October report: Bella basically stayed in her room staring out the window in despair.

November report: No change.

December report: Nada

January: Nope

Through all her sulking I'm surprised she even had the time to send me email after email.

"You'd promised you weren't going to leave. You're my best friend. I can't talk to anyone anymore. You didn't even say good-bye. Everything is gone. It's like a huge hole has been punched through my chest. But in a way I'm glad, the pain is my only reminder he was real. That all of you were."

I never responded.

It was hard for me. Being alone; given I chose not to leave with the others it was still difficult. I'd get the occasional phone call from the others, but it wasn't for more than a few minutes, it honestly hurt more hearing their voices and not being able to see them. Most nights I would phase and sit below Bella's window. I couldn't get much sleep due to her night terrors. She would wake up screaming bloody murder until Charlie went in and calmed her down. I felt bad for Charlie, I knew this must be hard for him. I felt so guilty I wasn't doing anything to help. But for four months I continued to keep my promise to Edward, watching from a distance.

One random day when she'd come home from school, Charlie was waiting for her. I hid in the trees watching attentively. The look on his face said it all.

"All right. That's it," he shook his head as she shut the door to her truck.

Her face was blank, her new normal resting face was void of any and all emotion, "What?"

"You're going to Jacksonville to live with your mother," he told her.

"I'm not leaving Forks," her small voice told him trying to sound authoritative.

Charlie sighed, "Bells, he's not coming back. They're not coming back."

She looked up at him, "I know."

"It's just not normal," he shook his head, "This behavior. Quite frankly it's scaring the hell out of me and your mother."

"And me too."

Bella tried to convince Charlie that she was excited to be going out with Jessica for a "girls night out". I rolled my eyes knowing damn well she was going to hate every minute of it. As she got ready I found a stupid movie that was playing in theaters and sent it to her using a spam account I'd made. It was a zombie/horror flick which is good cause knowing Bella she wouldn't be able to sit through a romantic comedy or something stupid like that.

Through the window I saw her practically run to her laptop when it dinged but frowned when she saw it was just an ad. Nevertheless she jotted down the movie title and I kept my distance as I followed.

~

I stayed pretty incognito, if I'd had company I probably would've joked about how good a spy I would've made. With my dark clothing and a hood on my head, I practically blended in with everyone else, no one noticed me. The movie was full of gore, it was pretty stupid but I knew it was just the distraction she needed. Call me Big Brother cause I'm always watching. When Bella and Jessica left the theatre I followed keeping a very substantial distance between us. Then again humans are notoriously unobservant, no one would ever notice I was following the pair of them.

I wasn't paying attention to Jessica's rambling about her problems simply due to the fact that she always finds a way to prioritize herself over others. When they'd stopped at the intersection I paused to give them space. Bella was looking off into an alley, and I wondered what it was she was looking at. Slowly I inched forward just so I could see what had caught her attention.

At the end of the ally was a bar and in front of it were a bunch of guys on motorcycles. Why was she staring at them like that? She turned forward again and flinched, I could hear her gasp as if she saw something that shocked her. Jessica came in front of her looking slightly concerned and asking to keep walking.

"I think I know those guys," Bella responded.

"No, you don't."

I thought getting a good look at the sleazy men trying to reign in one of the girls.

"Well they seem great, can we go?" Jessica urged.

Bella hesitated before starting to walk down the ally, "I just wanna see something"

I stifled a small groan as I pulled my hood closer and slid past Jessica without her noticing me, "Go back," I whispered.

Bella jerked her head to the side, I was leaned up against the bar door. But my head was lowered and my hood pulled over, covering the view of my face. Still with my whisper she consciously got on the random dude's bike and they sped off. I watched them go and gave another guy a piercing look when he tried to get me on his bike. He visibly gulped when he saw my eyes and backed down.

They weren't even gone for three minutes, but it was three minutes too many. She promised not to do anything reckless but there she goes putting herself in danger. That seemed to be a running theme.

"I saw you. And him. Maybe I'm crazy now, I guess that's okay. If a rush of danger is what it takes to see the both of you, that that's what I'll do."

