I'm sorry I did what you asked

You told me to talk more,

You told me to socialize.

You told me to read more,

You told me to speak my mind.

Now I'm the bad egg,

'cause I did the things you asked?

You wanted me to change,

Now I changed and it isn't right?

You said I should smile more,

I even smiled when it wasn't nice

I've grown tired of hiding thoughts,

Camouflaging doubts,

Behind these mighty walls; my lips

I've hated this veil, this veil of deceit

I hated it!

It's becoming part of me,

And I'm tired of silencing,

the scream inside of me.

I've read and I have learned,

All that we have done.

I'm sorry if I'm not,

Who you thought I will be,

But I have become I and I is me.

I'm tired of saying sorry.

I'm not sorry, I am furious at your lack of understanding

I'm not you! I can't be! I am ME!

I went in search of freedom,

And found my ostentatious wing,

We all want gold or some glorious glamour

But black is popular

Indolence a culture

So people settle for plebian

But I'm not people and I'm not common

I hope I'm not wrong,

That I'm not the monster deep inside.

and I may not be the sight for sore eyes,

But respect my choices 'cause at least I'll still wipe your sore eyes.