been three days and you barely ate or drank anything!" Soha said, exasperated.

Three days.

Three whole days without seeing him, without his touch, without hearing his voice. I miss him so much.

"Nari!" Soha snaps.

"Don't stress her out, she is already going through enough." Yoongi defends.

"She could lose the baby! You'll end up with nothing, no baby, no husband! Stop being stupid-"

"Soha!"

There is a silence, then I hear Soha storm out of the room. That's when I feel tears falling down my face again. What would I do without my husband? I wouldn't even be able to take care of a child. Our child.

I look down at my stomach and put my hand on it. I can't let you down either, that would make me a bad mom. And a bad wife. Namjoon would be so disappointed and sad if he comes back and you're not here anymore...

I turn to Yoongi and he smiles at me as he is wiping my tears away.

"She's right, you know. I should take care of myself and my child. I wouldn't want Namjoon to come back to a dead baby."

"You'll both be fine, don't worry. But you do need to eat."

I nod and he asks "what do you want to eat?"

"Anything, I don't care."

"What do you mean, anything? You can't eat just anything, Nari. Stop being so f**ing selfish. You need to eat right for him to be healthy as well."

Yoongi and I look up at Soha who was entering the room followed by Jungkook. When did he leave my side? I was so focused on my pain that I didn't notice much around me. The Truth is, it's been like this for the whole three days.

Yoongi rolls his eyes and I just give them a questioning look.

"Him?" I ask her, completely out of it.

"The baby, it's a boy I can sense it. Anyway, I asked Jungkook to get some food. He'll go get some plates. You have to eat everything, okay?"

I nod in silence. I did notice that her tone was sweeter this time. I'm so sorry to everyone for acting this way, but I can't help it. My husband is missing and I don't know what's happening to him. Is he being tortured? Is he... dead?

No, no, no! I can't keep thinking like this. This jerk wouldn't kill him that easily. He's probably been waiting for this moment his whole life, he won't just end it like this. He talked about games and such. That means he will contact us soon.

"Noona."

I look up at Jungkook and he is watching me with such sad eyes, it makes me want to cry again.

"I'm sorry."

"What are you sorry about, baby? None of this is your fault."

He looks away and I know he is crying too. I've been selfish, haven't I? All his loved ones have been suffering like that, but they still came over to show me their support. But I only cared about myself and my pain.

It hurts so much, though. How can I think about anyone else? He is all I care about right now! My husband, my best friend, my other half.

Namjoon, baby, please hang in there. We'll find you soon.

I don't think I have any more tears left. And I feel so tired. My head is killing me. What time is it? What day is it? How many days have passed since this monster has taken me?

I hope Nari is okay, I hope our child is okay. My family, Jungkook... I hope everyone is okay. But I miss my wife so much. I can't even call her. He took everything from me in an instant.

One moment I was on my way to the bookstore and the next, I was in bed, in a room I have never seen in my life- wait, no, I received a call first. But I can't seem to remember who it was or what they wanted...

Anyway, all my belonging were gone and I was wearing clothes that weren't mine. I'm still wearing them, actually. Brown pants and a black shirt. No shoes. The clothes seem new and it's designer. Well, I noticed that since I have nothing better to do anyway.

When I first woke up here, I did a lot of crying and screaming, but nothing happened. I received food from a hole in the door. I don't even know who brought me that food, was it him? And it was good food, nothing like what they give to hostages in movies.

At first, I refused to eat, but at some point, I was starving so much that I had no choice. Was it the fourth plate? It was pasta and steak. And the portion was rather decent too even if it was drugged.

I remember falling asleep a few minutes after eating and drinking a whole 2 litters bottle of water. When I woke up, everything was gone. And I was wearing a new set of clothes. A navy Burberry pair of pyjamas. That psycho is obviously rich.

But this time, I woke up in new clothes again. White sweater and white pants. Luxury brand clothes again? This time I'm wearing Chanel. I don't know why he bothered with all this, but he is weird for doing so. Or maybe these are his clothes? They seem new, though. Did he go shopping especially for me? Ok, that's creepy. I don't even want to think about what it would imply if that was true.

I look around the room for what feels like the billionth time. No window, the walls are all white and the bed is all white as well. It's huge and comfortable. The sheets have been changed once since I've arrived. And the temperature magically changes every time I'm too cold or too hot. That means he is watching me. But what does he want from me? Why is he doing all this? Will he ever let me go? Will I ever see my wife again? And our kid... I feel tears falling down my face once again.

