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Chapter 50

I pulled at my hair in frustration as I paced the room back and forth. I bit my lip and let out a troubled sigh, rubbing my hands over my face. I kept walking back and forth as I tried to organize my thoughts, wondering what will I do. I sat on my bed and shut my wolf out because she wasn't any help. She kept telling me to stop thinking and just run out of here and jump Mason.

Dammit, Tiana. Get your thoughts straight!

I was currently an emotional wreck. My feelings flying in different directions, making me confused and frustrated. I kept thinking about Mason, and I was thinking about him to the point where I felt like my head was going to explode. It was just a couple of hours since I saw him and that scene with Kyle, yet I can't seem to get him out of my head.

I wanted to know what we are. And I wanted to know badly! That question kept roaming my head, making me want to know what Mason thought of me. Judging by the way he's acting with me, I felt like he was slowly accepting me. And I didn't have to think twice to say I was accepting him.

Heck. I have feelings for him and I'm not going to deny it. I don't know when I started developing these feelings but they grew over time. Every day I'd want to see him more than the last day. And I was hoping he felt the same way. I mean, he acting sweet towards me and I'm sure he has some kind of feeling for me, but I couldn't stop that feeling of doubt that kept overtaking me.

We're mates and I feel like we can't hide these feelings any longer. Hell. When I first came here I didn't want one, and I was happy that he felt the same. But now, it's quite different. We got closer over the months and I need to know what was going to happen to us. He did say that he'll mark me. He also said that I'm his Luna so I'm sure that means something.

A goofy smile appeared on my face at those thoughts. I was quite afraid of being a Luna, but I'm sure I wouldn't have been destined to be with him if I couldn't handle the part, right? I sighed out and stood up, forcing myself to walk out of the room. It's either now or never. I have to face this sooner or later.

I walked towards my bedroom door and opened it, walking out the room and into the hallway. I slowly and hesitantly walked towards Mason's office. I was so nervous to the point where I wanted to back away and abort the mission. But I mentally fought with myself and forced my feet to make their way towards his office.

It's now or never, Tiana.

I let out a frustrated sigh once I was in front of his office. I ran a hand through my hair to try to calm my nerves down. I can't remember the last time I was all worked up about something. I was about to grab the doorknob, sure that he was in his room because of his scent when I smelt another scent.

I stopped my hand midway and sniffed the air, trying to figure who that scent belonged to. It smelled familiar and I knew I smelled this scent before. I didn't know if the scent was coming from inside Mason's office or if it was just from someone who merely passed his office. I shook my head and placed my hand on the doorknob, turning it and opening the door.

Once the door was wide open, I couldn't help the gasp of shock that escaped my lips. My eyes widened and I felt the tears threaten to escape at the sight in front of me.

Chloe and Mason kissing.

Once Mason heard my gasp, he immediately pushed Chloe away and stood up, staring at me with wide eyes. I stared at them with pure shock and sadness, as I tried to comprehend what I just saw. Mason and Chloe were kissing. They were kissing. But, I thought he felt something for me? I felt my vision blur as I stared at a smirking Chloe and a shocked, guilty Mason.

"Tiana," he gasped. "It's not what it looks like." He pushed Chloe away and ran up to me as I stood by the door. I felt my head pound and my heartbreak. How could he kiss her? I knew we were never official but I thought he had feelings for me. Does he or not?

I stared up at him and took another step back, shaking my head. I closed my eyes to prevent the tears from escaping but a tear fell out of my eyes and roamed down my cheek. I immediately turned around and ran away. Mason was shouting at me to stop and listen to him but I ignored him as I ran towards my room. I heard Chloe calling after Mason as I ran, guessing that Mason was coming after me.

I ran into my room and slammed the door shut, locking it so Mason wouldn't enter. I leaned my back against the wall and slowly sat on the floor, letting the tears fall out. I didn't want to be weak but that sight broke me. I didn't like it. Mason told me that he had nothing to do with Chloe but I guess all along he was lying. Why would he say those nice things to me if he didn't want me?

