Shufflin' different alphabets around

I try to escape every invading sound

Whir of an old engine on back street

Cracklin' embers by hearth and heat

Snowflakes kissin' the window pane

Whistle of a magical Christmas train

For I'm lost in the puzzle in my hand

This soft loneliness, I just can't stand

Winter's been hurtin' me for so long

Is there somewhere, I wish to belong

I see no hope, no glee, not even light

Is this really a new Christmas night?

My mind's blurred by our memories

It's a new year with same old stories

So I've thrown all alphabets in flame

For all I see in them is your...

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