Nari, baby, I'm so sorry I let you down. I promised I would be careful, but I let my guard down. I miss you so much, I hope you're taking care of yourself and our child. I hope you're not crying too much.

I close my eyes to keep any more tears from falling. I've done enough crying, I need to think about a way to get out of here. I stand up and start really looking around.

Let's start with what I know. He is watching me and listening too. It sounds creepy, but it also makes sense. He wouldn't leave me here without any means of knowing what I'm up to. And he always delivers food when I'm awake. Also, he doesn't let me use the bathroom for more than five minutes. After the time is up, he activates some type of heat, making it unbearable to stay in there.

So yes, he is watching.

"What do you want?" I ask, speaking loud enough for him to hear.

I can't see any cameras, but then again, he knows very well how to hide them. He did so at Nari's house after all.

"Tell me what you want, why am I here?!" I scream.

Still nothing. I sigh, then I start walking back and forth in the huge room. I know he'll answer. I just don't know when. I don't know what he is waiting for nor what he is planning. He must be enjoying the power he has over me right now. He wants to show me that he is the one in charge. He wants to see me lose my mind, but I won't give him the pleasure.

Let's see... if I was him, why would I do all this? Why would I go through all this trouble just to meet the person who looks like me? The person I hate so much, the person who married the woman I've been obsessed with since my teenage years?

If I want to think like him, I have to go way back. But I don't know anything about him! Wait, that's not true. I know a few things, plus, the analysis the profilers made is rather accurate. Why don't I use those?

I find a spot and sit down, then I close my eyes as if I'm meditating. Let him think that I am.

I started feeling like I was being followed almost a year ago, right after a photo of Nari and I was leaked. But he started the killings since we were teenagers, I think around the year I became active as a rapper and songwriter online. Then I made my debut and nothing major happened to me or Nari until now.

But I guess he was watching us all this time since he killed everywhere I went. Also, his victims bored an incredible resemblance to Nari. I think that's an important piece of the puzzle. Is he obsessed with both of us then? He obviously is, he had installed cameras in her house after all. He'd also contacted her as she started investigating his murders. He contacted me too, but only once before the call a few days ago.

The profilers did say that his end game could be Nari, and I think they're right. I mean, he is been obsessed with her from the beginning. He left her messages on the crime scene, he even went into her house more than once. What does he want from her? Does he have romantic feelings towards her? Is he trying to get rid of me so he could be with her?

No, he wouldn't be treating me like this if that was his plan. He would be torturing me right now. Though, I'm not so sure anymore. He did follow me for years and he could have reached out to me, but he didn't. That means he is patient and meticulous. He is also organized. He sets up a plan and follows through.

That's even worse. A meticulous killer is scarier than a mere killer.

Something else I noticed is that he seems to know everyone on the case. During that video call, it felt like he knew them personally. The way he addressed Yoongi hyung and also that prosecutor...

Wait.

Has he been following them all? How would he do that? Unless he can be everywhere at the same time? Did he use those devices Jungkook uses to track us? Or maybe he has accomplices? That would make so much sense! But who would that be?

So many questions without any answer and it's frustrating. I keep having this feeling, like I'm missing something.

What am I missing?

"Are you sure no one followed us?" Yoongi asks as he is looking around.

I roll my eyes.

"No, now talk. What did you find out?"

Yoongi sighed and ran his fingers through his dark hair. He is so hot, and he is my boyfriend. Sometimes, I have a hard time believing it myself.

Okay, Soha focus.

"We narrowed down the list of suspects, and I'm afraid they are part of your team."

My heart skipped a few beats.

"What?! Who in team 3 would ever-?"

"Shhht babe, calm down. We don't know that yet."

Damn it, now I feel nervous. And pissed. But mostly nervous. This is bad. If the killer has an accomplice among us, then Nari isn't safe. None of us is.

"Fine, then how did you find out?" I finally ask him.

He takes out his phone and presents it to me. I can see a picture of the precinct taken from an angle from above. Actually, it's a video.

"What is it?"

"Just watch. Hoseok and I had Jungkook put up a special camera on one of the monitors a few days ago and this is what was recorded. The camera is not registered in the system so only the three of us have access to it."

I take the phone from him and press on play. I watch the scene unfold, and I can't help but let out a surprised scream. I shouldn't have, since we are in the downstairs bathroom. If one of the officers walking around the house hears me, they will imagine things. But I just can't believe what I'm seeing. Why would they do that?

"So it's one of these two?"

"We think so."

"What if it's both of them?"

"I don't think so. Jungkook's been tracking their movements and one of them seems to be acting quite strangely..."

