(im sorry if there are any spelling or grammar errors, but i honestly dont have the energy to fix them. im writing this because i got inspiration from something that happened with a friend, and if they could actually do this, then i can write it to someone who'll never see it. it means a lot to me. anyway, im kinda sad rn, so yeah, enjoy)

hi

i dont miss you

i dont want you

okay, i lied

i wish you were here for me

to finally say goodbye to

i want to know

i want to feel

i want to finally understand

i want closure

i want so many things from you

things ill never get

should i hate you?

yes.

i absolutely should.

you fucked me up

you made me attached to you

you made me believe you'd stay

you made me think you wanted me

loved me

but did you stay

did you want me?

did you ever love me?

i don't know.

i wish i had answers.

i want to hate you

for breaking me

but i cant.

just cant.

i want to wish you were happy

but can i do that either?

no

no i cant.

i do not love you anymore

i dont want to love you

but for once in your goddamn life

why did you have to lie?

run away?

why must you leave me to hurt?

to die inside?

to wish i could die outside?

i am now empty

completely

utterly

empty.

empty of tears

empty of hate

empty of sadness

empty of happiness

empty of smiles

empty of answers

but full of memories

full of guilt

full of regret

full of confusion

full of questions

full of broken shards of glass

twisting their way in and out of my insides.

you were bullshit

all you did

all you said

was bullshit.

but all i want from you now

is answers.

i have so many whys

so many hows

so many whens, whats, ifs

and some whos

who were you?

who are you?

who was he?

who was I?

who am I?

pointless questions

empty questions

broken promises,

broken words.

fuck you

i wish i could want you to burn

but

with this, i say

i say goodbye

goodbye to you,

but not to your memory

your pain.

goodbye to the love i once had,

but not to the faint wishes i still hold

goodbye to your nothing

your everything

your something.

you're something

you were something

we were

but not anymore

so with this i say

looney-toons-style

that's all folks

we're coming to a close

for the night.