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hina and kazumi both approached you with a slow pace, they stopped as they were about two meters in front of you. hina opened her mouth, "im really sorry, sweetie." she said with no emotion in her voice whatsoever.

"izumi didnt even struggle at her death though, we made sure it was quick." she tried to reassure you but basically just confessed that she was the one who did it.

she wasnt sorry at all and it showed. you looked down at the ground and felt betrayed. speaking up in a whisper, trying not to cry at the moment, "... why?"

kazumi sighed, "at least tell her before she dies." and you snapped your head up at the comment. before you had a chance to process the words that fell out of kazumis mouth, hina already spoke up.

she took her sweet time explaining, "your dad, osamu kamo, decided to marry izumi l/n." she said in a bored voice.

your brain stopped functioning as you heard your dads name. that last name, that was why you couldnt take on his last name.

you heard of that name, osamu kamo, the one who went on his own path after abandoning his clan for the love of his life. you thought it was stupid at that time, but now you came to realize it was your own dad.

osamu kamo was one of the best jujutsu sorcerers, rumor had it that he could take the head of the zenin clan and the head of the kamo clan out at the same time.

"and you know damn well how strict the kamos are about bloodlines." hina paused and looked at you for any reaction while looking you up and down.

after she didnt find anything, she continued, "your mom didnt have pure blood, and you have it too." she said and looked at you in horror.

"you two are a living sin to the kamo family." she continued and narrowed her eyes at you, she changed completely. from smiling gently at you now looking down at you in disgust.

kazumi spoke up, correcting hina, "well, its not really two since one is already dead, but sure." they said and hina snapped her head to them, hitting the back of kazumis head in the process. "not now!" she let out.

you didnt pay attention to them, you had received to much information in the past hours and couldnt keep up anymore. besides that, you realized you were part of the kamo clan.

"so that is why kamo noritoshi knew about the l/n clan during the exchange event." you mumbled to yourself. they didnt hear you as hina and kazumi were having a small discussion on their own.

which made you realize again, you had kamo blood. 'did i get their technique too?' you questioned to yourself.

but this was no momemt to try it out. you snapped out of your daze and thought about everything that went down.

breaking your close friends heart, getting a strange letter, getting told your mom was already dead for a long time, not having any reason to continue living anymore, being lied too and betrayed, figuring out who your dad was.

it angered you so much, you couldnt take it anymore. you bended down slowly through your knees and cut off the plant that was keeping you hostage with your knife.

kazumi felt their plants weaken and snapped their head back at you. hina followed kazumis motion and saw you approaching them. your mind was blank, hina couldnt read it.

kazumi took hinas silence as a hint that she couldnt read your mind and made another hand sign, the plants emerging from the ground to wrap around your wrists.

you didnt flinch, instead you concentrated your shockwave in your hands and immediately pulled your arms upwards, the vines breaking in the process.

with furrowed brows and gritted teeth, you fastened your pace towards hina. they werent jujutsu sorcerers and it showed in the way they didnt fight back.

hina looked at you scared and took a step back, one foot behind the other untill she reached a fence. she didnt take her eyes of of you. "kazumi call them! for backup!" she screamed out and kazumi ran back into the house.

you wasted no time, you raised you arm with the knife and applied some of your shockwave technique in your hand, you slashed your arm downwards onto hina.

she screamed out, an ear piercing scream. the knife slashed through her shoulder to the side of her neck. blood came pouring out of her neck at an incredibly fast rate.

with her blood splashing on your pyjamas and face, you yelled back at her, "you had no right to take my moms life!" you screamed in her face and grabbed the collar of her shirt with your free hand.

you thought back at your mom, she absolutely didnt deserve it at all. she was just living her life and it was already miserable as it was. you just wanted her to be happy.

hina slumped down under your touch, her legs gave out and she fell forward. you let her collar loose and watched how hinas body fell to the hard, cold ground.

you heard a hard thud, she now laid face first on the floor and didnt make a move. you kept staring at her, hoping she would at least move her pinky, or that her back would rise due to breathing, but none of it happened.

"... what?" you whispered out loud. you couldnt believe it. your feelings took over your whole body in the rest of the moment.

you were shaking and the knife dropped out of your hand. both your arms slowly making their way to your blood dripping head and grab your hair.

looking at her, you felt like you couldnt breath anymore, hina had stopped moving and you looked at her lifeless body, there was still blood forming into a puddle around her neck.

falling down onto your knees, you looked at hinas body with widened eyes and utter disbelief on your face. you had killed someone, a person.

you didnt want it to be true, your breathing fastened and you shook your head sideways. fresh blood still dripping down your face onto your white plain shirt.

feeling tears in your eyes, you didnt bother to stop them from falling. the tears mixed with the red blood and fell down your face, your body still shaking.

you werent just crying, you were almost hyperventilating and having a panic attack. the tears dripped while your eyes were still widened and you couldnt avert your eyes anywhere else than the body in front of you.

nothing mattered anymore, you fucked up badly, you didnt even know you were capable of murder but here you were. sitting next to your first victim.

at that moment you felt a warm hand on your shoulder. you didnt care who it was, your body kept shaking and they felt it too.

not daring to look behind, you tried to stifle your sobs since you hated crying in front of anyone, but it didnt work. the tears kept spilling.

"im sorry im late, y/n." you heard a familiar voice speak up. as you were still sitting on the ground, you slowly tilted your body to the side and looked up to see if it was really him.

it really was him, you spoke up in between your sobs, "gojo-sens-" you tried to speak but your breath hitched. he crouched down to your level and helped you to stand up.

your legs were shaking vigorously as you held onto gojos forearms to help you stand up. you wouldnt dare to look at him, instead you spoke up, "sensei..." you said and took a deep breath.

"i just... killed someone." you told him with difficulty, the words were so disturbing to say. you looked up slowly to face him.

he didnt have his blindfold on and you looked at his light blue eyes, they looked so sad, his hair was down too. indicating that he didnt had time to prepare to come here as he most likely rushed.

gojo didnt look disappointed, instead, he felt sorry for you. he looked at the lifeless body next to you and then back to you. you tried your best to focus on your breathing.

he spoke up, "its okay. every sorcerer has to." he tried to reassure you. his voice sounded so odd, he didnt have his usual excitement anymore.

kazumi then slammed the door open to yell out, "hina! theyre comin-" they stopped as they saw what happened to hina.

hinas sibling didnt move, their mouth had parted and they had difficulty with breathing. gojo didnt take in account that there would be anyone else.

he used his technique, it was still unknown to you what kind of technique your sensei had but before you knew it, you were in the air with gojo.

his arms supporting your back, snaking between your backpack and back and another arm under your knee, he held you bridal style as the two of you flew back to jujutsu tech.

you looked up at him, face and clothes still drained in hinas blood only to see that he was already looking back at you, and spoke up, "im really sorry." he said while pausing for a bit. "i will tell you everything when were back." he told you and gave you a sad smile.