Her last email threw me for a loop. So she definitely saw me in the alley. But she saw Edward too. And I know he wasn't there which could only mean she imagined him; I guess that kinda helped me because she thinks she imagined me too. But now she's gonna keep doing these stupid stunts.

A few days after the incident in Port Angeles, I went to check on her at home, and I noticed something hidden in the bed of her trunk. I could hear her talking to Charlie about going to visit Jacob. I took the time to rush the car and see what was hiding under the tarp.

Fucking motorcycles.

They were beat up and old, definitely needed some fixing but that explained why she was going to see Jacob. She was going to ask him to fix them up. While I was annoyed with her because I knew she was only using him to fuel her new hunger for adrenaline so she could see Edward...I felt a bit better she was at least going to see a friend.

I followed her as best as I could while simultaneously staying hidden. It wasn't until that familiar fresh scent wafted my nostrils that I stopped. Bella continued on while I stood there contemplating. The rest of the Cullens had gone, so none of them would know if I'd cross onto Quileute territory. I'm not a vampire so technically I wasn't breaking any treaty as much as Edward and the others would try to hold me back.

And yet I hesitated crossing the boarder. Would following Bella there put me in danger? I hesitated...Nah I'm good. Finally I decided; I was only crossing so I could keep an eye on Bella. I was keeping my promise so none of the others could get mad at me. As a precaution I hid my clothes under some leaves in a tree and phased. I proceeded to follow the scent Bella left behind until I saw it through the trees parked in front of a red house. Behind the house was this little barn where I could hear my bud Jacob working presumably on his car. I hid in the tress which gave me great cover, I crouched as low as my body would let me as I watched Jacob emerge from the barn to meet with Bella.

He gave her a big hug, twirling her around before putting her on the floor. For a moment I actually saw a ghost of happy Bella resurfacing again. Her smile disappeared when Jacob said, "I'm sorry about...that whole thing. I miss Cate if it's any consolation. She's a decent person."

I stopped myself from emitting a whining noise as I watched Bella show him the motorcycles and ask if he'd be interested in fixing them. It was a bad idea, Bella did not contain the durability to be on a speeding two-wheeled motor.

What shocked me a bit more than Jacob agreeing to fix the bikes for her was directly after. Bella was warning him about how heavy the bikes were when he picked one out of the bed of the truck and placed it on the floor as if it weighted almost nothing. I remember back when I first got my motor cycle I picked it up like it was a large teddy bear. But it came with the genes, also given I'd only gotten stronger as the years went by.

"Jacob, you're like....buff. How did that happen?" Bella breathed with a small chuckle, "You're like sixteen I don't get it."

Jacob scoffed before taking the other one out of the truck, "Age is just a number baby. What are you like forty now?" It was clear this was his attempt at flirting but age was a tough subject to bring up around that girl. I flinched.

"Fells like that sometimes," she responded melodramatically.

~

One of the few reasons why I don't like not being able to be seen is lack of social interaction. I couldn't see into the barn but I could hear what was happening. Now, not to brag but I think of myself as pretty handy with some tools. It would've been fun to be able to join in and help work on the bikes but one; the knowledge of why Bella was so adamant about these machines were off-putting, and two; I'm not technically supposed to be on this land let alone seen in town at all.

I ended up zoning out of their pretty boring conversation until I saw two people approaching the barn. One guy had long hair like Jacob while the other's was short but slightly shaggy. Both had Jacob's matching olive-toned skin. I could only assume they were friends of his who lived nearby. Sure enough when they walked in Jacob introduced them as "his boys".

"This is Quill and Embry," he introduced to Bella.

"I'm Quill Ateara," one of the guys told her, his tone was sultry like he was trying to be cool and honestly it was pretty funny, "So the bike building story's true."

"Yeah I taught him everything he knows," Bella responded playfully.

"What about the part where you're his girlfriend?"

Bella breathed a small laugh, "Uh...We're friends...you know."

"Oooh burn!" Embry laughed

"What about that girl Cate you mentioned?"

"Ouch."

I could head Bella's heart beat a bit faster at the mention of my name, and I could feel the sudden tension that erupted from the question.

Jacob stuttered, "Uh...Cate left town."