"Oh and I'm guessing it's-"

I show him the person on the video and he nods. I sigh and give him back his phone.

"I'm going to kill that b-"

"You won't do anything, Soha. Your mission is to stay by Nari's side and protect her."

"But-"

"Please, baby I'm begging you. Let me take care of this. Plus, she really needs to be watched. Seeing the state she is in, she might do something crazy, like go looking that a**hole by herself."

I can't say more, he just went boss, slash, protective boyfriend on me. I have to agree with what he said, though. This is exactly what I would do if it was Yoongi, and Nari and I are pretty much alike. I nod and he gives me one of his gummy smiles and a quick hug. I swear this guy is killing me. I really want more than a hug, but it's not appropriate. There are more pressing issues right now.

"I'll see you later babe. I love you."

"Right, see you. I love you too."

I watch the door close behind him and I lean against the wall. I'm facing the mirror, so I take a look at my reflection. I'm blushing, of course. I roll my eyes and try to think about something else. A way to cheer Nari up. Is that even possible?

I know for a fact that I wouldn't be able to handle it if something happened to Yoongi and we have been dating for only a few months. I can't even imagine what Nari must be feeling.

Namjoon is her husband who has been her best friend for over twenty years. Of course, she would be devastated. But she can't afford to either. She is carrying their child.

"Urgh, this psycho has the worst timing ever". I murmur as I make my way back to the living room, where Jungkook is still holding Nari in his arms.

I sit right next to Nari and hold her hand. I feel so powerless. This is all I can do. Hold her hand. I wish I could do more, but it's not that easy from here.

A sudden beeping sound breaks the silence in the room and Jungkook jumps from his seat right away. He gets his computer and presses a key. The screen turns on and I can see a map. On the far right of the computer screen, I can see letters and numbers, but I don't understand anything.

"Wh-what's wrong?" Nari asks anxiously.

"He turned on his phone!"

Nari takes the computer from him and focuses on the screen.

"Where is it? What do we do? Does that mean he is alive?"

Jungkook takes his computer back and starts typing faster this time. I have no idea what he is doing, but it seems important.

"Oh, shit!" He suddenly exclaims.

"What now?" I ask as I try to understand what's on the screen. It's useless of course.

"It's turned off again."

Nari's face falls and I think mine too. She is about to cry, so I take her hand in mine.

"But I know this place," Jungkook starts with a frown.

Finally, a ray of hope.

"Noona, this place..." He hesitates as he turns to look at her.

"What?"

"It's... Do you remember the vacation home your dad sold five years ago?"

"Y-yes?"

"You said you used to go there with your mom on week-ends and holidays."

"How do you even remember a house her dad sold so long ago?"

"I just do. Plus, I know everything about noona and hyung," he said matter of factly.

"That's creepy," I murmur.

Jungkook just shrugs and turns back to Nari. She doesn't seem to care about all this. I mean, we're in a bit of a situation here so...

Then again, I shouldn't be surprised by what Jungkook just said. Ever since I met these three, I tried to understand their relationship, but it's hard to comprehend it completely. I know Jungkook is a computer geek and his father and brother run an IT company where he works now by the way, but how can he be so obsessed with knowing everything? How are they all so comfortable knowing Jungkook knows everything about them and their family members?

"What do you mean?" I hear Nari say a bit aggressively.

Did I miss something?

"Noona, calm down. I don't understand either, but it's the only explanation-"

"Do you realize what this means? You're telling me he lives in a house where I spent part of my childhood with my parents? So he was the one who bought that house? Why would he- how- it's not a coincidence is it? So he's been preparing for all this all along? Why? Why me? Why us?"

She is getting hysteric. She's crying again. She looks so scared, I've never seen her like this. Nari is usually so strong, but today... Oh God, when will this all end?

"Noona, calm down. This is actually a good thing. We'll ask chairman Park about it. We might find out more about our killer."

Nari suddenly goes silent and doesn't move for a good ten seconds. Then she suddenly grabs Jungkook's arm.

"Call him."

"I'll go see him, after Yoongi hyung gets back-"

"We don't have time for that! Just go!"

"But what if something happens?"

"My house is filled with policemen and they're everywhere in the neighborhood! What the f*** could go wrong?!?!"

Jungkook sighs, then he gets up and turns to me.

"Noona, Watch her okay? I won't be long."

I nod and he leaves. Nari sits back and closes her eyes. She looks exhausted, but no surprise there. She's pregnant and she has no idea where her husband is or if he's even alive.

I really hope we'll find him.

We have to find him.