I placed my head in my hands, feeling the salty tears fall from my eyes. I let out a whimpered cry but sucked in a breath once my bedroom door tried opening but couldn't because it was locked. I heard Mason growl out as he started pounding on my bedroom door.

"Please, Tiana. Open the door. It's not what you thought it was," he begged, banging his fist at my door. I shook my head even though he couldn't see me. I let out another whimper and I placed my head against the wall.

"Leave, Mason," I croaked out. "I don't want to deal with you right now."

"Please, baby. I didn't kiss her. She's the one that jumped on me and before I could push her away, you opened the door," he explained, banging on the door. I scoffed as I felt the tears fall out. Right, like that's what happened.

"Leave," I yelled. "Go away, Mason."

"No. I'm not going away until you open the door and listen to me," he said from behind the door. "Please." I felt my heart fall at his begging voice. I wanted to open the door and listen to him but my stubborn side told me not to. I saw what I saw and I couldn't erase that image from my head. And I couldn't believe I was going to express my feelings to him.

"Leave," I whispered so softly that I wasn't sure he heard. The banging on my door stopped, making me whimper and let the tears fall straight out. I cried into my hands as I heard him walk away, making me want to open the door and call him back.

Soon his footsteps disappeared and I felt more salty tears fall off my chin. I felt empty and lost. I never wanted to feel something like this ever again, I was so afraid but now, I felt like I lost something. My whimpers and cries filled my silent room. I looked up from my hands and stared at my dim, darkroom.

I don't know how long I stayed like that. It felt like hours as I stayed in the same position and let my tears fall as I stared at nothing. I was taken off guard when I heard a knock on my door, making me snap my head towards it. The first thing that crossed my mind was Mason, but the scent that filled my nose told me otherwise. I let out a shaky breath as Lina's voice spoke from behind my door.

"Tiana? What's wrong? I saw Mason and he was an emotional wreck. What happened?" She asked as she knocked on my door. "Open the door, Tiana." I whimpered and shook my head.

"Go away, Lina. I want to be alone," I told her, trying to hide the pain in my voice.

"What? Why? Open the door so we could talk!" She spoke eagerly. "What happened?"

"Lina. I'm not in the mood to talk. Just leave," I said, softly. Her voice disappeared into thin air and everything went silent. I sighed and thought that she took the hint and left, but my eyes widened in shock when something slammed against my door, making a loud sound erupted in the air.

"I will open this door whether you like it or not," Lina yelled as she slammed her body against my door once again. My eyes widened even more and I stood up on my feet and stared at my door shocked. Would she really do that? She slammed her body against my door once again, making me gasp. Yes, she would.

This girl is crazy.

I immediately unlocked the door, not wanting her to break my door. The door swung open and a hard breathing Lina stood behind it. Her eyes widened once she laid eyes on me, guessing she was shocked at my appearance. I bet my eyes were red and puffy. I bet I looked horrible.

"Tiana? Oh my gosh," she gasped and entered my room, pulling me in for a hug. She wrapped her arms around me and so did I. A couple of tears fell out my eyes as she rubbed her hand on my back. "Come here." She pulled me into my room after turning on the lights. I winced at the bright lights and she sat me on my bed. She sat in front of me and grabbed my hand, giving it a tight, comforting squeeze.

"What happened? You and Mason both look horrible," she asked. I frowned and ran my hand over my face. I looked at Lina and she was looking at me with concern, sad eyes. I let out a shaky breath and bit my lip. I sighed out and opened my mouth, explaining everything.

"What?" She shrieked. "He was kissing Chloe?"

I nodded my head and felt my heart drop at the memory.

"I'm going to show that b*tch," she cursed loudly, getting off of my bed and stalked angrily towards my door. My eyes widened and I stood up, grabbing her hand in a tight grip and pulling her back on my bed.

"No, Lina," I whispered. She looked at me like I was crazy and shook her head. "I...I don't want to deal with any of them."

"Did Mason say anything? Did he try to explain?" Lina asked urgently. I sighed and nodded my head.