"So I guess neither of them wanted you huh?" Quil's voice asked his tone teasing.

Bella's voice slightly cracked but I doubt the boys noticed as she quipped, "So you both have girlfriends? That's awesome!"

Jacob laughed, "Quil's actually taking his cousin to prom."

"You want funny Black? I'll give you funny!" I heard shuffling and I could only guess the two guys were wrestling inside.

I shook my head and stood up giving my bones a slight crack as I stretched. I'd had enough playing guard-dog for the day. I trusted Jacob to keep her safe while they were working on the bikes. So I decided it was best I head back to the house. I started running. And I was maybe a mile away from the boarder when I felt them.

They were quick. But obvious. I could sense them immediately and that's when I started running. I couldn't tell what was chasing me right away, all I heard was growling and thumping as their feet hit the ground at a fast pace. Finally I jumped over the riverbed into Cullen territory. My adrenaline went down as I turned back to face Quileute land. I scanned the area and at first there was nothing. The thumping noise had slowed, then they came into view.

There was only two of them. My eyes widened when I saw them in person. They were big. Definitely bigger than me. At first they snarled looking around blindly for half a second before they quickly caught sight of my blinding white fur. Their eyes widened, like they were just as shocked to see me as I was to see them.

"Are they like me? They have to be...I haven't seen wolves that big since..."

I didn't know what to do. The black wolf was standing right on the edge of the treaty boarder staring right at me. Next to him was a wolf with dark brown fur that went darker over his face. The three of us just stared at each other before the brown furred wolf's head went up and he gave a howl into the sky.

I knew that howl. He was signaling others, and I wasn't sticking around to find out how outnumbered I was. Honestly, I was terrified. I'd already gone so long without being discovered and then this had to happen. I sprinted back to where I'd left my clothes hidden and ran home, grateful they were too shocked didn't follow me. I'd barely made it in time to where I felt myself wheezing as I gripped my head roughly trying to calm down. There were more werewolves out there like me. And they lived in the Quileute land.

The treaty.

The Cullens knew about them. And they didn't tell me. THEY KNEW.

I wanted nothing more than to call up Carlisle and Esme and scream at them for keeping it a secret from me. Didn't they think I deserved to know about another tribe like mine? I'd even asked Alice if she knew of any other people like me and she straight up lied to my face! Why would they do that? And Edward! He didn't tell me anything he was just smug about it the whole time, and even gave me a stupid book of their legends for my....

Wait.

The book.

I ran to my room and started skimming through the books on my shelf before my fingers me the leather bound book. I glanced at the cover for a moment before sitting on my bed and cracking it open for the first time.

I sat there for hours. Reading every line and taking everything in, I didn't stop reading till the sun started to rise but by then I'd already read it to its entirety. I closed the book and took a minute, letting what I'd read simmer in my head. There were dozens of legends in the book relating to the tribe. The legend of the "Cold Ones" stuck out and I knew that must have been the story that outed vampires to Bella. But what I focused on were the legends involving the wolves. Reading those stories I wondered how Bella never put together that I wasn't actually a vampire. Then again she wasn't the most observant when it came to someone other than my brother.

Aside from Bella's lack of know-how....there was a pack living not even twenty minutes away from me. And I never knew. At that moment I immediately wanted to go back, I needed to know these people. Maybe explain to them what happened to my pack and even offer to help them in case the vampires that killed my people come for them.

My dumbass was halfway out the door when I saw the time flash on the clock in the kitchen...it was five in the a.m. Not only would I be giving those people a shock when I showed up but I couldn't go when they were sleeping. That might get someone hurt by accident. I decided to give it some time. For about a week I didn't go back on the Rez, even to check on Bella. I watched her cross the boarder on her way to and from Jacob's house but in the meantime I was home trying to figure out a plan that would result in me not getting killed by my own kind and hopefully put in their good graces.

I knew my going back would ultimately hurt the Cullens but they weren't there to stop me, and I was mad they'd kept this huge secret from me for so long. I loved them but at the end of the day I'm still a wolf, and wolves draw their strength from their pack. I smiled down at my tattoo thinking of my father and prayed that he watch out for me as I inevitably make this possibly dangerous mission.