"woah... isn't that a lot?" jisung questioned me as he stood behind me, gesturing over to my laptop.

he probably noticed the tabs.

numerous tabs about dreams and fate were open. we were currently at my house, since i really wanted to dig deeper into this whole...

dream thing that's been going on for months now.

both jaein and jisung agreed on sleeping over.

well, jisung was salty at first, since his girlfriend would be coming

but then i guess jaein smacked some sense into him.

we kept going over websites, blogs, books, and other things just to find if this dream meant something.

an hour passed and finally.

we found something.

technically jaein did, but

we're a team, right?

"it's a website called dream encounters."

jaein told me, "look! a ton of people have been experiencing the same thing as you."

"what does that mean?" jisung questioned as he raised a brow.

"dream encounters happens whenever you get your heart terribly broken. it could be about break up, friendship, loss, or the death of someone dear to you."

the last one caught my attention. i felt my heart ache.

i miss hana

i'm allowed to miss her, right?

but, am i also allowed to move on from her?

can i do that?

i promised to love her and only her...

but, now i'm not so sure anymore.

"yah, chenle, you're dozing off." jisung nudged me.

i shake my head, "i'm sorry, it's nothing."

jaein eyed me, "it's about hana, isn't it?"

i sighed and nodded. "does it show?"

jaein nodded as well, "don't ever feel guilty for catching feeling for someone new again, chenle."

"hana would understand if you started loving someone else."

i felt my cheeks heating up, "what? i didn't say anything about loving haerin!"

"defensive, but okay." jaein rolled her eyes.

jisung snickered, "whatever floats your boat, chenle."

i huffed and crossed my arms, "how would you know i love her?"

jisung raised both of his hands in the air, "you keep talking about her for like more than a month now!"

"so?" i lifted a brow.

"you're also so dedicated to this whole 'i'm gonna see her in person' thingy." he said, mocking my voice.

i glared at him, "i do not sound like that!"

"you do." he stuck a tongue out.

i rolled my eyes again, averting my attention elsewhere, "whatever."

meanwhile, jaein just shook her head at how childish we were arguing. "some people here have stated that the person in their dreams represented that special person you just lost..."

i gave her a look.

well,

haerin kinda does have some similarities with hana.

maybe that's explain the weird attraction i got when i first met her.

but no.

i don't think i love haerin just because she reminds me of hana.

that's just disrespectful to haerin.

i love haerin for who she is.

she makes me happy,

she makes me want to live life again happily,

she makes realize that life is worth living

she showed me the true meaning of love.

love

is

pain

i love her even if i can't see her in person.

i love her even if it's only in my dreams.

but that's why i'm doing this.

i'm going to find her.

and tell her...

i love her

in person.

i dream of her,

because we are fated to each other.

i dream of her,

because fate decided

to mend my broken heart

after what happened with hana

i'm bound to meet her.

i have to meet her.

because i love her,

i want to show her how much i love her even outside our dream land.

haerin's right,

when you're in love,

you do things just for that person

even if it seemed impossible to someone