"Yes. He tried to explain. But I didn't listen to him," I said softly. "He did say that she kissed him and he didn't have time to pull away." Lina's eyes widened and she looked at me like I was crazy.

"And why the hell would you not listen to him? It's clear, she forced the kiss! Mason hates her guts so I know he would never kiss her out of his own will!" Lina explained, giving me a pointed look. My frown deepened and I shook my head, not knowing what to say. I guess I was afraid to listen to him. I didn't know if I should listen to him or not. And I still didn't know. Somethings big in me told me to believe her words and run off to Mason so I could give him a chance to talk. But another thing in me prevented me from doing so and told me that Mason felt nothing towards me. And that broke my heart.

"I don't know, Lina," I whispered, softly. "I don't know what to feel. I feel horrible and I don't want to face him."

Lina sighed out in frustration and ran a hand through her hair. "Dammit, Tiana." She muttered. "Do you like him?" Lina asked me with a straight face. My eyes widened at her question and my mouth hung open.

"Why are you asking that?" I questioned.

"Because I want to hear the answer even though I know it. You guys are mates for goodness sake. You guys should have been mated and having babies from the first moment you saw each other!" She answered frustrated. I bit my lip and nodded my head, giving in.

"Yes. I like him," I whispered. Her eyes widened and she broke out into a huge grin.

"Finally! Someone said it," she yelled loudly. "Now, you will go to Mason and talk things out, ok?" She asked. I immediately shook my head at her.

"No. I don't want to see him."

"Tiana! You're going to drive me crazy!" Lina yelled, getting off of my bed and throwing her hands in the air. I stared up at her but shook my head.

"I can't seem to get that image out of my head, Lina. I can't see him." I then looked down at my hands and she let out a frustrated sigh. I looked up at her and she shook her head at me.

"You both are the most stubborn people I ever met in my life," she muttered and backed away. "Fine. If you don't want to see him and talk things out then ok. It's your choice. But you guys are mates, and mates need to be with each other. You can't run away from this any longer."

And with that, she walked out the door, making my eyes widen. I let out a troubled sigh as I laid on my bed and thought about her words. I felt a tear slip out of my eye as soon as I closed them. I couldn't get Mason out of my head and I wanted him to come to me, but I knew he wasn't going to do that.

I thought of one thing before I fell asleep, and that was how I was going to talk with Mason tomorrow.

I shifted into my human form and I pulled my clothes on me. I sighed out and looked around me, relieved that I was alone. I closed my eyes and laid my back against the tree, closing my eyes and listening to the nature around me. I hummed in comfort as I heard birds chirping. I opened them and looked around the woods, amazed by the beauty.

What happened yesterday caused me stress and made me go crazy. I decided that I was going to go see Mason and finally talk with him, but before that, I had to let my wolf out so I could relax a bit. I ran for a while in the woods and took a break from all the stress. Once I knew that I ran for a long time, I shifted.

I let out another sighed and turned around as I started to walk towards the packhouse. The air around me was calm as the woods were silent. It was so quiet that I could hear my feet crush against the leaves on the ground. I took my time as I walked to the packhouse, trying to organize my thoughts and think of what I was going to say to Mason.

I stopped dead in my track when I heard something behind me, making me turn around and look behind me. I frowned when I saw no one. I looked around me and shook my head, thinking that I was going crazy. I started walking again but stopped when I heard another sound behind me, it sounded like footsteps. I gulped and glanced behind me to see nothing. I turned my head and started speed walking but I was stopped once again when someone placed their hand on my mouth, preventing the scream that threatened to escape.

I was held against a hard body as I struggled to get out of their hold. The hand on my mouth tightened as my eyes widened in fear. I tried to release myself but the hold on me was too strong. The arm that held me against the body tightened as they took a couple of steps back.

I was about to use my angel powers, but my eyes blurred as I felt something hard hit me on my head, making them slowly close on their own behalf from the pain. I tried to keep my eyes open but gave up once the pain engulfed me, making me fall into the darkness.

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